03-20-2017, 11:16 PM
I didn't actually make this account just for this. It was gonna be a Providence alt but I didn't get activated before I made the posts Ghosts asked me to. It's much easier to make a general notice on the forums than on Skype anyway. To clarify, so that all the cool kids don't jump on this thread to make this point, this is completely unrelated to my lack of being unable to lead. Yes, it's a factor in me not enjoying myself, but I think not having that sense of duty has allowed me to experience the game for myself, rather than trying to do things for others.
Since being back I've rarely had an experience where I've legitimately had fun, or haven't felt like I'm either being min/max trampled on by others (i.e, the fight in NL just now, one of a few experiences I've had) or felt like I'm wasting my own time and could be doing something more enriching. I am grateful for being unbanned, but I must confess it has been hard to find fun. I think the most I actually enjoyed myself was allowing me to work on some Systems for the next update. Otherwise, this place has changed. For the worse. Some of you must've noticed my signature.
I'll refrain from a long text-heavy post outlining what's wrong, or the mistakes have been made. They'll just fall on deaf ears anyway. I'm not talking about "bwaaaa .85 was sooo much better!!!!" (I mean I'm not that old LOL) or any crap like that. Since coming back from my ban I've noticed such a massive shift in atmosphere in Disco. The toxicity and general harmfulness that has accumulated in this community is both massive and ever present. It's so thick in the air you can almost choke on it. And for those of you who lack a sense of metaphorical smell; you can see it in our ever falling Player Count, the weekly leaving threads, the arguments and bickering on Skype, the constant forum drama and fall outs, the lack of respect between members in all corners of this community and so forth. And for those of you who can't even see that then, as harsh as this sounds and I do apologise, your blind ignorance is one of the contributing factors as to why things aren't getting better. It's the same head-in-the-sand mentality people were complaining about it for many years.
For a community, we're not communal at all. I joined another community during my absence and dear god the contrast is overwhelming. The most extreme thing about it is that memes are banned (Q.Q), but the general sense of feeling like you belong, being appreciated and feeling like your contributions actually matter more than makes up for that. The friendly, relaxed atmosphere makes me as a person feel positive, whereas here in Disco it can be really hard to not let yourself become victim to the immense negativity that tries to drag you down into the abyss of cliques, chaos and circlejerks. In the other community, the popular and respected people are people who have EARNED their place there through contributions and good personality. Here, it's the opposite. It's about having the right connections, and then pushing your way to the top of the food chain at the expense of other people around you. I remember that weird post by the Karlotta-But-Not-Karlotta alt who talked about an observation Xoria made; that Disco was a thug-ocracy. I feel that rings true more than ever these days. And knowing the kinds of people we have in this community, I can imagine some of them are rejoicing with my departure. One less piece on the chessboard, they'll be thinking to themselves.
For what it's worth, I enjoyed the time I had with people here back in the good ol' days and before the ban. And even upon my return, I was delighted to be welcomed back by so many with open arms. It was heart warming, and reminded me of the gentle nature this community used to have. And even though all of my contributions I made were never really recognised or appreciated at an official level (much like other leaders, who either become demotivated or unfortunately start playing for themselves), I'm happy that for the people who are grateful for my contributions I was able to shine a bit more light into their experience. You will always hold a special place in my heart.
Staff, feel free to pause my Probation until I get back, if ever. And kudos for trying to keep the pieces together. I might be back in a month or something. Dunno. Last time I made a leaving thread I had already stopped playing for a couple months and then after making the thread I was immediately drawn back in. However this time, I'm sceptical if that will happen as the magic that drew me back in last time is now gone.
tl;dr DiscoveryGC isn't fun or enjoyable anymore. Goodbye. -Lythrilux
Since being back I've rarely had an experience where I've legitimately had fun, or haven't felt like I'm either being min/max trampled on by others (i.e, the fight in NL just now, one of a few experiences I've had) or felt like I'm wasting my own time and could be doing something more enriching. I am grateful for being unbanned, but I must confess it has been hard to find fun. I think the most I actually enjoyed myself was
I'll refrain from a long text-heavy post outlining what's wrong, or the mistakes have been made. They'll just fall on deaf ears anyway. I'm not talking about "bwaaaa .85 was sooo much better!!!!" (I mean I'm not that old LOL) or any crap like that. Since coming back from my ban I've noticed such a massive shift in atmosphere in Disco. The toxicity and general harmfulness that has accumulated in this community is both massive and ever present. It's so thick in the air you can almost choke on it. And for those of you who lack a sense of metaphorical smell; you can see it in our ever falling Player Count, the weekly leaving threads, the arguments and bickering on Skype, the constant forum drama and fall outs, the lack of respect between members in all corners of this community and so forth. And for those of you who can't even see that then, as harsh as this sounds and I do apologise, your blind ignorance is one of the contributing factors as to why things aren't getting better. It's the same head-in-the-sand mentality people were complaining about it for many years.
For a community, we're not communal at all. I joined another community during my absence and dear god the contrast is overwhelming. The most extreme thing about it is that memes are banned (Q.Q), but the general sense of feeling like you belong, being appreciated and feeling like your contributions actually matter more than makes up for that. The friendly, relaxed atmosphere makes me as a person feel positive, whereas here in Disco it can be really hard to not let yourself become victim to the immense negativity that tries to drag you down into the abyss of cliques, chaos and circlejerks. In the other community, the popular and respected people are people who have EARNED their place there through contributions and good personality. Here, it's the opposite. It's about having the right connections, and then pushing your way to the top of the food chain at the expense of other people around you. I remember that weird post by the Karlotta-But-Not-Karlotta alt who talked about an observation Xoria made; that Disco was a thug-ocracy. I feel that rings true more than ever these days. And knowing the kinds of people we have in this community, I can imagine some of them are rejoicing with my departure. One less piece on the chessboard, they'll be thinking to themselves.
For what it's worth, I enjoyed the time I had with people here back in the good ol' days and before the ban. And even upon my return, I was delighted to be welcomed back by so many with open arms. It was heart warming, and reminded me of the gentle nature this community used to have. And even though all of my contributions I made were never really recognised or appreciated at an official level (much like other leaders, who either become demotivated or unfortunately start playing for themselves), I'm happy that for the people who are grateful for my contributions I was able to shine a bit more light into their experience. You will always hold a special place in my heart.
Staff, feel free to pause my Probation until I get back, if ever. And kudos for trying to keep the pieces together. I might be back in a month or something. Dunno. Last time I made a leaving thread I had already stopped playing for a couple months and then after making the thread I was immediately drawn back in. However this time, I'm sceptical if that will happen as the magic that drew me back in last time is now gone.
tl;dr DiscoveryGC isn't fun or enjoyable anymore. Goodbye. -Lythrilux