I hope that since September things have changed and that all this better now.
Blimey!!
I didn't read anything that was said after your first post on it. I understood that you have health problems arising from several factors and that the two main factors were the COVID-19 and the fall that hurt some parts of your body.
Boy, sometimes in the course of our existence we encounter difficulties entailed by ourselves and others by external incicence outside of our choice.
The fact is that it discourages us at first and depending on how we react can make a difference. I realized that you are a warrior always looking for a way to live intensely; though burdened with the ups and downs of it all, added to his yummy in completing college.
First I was interested in the post because of the title questioning Jesus Christ why all this.
Well, I have my percalsos in life and very early, even as a young man, already troubled me, because of which I almost went to the brink of despair. Of course I don't see that being your case, because like I said, I noticed that you are a warrior. For much less I almost went crazy. However, little by little, advised by older people with more experience in life, I started reading the Bible, a book that is easy to find anywhere in the world. I read the entire book. I learned to trust Jesus the Christ and more, I started a dialogue with him. From that, we created a friendship and I knew the reasons for the questions that were in my mind, things that I didn't understand, but that today, most of them are already answered and my mood is more comfortable.
Today I feel that I am a real character for Jesus the Christ and in the universe; yet not all of my intimate questions have not been answered.
Believe what I tell you, regardless of what you do or believe, having a sincere friendship with Christ and dialoguing with Him, over time you feel that He exists and answers you in different ways to questions that we have and will always have in the course of our existence.
It's been like that for me and it made and makes all the difference in how I react to the mishaps of this life.
I ask that you continue to be this strong and brave guy to live, even if it hurts; even if it rains pocketknives, don't give up on being happy in your sphere.
A hug from Hopewell, your friend here in the community.