11th of May, 722 AGS (807 AS), Monsieur MacMahon's classroom, Les Plaines Regional School, Saleux, Planet Amiens
Collèges.
Awkward. Restless. Bursting with children climbing the fence into early adulthood, a task which some took to gracefully. However, most others tripped, stumbled, and fell on the way.
Alaric sailed at flank speed from the devilish purgatory of childhood and adulthood battling it out over his body. He thanked the stars that the stink of battle was now far more subdued, and the acne craters of artillery duels between the two stages of life mostly cleared from his face.
His baby features now abandoned him, and his kid charm fell away like a booster rocket. He grew taller, and his voice plummeted dramatically from a church soprano to an occasionally-squeaking baritone, which threatened to evolve at once to a perhaps thrilling bass.
But he relished that the weirdest stage was now, for the most part, behind. He had his friends, and they had all leveled out from the chaos of early
collèges. He paid no heed when his mother gushed "oh, how handsome you are" or "you just look so lovely, all grown up and taken care of!"
He was "taken care of" rarely. He let a stringy, prickly beard thrive like weeds on his chin, and abandoned his hair like wild grasslands so long as it didn't interfere with his vision. Alaric would sit meekly, often to the rear of any class. No great attention was paid to him and he did not seek it. He contented himself with window-staring daydreams of fighters and cruisers zipping between the stars, and filled notebooks with pencil diagrams of the dusty wooden models which spangled every shelf of his room.
Alaric's math teacher, a stout and thickly bearded fellow by the name of MacMahon droned on at the other end of the room. His gentle monotone was a famed sleeping agent, and it often took distractions for one to remain awake and attentive in his class.
This was Alaric's excuse to see to his model sets during lectures, obscured by the two dozen heads and torsos between him and the teacher. His fingers were as steady as a surgeon's as he applied his
Obstinate-class battlecruiser's main guns to the port and starboard wings jutting below and fore of the bridge.
Gently, ever so gently, he lowered the first anti-ship gun on its prescribed dollop of glue. A satisfying little squish followed, and after a few seconds, he tested its sureness. The gun was rock-steady on the wing.
Then came the next. A similar dollop of glue, perfectly formed from the practice of hundreds upon hundreds of similar attachments over the years. Neither gun could articulate, but they were mounted facing forward, as if the plastic ship was charging its mortal foe.
He stared at it, struck with sudden curiosity. Who were the crew within those little window stickers? What kind of person did it take to fly machine works of art with celestial bodies? How strong were they, and sewn with what courageous fabric?
He imagined great men, and often wrote little stories for them. Heroes that were larger than life, careening headlong into the enemy's wicked formations. Their physical descriptions differed, but the common denominators were the traits of imagined fearless leaders. They wielded great power and refused the word "no" any legitimacy. They were strong men, and nothing could hurt them.
Salvation was only minutes away, now. A clock above the door crept closer and closer to two, which hesitated like a performer in the spotlight with so many eyes watching. MacMahon continued to ramble, unaware that his whole class was wrapped up in the final ticking seconds.
...And then the bell chimed. In an instant, doors flew open and throngs of kids pushed and poured through the halls like a tsunami wave. Alaric quickly packed his things, throwing his model parts in a plastic bag and cradling the frame in his arms like a delicate child.
He poked his head out of the class, his lanky body spilling out of the doorway. No sign of Jacques, or Richard, or any of the usual subjects.
Perhaps today he could really get away with it. He spent every passing period dodging in and out of crowds, and his reward was the feeling of some francs still in his pocket. These would go well to some snacks.
He breathed a heavy sigh of relief, drifting into the hall with the stragglers of the mob. The front doors were in sight, and beyond them, the bus home to Saleux. He reached for the double doors, when his collar suddenly clenched and choked his neck.
"Hey. Alaric."
A bolt of fear rippled down his back. He was so close...
"Hello, Jacques," he answered shakily.
"I missed you at lunch."
"I was studying."
"Studying what?" Jacques spat. "This place is a joke."
"Look, I just need to go home, and-"
Jacques turned Alaric around and lifted him up by his shirt, cocking a fist just under his chin.
"You usually get me some food at lunch, Alaric. Did you think I wouldn't notice?"
"Look! Look, I was just busy, OK?"
Jacques glared at him for a moment.
"Alright. Fine. Hand it over, then."
Alaric breathed a sigh of relief, plunging a shivering hand into his pockets for change. He piled the francs into Jacques' waiting hand. He steamed, angry at himself for getting cocky and blowing a rare chance to keep his leftover lunch money.
"Now that wasn't so hard, was it?"
"Yeah. OK. I guess not."
Jacques' new friend Pierre cackled. Their little gang pushed by, although Pierre stopped at the door.
Just like Jacques, he was an unfortunate beast of a man. He gave Alaric a once-over, taking stock of their victim.
"Let me see that," he barked. His sweaty hands shot out at the battlecruiser model Alaric was cradling.
"Hey- piss off!" Alaric slapped his hands away. His spontaneous burst of backbone shot him in the foot.
Pierre scowled, and as Alaric flailed away trying to protect his work, the bigger kid sent a wide right haymaker flying.
Alaric clung desperately to a support pillar as the bones in his skull pulsed violently. His entire skull ached and his vision shimmered. Pierre stomped over and easily ripped the model cruiser out of his arms. Dizzied, Alaric's attempt at recovering it ended in him stumbling to the floor.
"Bad move, dumbass," Pierre spat. He held the model in his hands, ultimately disinterested in its composition. He threw it against the pillar, and its pieces shattered to the floor at Alaric's feet.
His tormentors laughed as they departed.
He gathered up the pieces solemnly, collecting them into his plastic bag of parts. It was a futile effort, as the frame itself had been wrecked beyond recognition by the impact.
As he lifted himself up and went out to the buses, he saw a few teachers pass him by. Not a single one paid him more than a second's glance, and his underpaid instructors continued at top speed to their own vehicles or to the train station. There was simply no time to spare. Or, at the very least, no time worth sparing him.
It was a relatively quiet ride back home. He massaged his pulsing cheek, and dabbed away the crimson ooze from a cut under his eye.
As she had done many times before, his mother cooed and cleaned the wound, applied and ice pack, and made something good to eat.
But this was no salve. Alaric could only keep staring at the remains of his model set and the blood which had dripped down and dried on it.
He secluded himself in his cramped room that afternoon, wailing away at his bed, and the walls, chafing under the ever-inescapable jackboot he was crushed under.
He yelled. Cried. Now, it was all too much.
His father had come home that night, and was off of work for the next couple of days. After the family ate dinner in the kitchen, he quietly took Alaric by the arm and led him into the garden.
"Your mother told me about what happened today."
Alaric's cheeks burned. As they stood, watching the evening sun trickle through the pockmarked clouds, he buried his face in his hands.
"I don't want to talk about it."
His father put a warm, calloused hand on his shoulder.
"I know. Nothing I can say can make this better."
Alaric turned, ever so slightly.
"Yeah? Yeah... I know."
Father sighed, lighting up a cigarette and taking a light drag. Thin wisps of smoke disappeared into the air.
"I just... I just don't think I can take it anymore."
"Then don't."
'it's not that easy! These guys, they're just-"
"Alaric," he commanded.
The son quieted, looking up weakly.
"Don't you want to learn how to... you know... take care of yourself?"
"You mean fighting, right?"
"Yes."
Alaric sighed. "I guess, it's just... it's really, really scary."
"I know it is, son."
"I don't...
know if I can do that. And... can we even afford that?"
His father took another drag, and placed his hands on his hips.
"Well, if you want to try, we can make it happen for you."
"I just... I don't... wouldn't that be expensive?"
"I don't know, Alaric. That's not important right now."
He turned and walked back to the house.
"Just remember that nobody can solve your problems for you, Alaric.
Real problems like this. You know your mother and I love you. But you have to come into your own."
He stepped back into the house, leaving Alaric alone with the setting sun casting its final rays over the garden. He viciously swiped at a tear falling down his cheek. Now, he was left to himself again.
He threw his fist at the fence. And again, and again, and again.
He fell to his knees. Thoughts of the model cruiser ran through his head, of the little sailors in the window stickers. He would never be like them. He knew it.
But he could try.