06-29-2020, 04:27 PM
After having one hell of a headstroke thinking about what do on this community. I have finally decided to stop giving it effort into it.
I have tried my hardest this time to get into roleplay as this is my first roleplay community i have ever gotten into. I was interested because i wanted to practice story and character developing skills for personal reasons i wont explain here.
I found gratifying helping new players finding ways to make money, and get started, i personally dedicated hours into refilling goldgeist and omega ore depot's ore stocks so players could get notable profit. I found that my actions helped players and contributed to the community. That is what made me stick around.
Then, on these last days, one group of players, just because they have much more resources, experience, and time than others, decided to destroy all of that. Just because they can do it. And we were powerless.
That toxic and hostile mentality did its job and has gotten to me. Congratulations. You win.
You are literally fun bandits. You drive people away, and you will eat eachother when there are no more food.
Im sure you will think "oh wow you are taking this too seriously, you are too emotional". Thats the thing, im very emotional and i take things very much to heart. You dont know me after all.
I have been going through so much shit these last 2 months, first my bastard of a father dies of the coronavirus, escaping from justice from all the years he abused me, and after after i start rebuilding myself, i find that my efforts on this community are now meaningless.
So, screw it all, if everything i do wont matter, when why bother.
No, im not giving my ships away. Maybe Ramke if he wants them.
I have tried my hardest this time to get into roleplay as this is my first roleplay community i have ever gotten into. I was interested because i wanted to practice story and character developing skills for personal reasons i wont explain here.
I found gratifying helping new players finding ways to make money, and get started, i personally dedicated hours into refilling goldgeist and omega ore depot's ore stocks so players could get notable profit. I found that my actions helped players and contributed to the community. That is what made me stick around.
Then, on these last days, one group of players, just because they have much more resources, experience, and time than others, decided to destroy all of that. Just because they can do it. And we were powerless.
That toxic and hostile mentality did its job and has gotten to me. Congratulations. You win.
You are literally fun bandits. You drive people away, and you will eat eachother when there are no more food.
Im sure you will think "oh wow you are taking this too seriously, you are too emotional". Thats the thing, im very emotional and i take things very much to heart. You dont know me after all.
I have been going through so much shit these last 2 months, first my bastard of a father dies of the coronavirus, escaping from justice from all the years he abused me, and after after i start rebuilding myself, i find that my efforts on this community are now meaningless.
So, screw it all, if everything i do wont matter, when why bother.
No, im not giving my ships away. Maybe Ramke if he wants them.