10-31-2017, 11:48 AM
Warning - philosophical word vomit incoming.
I've spent the past few weeks thinking about my position in Discovery. For better of worse I have been a monumentally influential figure both publicly and behind the scenes on both a factional and developmental level. And for the most part, when no outside input was required, I did nearly all of it myself. Effects, models, reskins, hardpointing, storyline input, the occasional system edit, diplomacy, krieg, writing, and perhaps most of all the exhausting but rewarding job of instilling esprit de corps within the ranks.
I'm nearly 24 now. Without too many details (those of you who need to know, know anyway), I've gotten off to a relatively late start in life. Since spring I have been busier than I have ever been, and in writing this I'm acknowledging my new role in Discovery as a whole. I no longer have the time, and most importantly the motivation, to operate in the manner that I once did. I come home from work and immediately crash, spend six straight hours chilling with my girlfriend, or hop on a game that doesn't require more work. I've thought about leaving, but that doesn't solve much of anything either - I gain free time, but also lose a large part of myself in the process. I've also constantly been working on something since I was 15. Unless I have personal projects here and there I go nuts, or fall into a pretty awful depression. With this in mind, there is only one clear and obvious answer remaining.
I'm going to have to crowdsource. I need people I can trust in places I don't trust anyone. I need help with everything ranging from secretarial duties on a faction based level ("Go respond to this comm, go initiate diplomacy with faction X, take folks raiding today, arrange event Y), to help with advanced developmental work. ("Go smoothgroup this model, makes these ini changes, make sure project Z gets done on time.")
The truth is that I'm a little bit of a control freak. I've lambasted a lot of important figures in Discovery both historical and present for doing the same thing (Zelot, Mjolnir, Teerin, and Alley all come to mind), but I'm just as guilty on that count. One trait I've always prided myself on is the ability to acknowledge my flaws, and right now the undeniable fact is that my decade long modus operandi is no longer tenable. If anyone reading this thinks they can help in any, and I do mean any way, post here and I'll do my best to get you set up with whatever needs doing. The only exception is people who I've turned away in the past. If I've done that, then there is a reason. I'm looking for fresh blood here, new names, not old.
I've spent the past few weeks thinking about my position in Discovery. For better of worse I have been a monumentally influential figure both publicly and behind the scenes on both a factional and developmental level. And for the most part, when no outside input was required, I did nearly all of it myself. Effects, models, reskins, hardpointing, storyline input, the occasional system edit, diplomacy, krieg, writing, and perhaps most of all the exhausting but rewarding job of instilling esprit de corps within the ranks.
I'm nearly 24 now. Without too many details (those of you who need to know, know anyway), I've gotten off to a relatively late start in life. Since spring I have been busier than I have ever been, and in writing this I'm acknowledging my new role in Discovery as a whole. I no longer have the time, and most importantly the motivation, to operate in the manner that I once did. I come home from work and immediately crash, spend six straight hours chilling with my girlfriend, or hop on a game that doesn't require more work. I've thought about leaving, but that doesn't solve much of anything either - I gain free time, but also lose a large part of myself in the process. I've also constantly been working on something since I was 15. Unless I have personal projects here and there I go nuts, or fall into a pretty awful depression. With this in mind, there is only one clear and obvious answer remaining.
I'm going to have to crowdsource. I need people I can trust in places I don't trust anyone. I need help with everything ranging from secretarial duties on a faction based level ("Go respond to this comm, go initiate diplomacy with faction X, take folks raiding today, arrange event Y), to help with advanced developmental work. ("Go smoothgroup this model, makes these ini changes, make sure project Z gets done on time.")
The truth is that I'm a little bit of a control freak. I've lambasted a lot of important figures in Discovery both historical and present for doing the same thing (Zelot, Mjolnir, Teerin, and Alley all come to mind), but I'm just as guilty on that count. One trait I've always prided myself on is the ability to acknowledge my flaws, and right now the undeniable fact is that my decade long modus operandi is no longer tenable. If anyone reading this thinks they can help in any, and I do mean any way, post here and I'll do my best to get you set up with whatever needs doing. The only exception is people who I've turned away in the past. If I've done that, then there is a reason. I'm looking for fresh blood here, new names, not old.
Justin