I got a trusted friend to help me in revision of the novella rewriting(s), so I am partially back to Disco - mostly for in-game stuff. Expect longer lack of reply and drop in my activity in the incoming week until next Friday.
I'm taking break from forums and likely in-game stuff. Why? Mostly because I... sort of require serious thinking about Discovery. As presented on the ShoutBox (what I regret to some extent) and private chat with certain people on Skype - I am indeed pretty much quite resigned to roleplay humans due to sort of mental blockade, but also the fact that I cannot force myself to do that - that's why there was an announcement in which I closed RP of three characters.
I already noted why there's such a situation - mostly caused by very violent real life event, but also heavily influenced by past Disco dramas in which my human characters which were pushed to the point I went @SMI-Great.Fox's way. I tried really hard, with all my best efforts - but in the end, every single character ends up disinteresting, bland and very forced. And I can't roleplay something that brings such a burden.
Came back (a bit faster than suspected) with pretty fresh ideas for Discovery and an overall idea how to cope with several problems of mine. But those are not the only good news. I am gladly recovering from rather serious trauma and medicaments are not required after fore analysis. I am glad drugs won't be necessairy because I was afraid that psychiatric hospitalisation would be needed.
Half of my novella has been revised sor far - in cooperation with my awesome lad, but it still needs a serious rewriting. To my knowledge, there's already sort of a concept cover already in WIP - from the money I funded from my prize in a writing competition.
I take a break from forums. Time: indefinite. I am also inaccessible through Skype as well for the time being and I'll refuse any matter connected to Discovery in anyway.