11-10-2019, 11:29 AM
Heya, Name's diamond1. Also known as diamondwolf12 on twitch or that one idiot that decided it was a fantastic idea to ram a rheinland warship only to get launched into the planet. It's been a long time coming but here I am.
I'm unsure of my state of mind about this game but there is one thing i do know. I'm bored. I've done almost everything i've hoped to do except one last thing which looks like i'll never get requested. Frankly i don't have the determination to seek it out anymore. I've done the following:
* Nearly get FR5'd on three occasions,
* Somehow and miracuously avoided sanctions
* Friendly fire an ally as a unlawful to what was an attempted rescue mission on a pirate ( Search Gold.Diggah in the forum search bar if you're curious )
* Searched practically every system in sirius including Uncharted I and II ( I have a ship in II), Uncharted Kusari ,liberty, Rheinland, Bretonia, and Kusari ( With the help of someone else ), And even the dyson sphere.
* Get myself a derilect
* Create a SRP ( It was a personal project and more like a fun self thing. Seemed to be recieved poorly. in the end. Oh well)
* Join a faction ( First time went well until i got booted out for "Reasons" and the second time, I enjoy it where the time i spend on it ( will talk about that later ))
* Been a lawful, unlawful, Trader, and bounty hunter
* Create a POB ( Did this with Reddy after faction issues )
* Went code hunting across the entire of sirius ( Will post locations including EXACT location for archangels down below )
* Own a Jump drive, Docking module, Drone bay ( and persist with it), Cloaking device, and cloak disruptor
* Amassed over 5 billion credits ( probbably at least 10 in items )
* Successfully get someone from twitch to try out disco
* Scored my highest viewed video of me being an absolute idiot trying to move a NPC out of the way
* Made many friends
* Attend the showdown of gallia and persist a ship inside the system for screenshot purposes
* Created a player made event which did start pretty well, then it spiralled downards
* Attend rediculous convoys
* Scored my first ever PROPPER win in battle with a mine (https://www.twitch.tv/diamondwolf12/clip...eTwitchRPG Noise warning. I was very excited to get my first ever non-nova kill after 3 years and consistently being closed to killing people normally)
* Been at sieges ( that was boring )
* And many more
I could go on for a while for what i've done in the past, But that's not needed.
I'm going to be explaining something in this next paragraph here.
When i came back from a hiatus of about a year since last november or so, I went away because of an internal conflict involving an old faction and then having nothing to do after we sold off the POB because i wanted something else to do. This lead to me moving to twitch to amass my time on there. I said to myself that i would try to at least get a few people interested in disco and I did! But unfortunately that had some problems of it's own.
For starters, i think i spent about 10 months solid of going from 10:30 PM to 2 AM almost every single day for that long period. And then attending events from 3 AM to 6-8 AM onwards on weekends from there. This caused a significant issue in my day to day basis and as of the last few weeks of going silent and dark, i've been trying to fix it. Which, has might've been doing something, thank god. I couldn't keep attending these early morning things because it was just plain impossible now that i've done everything. Why? Freelancer has been with me since i was a kid. I have a bit of a strange influence around freelancer and being determined to do things in it, But i'm thinking i've finally burned up ( Like crashing into the planet for example!) and can't continue on.
These changes were affecting my lifestyle and wellbeing. That, and a few other things in revolving around a few other hobbies were kind of a swirling mass of hell. So i took a step back from disco for a bit before having a thought about what to do next.
Then came other issues: The playerbase. Surprisingly enough, I wasn't bothered that much by players. Sure, if you've seen my videos, you'll see i've made smartass comments, Talked about other players, or even get frustrated with certain things. All in all, it's a heat of the moment thing. I never took it to heart and was always fine the next day with said people. But to be fair, I was more interested in the arguments and other things going on in the playerbase than any lore or roleplay that this server had. Kind of a sad addiction to drama here. That, also did things I didn't want that lead to a few other issues i won't speak personally about. Seeing and hearing consistency in players leaving and being driven away was disheartening again and again, But wasn't suprised with it at all. I pressed on from it.
I'm bored because of a few things. Namely, Piracy in liberty has been scarce. issues within the rogues for example, has left with inactivity from what i've seen and i resorted to switching over to the pirate life since that was the only action i could find. But, everyone was running off ( not going to lie, I was doing that too as a trader sometimes. ) and the stress of time running back and fourth was exhausting and not worth waking up at 4 am in the mornings on saturdays anymore without a means of quickly moving around.
Roleplay is another issue i had on the list.
I will disclaim here right now that i fully know people have their own roleplay, but this is my perspective
A small issue has been arising for a while within the roleplay form, it was a while back actually when i got invited into the omicrons. I thought with my little rolaplaying ships the {Voided} i'd go see new opportunities. Unfortunately what personally i thought was a joke at first because it was drastically diverted off course to what I was hoping to achieve, i had to back out before a roleplay incident became NSFW which let me tell ya, was not comfortable in the slightest ( mostly unusual since it's something i rarely see in RP games ). This started increasing more when it came to Piracy related RP and while i tolerated it to a point, I eventually just went F it and made mental notes on what to avoid.
The second part of roleplay being an issue was when and when not i was attempting to do RP. I use a simple format because i'm not a person who's big on words, But a few times i've made it plainly obvious when I'm trying to redirect to RP and all people really seem to want is to blast me to pieces. As a pirate, I know that, but if you're going to kill me because i'm a terrible fighter, at least humor my side with interesting roleplay ( Those who have given me laughs or entertaining RP, you're the goddamn best.) And this has gone to another issue:
Weaponry and battles:
As many of you know, i favor the Warran Civilian Bomber and dual Nova load-outs faced with EMP based mines. Why? Ping, Mostly.
Australian net isn't forgiving in the online world. I had a constant ping base of 335-360 Whenever i was online. This made PVP fighting almost impossible because the connection between the two was just players jittering in and out of the battlezone which lead to on my end, some pretty rediculous shots. Cruise disruptors were not adjusting as they would, Mines wouldn't do damage on my screen, Countermeasures ALWAYS failing, and the "Shield absorption" Delays when it came to one-shield-shots. This was when i quickly adapted to the dual nova loadout and static-object crashing in order to get kills since that was the only way i could get kills. And before you question it, Yes i've tried hours and hours and hours AND HOURSon end of practice and that hasn't helped. I have to rely largely on luck. This lead to PVP burnout when I've been consistently getting blasted again and again while cash being slowly whittled away ( thank you for those who helped comphensate for it in the past). But being tied to this place for a while now, i can somewhat guess how a person feels about in battle. After trying again and again of listening to the "Get better" or "Train more" Which, Throughout the entire 11 months of livestreaming it, It made no difference, I got frustrated of listening to it, gave up and stuck to novas for fun.
here's a fun fact for you, It was the BHG| Who actually forced me into this loadout because of consistent double and triple teaming. But that's another story for another time.
Onwards to the next one.
When the gallic showdown arrived, I was absolutely blown away by the effort done on the planetary bombardment of gallia in New London. That was seriously the best event i've seen since the Pittsburg planetary cultist event and even if it was a bit awry, we maxed out population with 5-10+ over! and even managed to catch it on livestream with a few crashes, but that happened. Which sparked determination in the next event which followed afterwards.
I attended the next event, too. Which was a bit opposite. And that ended up with Indestructible weapon platforms blasting our flagship into oblivion in no-time flat because i went through the Jumpgate afterwards. That lead myself, and many others to being confused. While it genuinely scared the absolute hell out of me being faced with this kind of firepower, It kinda seemed to go in the wrong direction of the intended event, and i had to escape back through the Jumpgate so i wouldn't get vaporised. This event in terms kinda whittled also my determination because I, myself thought that It wasn't going to retain the greatness of what was the London event in my opinion.
This lead me to doing code hunting and derilect chasing. because i was running out of strength to keep going. I scoured the entire bloddy sirius sector looking for codes and managed to come across a derilect while i was at it and scored myself a TDG at the same time, woo! to which I funnily enough, had no use for and kept it for storage on one of my other RP ships.
Oh yeah, here are the locations by yours truly if you wish to find some of these yourself!
TANZANITE: Picardy G3 centre-top Shipname: Gallic Heavy Fighter
TANARIS: Ile-De-France F2 Bottom-Right Shipname: Superbe
JADE: Tau-31 D3 bottom-centre Shipname: Kusari Heavy Fighter
BLUE BLAZE: TOTTORI D1 Slight-bottom-center Shipname: Uwajima
HAMMERFALL: Honshu, D2 left-center Shipname: Kanadzuchi
ONYX: Thuringia B4 bottom-center Shipname: Munin
DIAMONDBACK: Alberta G2 Top-Center Shipname: Black Bart
PROMETHEUS: Omega-2 E6 Top-right Shipname: Bounty Hunter Fighter
GOLDEN BLADE: Omega-55 b6 left-center Shipname: Zacari Benitez ( WARNING: SOLAR DAMAGE)
RAGNAROK: omega-58 E6 bottom-right Shipname: {BLANK}
HEIMDALL: Omega-58 Center-of-map (Topleft of neutron star, Warning: Increased radiation damage) Shipname: Vesteralen
EXCALIBUR: Drake C/D-6 Center shipname: Volans
ARIHMAN: Drake F1 Bottom left (41-42k's UP) shipname: Unknown
CERBERUS: Thuringia C7 (OBTAINABLE, REQUIRES BOMBER/GB/CRUISER) Shipname: Karl Speer ( The reason being is that you need to rapidly spam your shield and hull bots so you don't get blasted. A warran bomber is what i used to get to it since you'll get blasted by invisible pockets of gas )
SOLARIS: Texas C6 Top-center shipname: Dallas Storage Container
ARCHANGEL: Omicron Major F6 Top-Right Shipname: UNKNOWN ( Hidden wreck )
https://imgur.com/vBDkXmz ( The exact spot on map )
https://imgur.com/ufgfvmN ( What you're looking for and where )
There are many more, but these are the ones i've confirmed back then ( Not sure if they've changed. Better go grab them while you can!)
...
I will say, I'm not the best person to look up to. I've had tantrums, I've been stressed and frustrated over minor things and at people, or a consistent person. Which is why i've done this in hopes to change that because otherwise it's just going to get worse. What i did care about was enjoying myself and hopes that others did too and where those times did, There were others that wern't. We all have those days. My main goal was to try and become a better person, but i realised that I can't even start anywhere if I don't help myself first. And this is where this comes in.
I don't plan on quitting disco, I just need a really long break because i'm tired, exhausted, and bored because my true goal to disco, To fly a Barge In multiplayer Will probbably not be realised. But i think that's ok, Not everything can be achieved. I had fun with other things along the way. It's that I need to fix myself first before i can really do anything else otherwise i'm not getting anywhere.
I will give credit to those who have: Put up with my ranting bS, Put up with my annoyances, Dealt on the recieving end of my dual novas ( I swear to god self-suicide isn't a plan at all. I just continuously miss my targets thanks to delays. Oops. ) and maybe a few other things i've done to annoy you. Because you've still stuck around in disco with not just my BS, but others BS as well.
I have quite a few people to thank. That stuff is usually cheesy, but it's alright. ( If i get these wrong then so help me )
The community has to be thanked to keeping this place alive, But you're the ones with probably an immeasurable amount more of stress than I'm dealing with right now and have to deal with after this post, And you're doing it all in your spare time at no cost, too. Christ sakes I don't know what to say. You've given me some bloddy amazing events to play with and even some things to tinker around with which has been awesome and I really do thank you for keeping this game alive for all it's worth and not going down without a fight. Even if it's received badly or other things that may have hindered your determination of work or something, Thank you for sticking with us and all the ***** you've been taking because it really does take a lot.
I think i'm out of things to say. I needed to get a few of these things off my chest and now's a good time as ever, eh?
Even as i'm writing this, I'm feeling a little sad I had to say this, but i've got no other choice. There are other space sims for me to try out for a while before i'll be coming back. I don't know when, But hopefully I won't be gone for too long. I just need a break. Oh, and you're not getting my stuff. Don't even think about asking me!
Either way, I hope you all the best of luck, If you want to find me, You'll know where to find me. Have a good one, and I'll see you all later!
I'm not quitting. I just need a long break from disco to fix my own issues first. And this includes other places, too.
Take care of you all, I'll see you around. Keep the seats warm for me when I get back.
I'm unsure of my state of mind about this game but there is one thing i do know. I'm bored. I've done almost everything i've hoped to do except one last thing which looks like i'll never get requested. Frankly i don't have the determination to seek it out anymore. I've done the following:
* Nearly get FR5'd on three occasions,
* Somehow and miracuously avoided sanctions
* Friendly fire an ally as a unlawful to what was an attempted rescue mission on a pirate ( Search Gold.Diggah in the forum search bar if you're curious )
* Searched practically every system in sirius including Uncharted I and II ( I have a ship in II), Uncharted Kusari ,liberty, Rheinland, Bretonia, and Kusari ( With the help of someone else ), And even the dyson sphere.
* Get myself a derilect
* Create a SRP ( It was a personal project and more like a fun self thing. Seemed to be recieved poorly. in the end. Oh well)
* Join a faction ( First time went well until i got booted out for "Reasons" and the second time, I enjoy it where the time i spend on it ( will talk about that later ))
* Been a lawful, unlawful, Trader, and bounty hunter
* Create a POB ( Did this with Reddy after faction issues )
* Went code hunting across the entire of sirius ( Will post locations including EXACT location for archangels down below )
* Own a Jump drive, Docking module, Drone bay ( and persist with it), Cloaking device, and cloak disruptor
* Amassed over 5 billion credits ( probbably at least 10 in items )
* Successfully get someone from twitch to try out disco
* Scored my highest viewed video of me being an absolute idiot trying to move a NPC out of the way
* Made many friends
* Attend the showdown of gallia and persist a ship inside the system for screenshot purposes
* Created a player made event which did start pretty well, then it spiralled downards
* Attend rediculous convoys
* Scored my first ever PROPPER win in battle with a mine (https://www.twitch.tv/diamondwolf12/clip...eTwitchRPG Noise warning. I was very excited to get my first ever non-nova kill after 3 years and consistently being closed to killing people normally)
* Been at sieges ( that was boring )
* And many more
I could go on for a while for what i've done in the past, But that's not needed.
I'm going to be explaining something in this next paragraph here.
When i came back from a hiatus of about a year since last november or so, I went away because of an internal conflict involving an old faction and then having nothing to do after we sold off the POB because i wanted something else to do. This lead to me moving to twitch to amass my time on there. I said to myself that i would try to at least get a few people interested in disco and I did! But unfortunately that had some problems of it's own.
For starters, i think i spent about 10 months solid of going from 10:30 PM to 2 AM almost every single day for that long period. And then attending events from 3 AM to 6-8 AM onwards on weekends from there. This caused a significant issue in my day to day basis and as of the last few weeks of going silent and dark, i've been trying to fix it. Which, has might've been doing something, thank god. I couldn't keep attending these early morning things because it was just plain impossible now that i've done everything. Why? Freelancer has been with me since i was a kid. I have a bit of a strange influence around freelancer and being determined to do things in it, But i'm thinking i've finally burned up ( Like crashing into the planet for example!) and can't continue on.
These changes were affecting my lifestyle and wellbeing. That, and a few other things in revolving around a few other hobbies were kind of a swirling mass of hell. So i took a step back from disco for a bit before having a thought about what to do next.
Then came other issues: The playerbase. Surprisingly enough, I wasn't bothered that much by players. Sure, if you've seen my videos, you'll see i've made smartass comments, Talked about other players, or even get frustrated with certain things. All in all, it's a heat of the moment thing. I never took it to heart and was always fine the next day with said people. But to be fair, I was more interested in the arguments and other things going on in the playerbase than any lore or roleplay that this server had. Kind of a sad addiction to drama here. That, also did things I didn't want that lead to a few other issues i won't speak personally about. Seeing and hearing consistency in players leaving and being driven away was disheartening again and again, But wasn't suprised with it at all. I pressed on from it.
I'm bored because of a few things. Namely, Piracy in liberty has been scarce. issues within the rogues for example, has left with inactivity from what i've seen and i resorted to switching over to the pirate life since that was the only action i could find. But, everyone was running off ( not going to lie, I was doing that too as a trader sometimes. ) and the stress of time running back and fourth was exhausting and not worth waking up at 4 am in the mornings on saturdays anymore without a means of quickly moving around.
Roleplay is another issue i had on the list.
I will disclaim here right now that i fully know people have their own roleplay, but this is my perspective
A small issue has been arising for a while within the roleplay form, it was a while back actually when i got invited into the omicrons. I thought with my little rolaplaying ships the {Voided} i'd go see new opportunities. Unfortunately what personally i thought was a joke at first because it was drastically diverted off course to what I was hoping to achieve, i had to back out before a roleplay incident became NSFW which let me tell ya, was not comfortable in the slightest ( mostly unusual since it's something i rarely see in RP games ). This started increasing more when it came to Piracy related RP and while i tolerated it to a point, I eventually just went F it and made mental notes on what to avoid.
The second part of roleplay being an issue was when and when not i was attempting to do RP. I use a simple format because i'm not a person who's big on words, But a few times i've made it plainly obvious when I'm trying to redirect to RP and all people really seem to want is to blast me to pieces. As a pirate, I know that, but if you're going to kill me because i'm a terrible fighter, at least humor my side with interesting roleplay ( Those who have given me laughs or entertaining RP, you're the goddamn best.) And this has gone to another issue:
Weaponry and battles:
As many of you know, i favor the Warran Civilian Bomber and dual Nova load-outs faced with EMP based mines. Why? Ping, Mostly.
Australian net isn't forgiving in the online world. I had a constant ping base of 335-360 Whenever i was online. This made PVP fighting almost impossible because the connection between the two was just players jittering in and out of the battlezone which lead to on my end, some pretty rediculous shots. Cruise disruptors were not adjusting as they would, Mines wouldn't do damage on my screen, Countermeasures ALWAYS failing, and the "Shield absorption" Delays when it came to one-shield-shots. This was when i quickly adapted to the dual nova loadout and static-object crashing in order to get kills since that was the only way i could get kills. And before you question it, Yes i've tried hours and hours and hours AND HOURSon end of practice and that hasn't helped. I have to rely largely on luck. This lead to PVP burnout when I've been consistently getting blasted again and again while cash being slowly whittled away ( thank you for those who helped comphensate for it in the past). But being tied to this place for a while now, i can somewhat guess how a person feels about in battle. After trying again and again of listening to the "Get better" or "Train more" Which, Throughout the entire 11 months of livestreaming it, It made no difference, I got frustrated of listening to it, gave up and stuck to novas for fun.
here's a fun fact for you, It was the BHG| Who actually forced me into this loadout because of consistent double and triple teaming. But that's another story for another time.
Onwards to the next one.
When the gallic showdown arrived, I was absolutely blown away by the effort done on the planetary bombardment of gallia in New London. That was seriously the best event i've seen since the Pittsburg planetary cultist event and even if it was a bit awry, we maxed out population with 5-10+ over! and even managed to catch it on livestream with a few crashes, but that happened. Which sparked determination in the next event which followed afterwards.
I attended the next event, too. Which was a bit opposite. And that ended up with Indestructible weapon platforms blasting our flagship into oblivion in no-time flat because i went through the Jumpgate afterwards. That lead myself, and many others to being confused. While it genuinely scared the absolute hell out of me being faced with this kind of firepower, It kinda seemed to go in the wrong direction of the intended event, and i had to escape back through the Jumpgate so i wouldn't get vaporised. This event in terms kinda whittled also my determination because I, myself thought that It wasn't going to retain the greatness of what was the London event in my opinion.
This lead me to doing code hunting and derilect chasing. because i was running out of strength to keep going. I scoured the entire bloddy sirius sector looking for codes and managed to come across a derilect while i was at it and scored myself a TDG at the same time, woo! to which I funnily enough, had no use for and kept it for storage on one of my other RP ships.
Oh yeah, here are the locations by yours truly if you wish to find some of these yourself!
TANZANITE: Picardy G3 centre-top Shipname: Gallic Heavy Fighter
TANARIS: Ile-De-France F2 Bottom-Right Shipname: Superbe
JADE: Tau-31 D3 bottom-centre Shipname: Kusari Heavy Fighter
BLUE BLAZE: TOTTORI D1 Slight-bottom-center Shipname: Uwajima
HAMMERFALL: Honshu, D2 left-center Shipname: Kanadzuchi
ONYX: Thuringia B4 bottom-center Shipname: Munin
DIAMONDBACK: Alberta G2 Top-Center Shipname: Black Bart
PROMETHEUS: Omega-2 E6 Top-right Shipname: Bounty Hunter Fighter
GOLDEN BLADE: Omega-55 b6 left-center Shipname: Zacari Benitez ( WARNING: SOLAR DAMAGE)
RAGNAROK: omega-58 E6 bottom-right Shipname: {BLANK}
HEIMDALL: Omega-58 Center-of-map (Topleft of neutron star, Warning: Increased radiation damage) Shipname: Vesteralen
EXCALIBUR: Drake C/D-6 Center shipname: Volans
ARIHMAN: Drake F1 Bottom left (41-42k's UP) shipname: Unknown
CERBERUS: Thuringia C7 (OBTAINABLE, REQUIRES BOMBER/GB/CRUISER) Shipname: Karl Speer ( The reason being is that you need to rapidly spam your shield and hull bots so you don't get blasted. A warran bomber is what i used to get to it since you'll get blasted by invisible pockets of gas )
SOLARIS: Texas C6 Top-center shipname: Dallas Storage Container
ARCHANGEL: Omicron Major F6 Top-Right Shipname: UNKNOWN ( Hidden wreck )
https://imgur.com/vBDkXmz ( The exact spot on map )
https://imgur.com/ufgfvmN ( What you're looking for and where )
There are many more, but these are the ones i've confirmed back then ( Not sure if they've changed. Better go grab them while you can!)
...
I will say, I'm not the best person to look up to. I've had tantrums, I've been stressed and frustrated over minor things and at people, or a consistent person. Which is why i've done this in hopes to change that because otherwise it's just going to get worse. What i did care about was enjoying myself and hopes that others did too and where those times did, There were others that wern't. We all have those days. My main goal was to try and become a better person, but i realised that I can't even start anywhere if I don't help myself first. And this is where this comes in.
I don't plan on quitting disco, I just need a really long break because i'm tired, exhausted, and bored because my true goal to disco, To fly a Barge In multiplayer Will probbably not be realised. But i think that's ok, Not everything can be achieved. I had fun with other things along the way. It's that I need to fix myself first before i can really do anything else otherwise i'm not getting anywhere.
I will give credit to those who have: Put up with my ranting bS, Put up with my annoyances, Dealt on the recieving end of my dual novas ( I swear to god self-suicide isn't a plan at all. I just continuously miss my targets thanks to delays. Oops. ) and maybe a few other things i've done to annoy you. Because you've still stuck around in disco with not just my BS, but others BS as well.
I have quite a few people to thank. That stuff is usually cheesy, but it's alright. ( If i get these wrong then so help me )
The community has to be thanked to keeping this place alive, But you're the ones with probably an immeasurable amount more of stress than I'm dealing with right now and have to deal with after this post, And you're doing it all in your spare time at no cost, too. Christ sakes I don't know what to say. You've given me some bloddy amazing events to play with and even some things to tinker around with which has been awesome and I really do thank you for keeping this game alive for all it's worth and not going down without a fight. Even if it's received badly or other things that may have hindered your determination of work or something, Thank you for sticking with us and all the ***** you've been taking because it really does take a lot.
I think i'm out of things to say. I needed to get a few of these things off my chest and now's a good time as ever, eh?
Even as i'm writing this, I'm feeling a little sad I had to say this, but i've got no other choice. There are other space sims for me to try out for a while before i'll be coming back. I don't know when, But hopefully I won't be gone for too long. I just need a break. Oh, and you're not getting my stuff. Don't even think about asking me!
Either way, I hope you all the best of luck, If you want to find me, You'll know where to find me. Have a good one, and I'll see you all later!
I'm not quitting. I just need a long break from disco to fix my own issues first. And this includes other places, too.
Take care of you all, I'll see you around. Keep the seats warm for me when I get back.