11-09-2010, 08:15 PM
Discovery players, friends, and admins,
A lot of people may have not entirely known this, but for the entire time many of you have known me, I was going down a path of self-destruction. I was angry at myself. I was angry at everything in my life, but most of all I was angry at where I had gotten to in life. How far I had come...and where I was going...I was going down a path where I hated everything in life and wanted no support from friends or family. I took a lot of anger out on people here, which was wrong I know, but I was delusional (in a manner of speaking). For a long time while playing here I channeled that into the characters I portrayed. Some of that anger even leaked out around the edges of the persona's of the characters and into real actual dealings with people. I was flying off the handle, I was breaking down, losing myself in a maze of hatred. In one stupid move, I shoved everyone here away from me in a futile showing of hatred and immaturity. I wanted nothing to do with any of you. I was in a blind rage that I feared I would never recover from.
Then a woman came into my life and tugged on my reigns, calmed me, forced me to see the positives in life. Slowly I started retreating out of the deep hole that I had dug for myself after so many years. I have a woman who loves me for who I am as a person and not for who I am not and a potential father figure to three beautiful girls. I am no longer a slave to my negativity or my emotions. I am a slave to nothing, the emotions are controlled by me now and not vice-versa.
The only thing I ask is that you, the people of Discovery, forgive me for how I have acted the entire time I've been here. I know words aren't much these days, but I can say honestly that I am a changed man. I am no longer sinking in a pit of despair but soaring through the skies with my wings spread. I give you my word that no longer will I act out of anger, rage, depression, or fury. I will act as a human being, as a man, and as a person should: with respect to those around me.
I hope I can live up to all of your expectations of me in the near future, goodness knows I'm sure as hell going to try to.
See you out there.
~Leo
A lot of people may have not entirely known this, but for the entire time many of you have known me, I was going down a path of self-destruction. I was angry at myself. I was angry at everything in my life, but most of all I was angry at where I had gotten to in life. How far I had come...and where I was going...I was going down a path where I hated everything in life and wanted no support from friends or family. I took a lot of anger out on people here, which was wrong I know, but I was delusional (in a manner of speaking). For a long time while playing here I channeled that into the characters I portrayed. Some of that anger even leaked out around the edges of the persona's of the characters and into real actual dealings with people. I was flying off the handle, I was breaking down, losing myself in a maze of hatred. In one stupid move, I shoved everyone here away from me in a futile showing of hatred and immaturity. I wanted nothing to do with any of you. I was in a blind rage that I feared I would never recover from.
Then a woman came into my life and tugged on my reigns, calmed me, forced me to see the positives in life. Slowly I started retreating out of the deep hole that I had dug for myself after so many years. I have a woman who loves me for who I am as a person and not for who I am not and a potential father figure to three beautiful girls. I am no longer a slave to my negativity or my emotions. I am a slave to nothing, the emotions are controlled by me now and not vice-versa.
The only thing I ask is that you, the people of Discovery, forgive me for how I have acted the entire time I've been here. I know words aren't much these days, but I can say honestly that I am a changed man. I am no longer sinking in a pit of despair but soaring through the skies with my wings spread. I give you my word that no longer will I act out of anger, rage, depression, or fury. I will act as a human being, as a man, and as a person should: with respect to those around me.
I hope I can live up to all of your expectations of me in the near future, goodness knows I'm sure as hell going to try to.
See you out there.
~Leo
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