Ok, I probably can say with utmost certainty that at least one person will hate me for what I will say now, but I'm going to be honest with all who are received this transmission (including David), and... I will speak only in my name. This is NOT a drama! Things like these happen all the time everywhere.
A few months ago, I meet a guy, somewhere in Kusari. I don't remember his name. He was an amazing person although he was... an assassin. He could have killed me there, but... I'm only standing here today because he spared my life. I struggled with that for a long time after the fact, but more of just trying to understand why he spared my life and what my purpose was.
However, I remember that he told me: "Each person has their own goals, desires, strengths so... if you feel really strongly about going into business with a friend, you must take some precautions: create a business contract between you that outlines your roles, your financial responsibilities, and any other relevant information. It needs to be as clear and complete as possible. Else... your business will fail!". I ignored his advice and now, what he thought might happen is exactly what happened.
It's been a really hard couple of weeks for (us) me. Yes, I have to admit. At the beginning, I was very reserved, typical for me. I had developed a habit of quietly observing whenever I became part of a new group. I met David through a mutual friend when they came out in Dublin, not long before the incident occurred there. When he recovered from coma and got back to his senses, David shared with me some of his ideas, having a discussion regarding how we can do something unique and interesting in Liberty. He convinced me that, if we're going to have a real partnership based on trust and reciprocal communication, we will revive the Liberty Trade Shipping and we could become an important player in the shipping market. That was when I decided to join in this company.
But shortly thereafter, I realized that I believed in something that didn't exist anymore. Basically, I found a company with... only 4 employees (including myself), with serious problems related to the ownership of the Muroto Trade Center and Mr. Kumar know very well the situation, but more than that, with huge debts pay off and no concrete development plan. So it wasn't easy. But even so, I thought that we must go forward, not backward, upward, not downward, and we will succed if we will have the physical, intellectual, and creative power to find solutions. Please note that I used the term "we".
So... I invested all my money into debts and buying new ships, just with the hope that we could survive on the market. But money isn't everything! It needs more than that to do a change and transformation. Leaders need to draw upon other resources besides money to build the future of their company. My view is that doing the right things results in the right mindset only when all those involved cooperate appropriately. Unfortunately, as I said before, at this point, we failed! Besides, our internal policy was not enforced consistently.
To be frankly and bluntly: I felt betrayed and disappointed. After he put me in charge of all, I promised myself that there will be no chaos and all our members (few or many) will know what to do and how to do it. I had so many ideas and I was so excited and a little bit overwhelmed. But guess what? No matter what I did or tried, he was always against me, never supporting me. We had a lot of discussions but probably, it was too hard for him to accept my new vision and we stucked in our attempt to set up the relationships with Interspace Commerce. This is the truth! He was always against cordial relationship with IC, even this is not normal because we were an IC corporation! I suppose he hates me to death now because I'm doing this public, but honestly... I don't care anymore. What does it matter now that we take different roads?
Now, I'm slowing it down and I'm looking around. Unfortunately, I begin to believe that anyway... we wouldn't had a real chance to survive and to compete with much bigger companies like Universal Shipping Inc. or Gateway Shipping Inc. They have money, power and political influence. This is the reality. I'm pretty sure nobody cares about the fact we always tried to prove that we are able to provide quality shipping services. This is why I thought that it was absolutely essential to improve our relationships with Interspace but David was not agree so... we reached the End.
Perhaps, is time to take a look back at my personal goals I'd set for myself, before to begin this sad experience. I can say that I may have learned a thing: I start to realize how most corporations or groups of traders (factions) actually don't fight for what they claim to be fighting for and are no longer attached to their original goals. They don't have the power to see the miserable life they're living. Too much falsehood. And not enough truth. Too much suspicion. And not enough trust. Too much corruption. And not enough honesty. Too much infidelity. And not enough loyalty. Too much taking. And not enough giving. Too much babble. And not enough sense. But I will keep my hope up. Hope for myself. Maybe I'll find another way... another day... another company... something different and... unique... and then I will regret my words. I hope to be so!!!
Anyway, it is my responsibility to clarify all concerns with our company so... as I said... I will be around... for one more week. I'm sorry, but I'm a little angry right now.
Thank you all for your time!