Members removed: Loken; Commissar SnakeLancer™; Shagohad

SnakeLancer: I know I haven't been the best, not even avarage, in having a normal conversation with you guys without ending it in a fight or confusion.
But I wanted to say, look I'm sorry for what I did I know I've caused you guys alot of trouble, I understand. I also don't want to beg like a kid begging his parents for forgiveness, I'm 23 I realy want to solve this in an adult way.
I've did a mistake, I already was aware of it when alley pmed me, I know I've done "f*cked up big sh*t" but in the end... I realy wouldn't touch that poisoned apple that got me into so much trouble ever again.
Like, I knew from that day on I will never do it again because it was my first time in 8 years (my old acc Blade 2008, I'm playing Disco since 2008 if not longer).
I'm dissappointed of myself that I even tried it.
I know you're doing your thing, the consequences are understandable and I shouldn't fool myself I didn't expect it.
But could you give me a second chance? A trial?
I realy am ready to sacrifice all the chars I had
I would start fresh, a new account, a new char and start trading slowly working up again.
But can we not reason in a way that you guys would think "Okay you know snake you f*cked up but under these conditions/circumstances we could allow you to come back." or something?
Was I realy that toxic of a community member that you guys realy realy don't want me back? (not talking about the cheat) :/
Honestly, for me it's not a "urgent" need of feeling pitty or something, but I shouldn't be just letting it go like that and hope to have a friendly conversation, y'see I can let everything in past.
And it would give me a final decision to remove Skype and just forget about Discovery, or I would want to try and be reasonable with the staff team.
Before I ultimately disappear.
I wouldn't even mind if the Account would be constantly under watch by an admin, but I would hope that I would get a second chance.

In my time, I never joined the DPC (Disco's Problem Children) but I heared alot of sh*t have been done and yet some of them returned which staff teams closed an eye on. Vulkhard cheated twice (meaning he got another chance) before he got perma banned.

In my 8 years of discovery, this was my first time I ever had any experience with using an Admin Ship (it was not an attempt to hacking the server or code or anything, I got an admin ship by someone else that his name (Shagohad) I exposed to the admin afterwards I got caught, so to say.)
It's hard to prove something through Skype or let’s say “words” , my loyality to this community, so all I have are “words” in belive that hopefully you guys understand me, I can't provide anything to back me up other than having some people that would stand for me in this statement that I would never touch any of that (cheating) ever again.
People know me for too long, they know I'm not that type of a person, yet I disappointed them and did a big mistake.
I would like to make things right again, but you guys gotta give me a chance, please.
I was like a little kid when I saw the Admin Ship and .addcash command so spammed lotta cash and bought things, but you can't tell me that I would've possibly known what it would've triggered (I’m talking about all the clean up you guys had to do afterwards)?
All the logs you say, I'm not familiar with that system.
I was unaware when I did that.
told you I never had any contact with any of such "cheat" or "admin ship" ever before, it was my first time.
experienced cheaters or others probably know what they're causing, I wasn't knowing what I did (as in the pain you guys had to go through to clean it, once again I’m not using it as an excuse).
and I deeply deeply apologize for that.

I'm realy willing to change, I want to prove it... But it is up to you guys to give me that last chance. I would even agree to a contract of "If this ever happens again, no more 6 months appeal, nothing a total ban, finished" and I would sign it (obviously if it happens again I'd be totaly banned anyway).
I would also agree to try and clean the mess by trying to pay those 60 Bils (?) back. Maybe give me a minimum of 1 - 2 bils I have to reach each month that I have to send to an admin? Probation? I'm open for anything as long as I can play Freelancer again... Hell I'd even agree to finance the Servers monthly bill,
I can afford it, whatever helps you guys or at least takes a little weight off your backs.

References:

Arbi
Titan
Shooter
Wesker
sswolf
ErBurrero
Con
Lambda
Sky
Cmdr.Linoge
Xenadrine
Jeremy Hunter
JayDee
Tabris
Caelumaresh
NiobiumMiner
Clayton (Shizune)
Werdackel
WesternPeregrine

Those are People that back me up in this decision and some that even PMed me and encouraged me to return and try again.