12-15-2014, 08:51 PM
The Biography of Kaia
Hisashi Kai Ivakira was born in 794 AS to the Ivakira family on Kyushu. He was the first child of Elrich Satoshi and Umeko. They lived in a house built by Elrich's Rheinland-born father on Kyushu, the same man who gave Hisashi his second name. He was taught in the traditional Kusari manner: to be the strongest, help and protect the family, to be the family's heir.
Just as Hisashi was sent to school in 800 AS, Umeko gave birth to a girl, Yukine, and the nomad war broke out. It was a heavy load on his family as his father had to avoid going to the army to sustain their family. Fortunately, the war calmed down in the same year. Three years later, the family was blessed with another daughter, who they named Yumiko.
When Hisashi reached the age of fifteen, he had to leave home and go work in the same company as his father, The Tau Asteroid Mining Operation to help the lowered financial income as their father didn't make enough money due to problems at work. This continued for six years. Hisashi worked hard in conjunction with his father.
During a winter on Kyushu, a tragedy befell their family: Elrich died. An accident had happened in the Tau systems, and his father's ship exploded. This meant that the Ivakira family had to starve and live in poverty. At least they still had their home. The incident made Hisashi very angry, as he was sure that it was no accident; that it was sabotaged. This lead to problems at work, but he had to suppress further trouble to guarantee the income for his family.
One year later, in 817 AS, Hisashi was kidnapped while at work and sold to the Outcasts. Of course, this didn't sit well with Hisashi and he protested and resisted wherever possible. This lead to the Outcasts humiliating him completely: He was made addicted to cardamine and had him undergo hormone therapy and many other changes. He wasn't the man his family wanted him to be anymore, he wasn't the strong man, the heir to his family. His body was now feminine, devoid of past masculinity, except for what he had between his legs. Otherwise, it was extremely hard to notice that he was not a woman. From there on, he was mockingly called 'Kaia' - the sissy princess. If it wasn't humiliating enough, he was sold to a minor but greedy Don. Soon he would more and more behave as a she, in fear of displeasing her master. After almost four years of service, Kaia was sold back into the slave markets on Malta. There, she awaited her next fate. Her service to the Don however would remain within her mind forever.
On May 19, 821 AS, somewhere in one of the many slave markets on Malta, a taskmistress named Alessia Palermo, who was hired by Kenneth Matzke while he was away on assignment was browsing for slaves to work the fields of his new plantation located in the Skorba Valley. She needed quite a few, as this new plantation was much larger than the one Kenneth previously owned. She however, was finding the last few that she would need, having spent the entire day at the market. One slave caught her eye that seemed quite timid, clearly having been abused previously, surely it would make a fine toy for Kenneth, and while he was out, she would enjoy her as well. Alessia found who was selling her, and the vendor gave her the price of five hundred credits. This was quite a lot for a slave, but Alessia wanted her greatly. She paid the sum, had her loaded onto the transport, going to find the last few slaves she would need.
This was Kaia, and was once again on her way to serve somebody again. Her thoughts revolved around what kind of master she would have, still scarred by her previous master. Kaia made sure to behave all the way so that the one who bought her wouldn't find reasons to punish her. She needed to be a good girl, and good girls obey their masters.
They reached the plantation after a few hours. Most of the slaves were told they would be working the fields, some were told they would perform maintenance on equipment. Kaia, however, was told she would be working as a maid, not only cleaning the house, but serving Alessia personally. Kaia stepped inside the mansion, which was much larger than any other building on the property. Instantly, she was to begin her duties, doing everything as best as she could, fearing punishment from Alessia.
Her duties were simple, and it wasn't too difficult to clean the house, as there was only one person occupying it. Other than that were some small demands, such as what clothing to wear and how she was to act. Kaia was given a maid's outfit, which given its appearance, seemed to be smuggled from Gallia, and wasn't good at anything but making the wearer look more attractive. She was also to act submissively, something Kaia had grown accustomed to over the past few years.
That night, however brought difficulties, as she was called to Alessia's room. Kaia knew what this probably meant, as her pervious masters abused her in other ways as well. When she arrived and confronted Alessia, she was told to remove her outfit, and Kaia obeyed. Alessia then saw that Kaia was not female, but instead was tortured by her previous masters and made this way. Alessia then laughed mockingly. As this was Kaia's greatest humiliation, she felt great shame and embarrassment from it, but did her best to be as submitting to her as possible.
When her secret was discovered by Alessia, Kaia's life was made worse. She was constantly humiliated and Alessia started to give her more female hormones, supplementing to the ones that her body already produced since being forced to undergo surgery, something Kaia had hoped to not deal with again. This continued for a few months, with what seemed to be no end. Her suffering was only made worse by her body becoming increasingly more feminine.
It was just another day of winter on Malta on the 20th of November of the same year, another day where Kaia was going to be humiliated by Alessia. Their routine was interrupted, however, when a shuttle landed near the house. Kenneth had just returned from his assignment, and was looking forward to being at home again. Everything was where it was, not having changed since he purchased the plantation a few months ago. The house on the hill was still there, and the fields, although empty due to the winter weather, were still far-reaching, with the mountains out on the horizon. He then walked up the hill to the house, anticipating being able to enjoy sitting by the fireplace, reading a few books he "acquired" while out in space. He entered the door and saw that everything was clean, no dust was to be seen, and everything was in order. He figured that Alessia wanted to impress him. He walked around the house for a bit, and found her going over some paperwork. He said hello and went about his way, not wanting to interrupt her further, and then found Kaya cleaning some dishes. "How thoughtful," he thought, "Alessia got a maid for me while I was on assignment." He greeted her, and she quickly responded "Hello master!" before returning to her work. As he was looking forward to relaxing, he made his way to a chair by the fireplace and began to read.
Kaia was partially used to things in the mansion by now, but even during nights she wasn't always let to be at peace, instead tormented in various ways by Alessia. Kaia kept her mindset deep away, if it existed at that point anymore, to not displease her mistress. She must remain a good girl for her own sake.
It wasn't until that night when Kenneth was trying to sleep and he heard some agonized moaning and screaming that he started to question what was going on. He got out of bed and went to find Alessia. He found her in the basement of all places, and found her with Kaia, who was being abused heavily. He turned away in disappointment and anger, and planned to bring this up in the morning.
The next morning, he woke up early and went to the chair he sat in yesterday to wait for Alessia to wake up. Eventually, she woke and went downstairs, expecting Kaya to have already prepared breakfast. On her way, she was interrupted by Kenneth, who asked what she was doing to the maid last night. She claimed that Kaia was being disciplined for her lack of effort while working. Kenneth immediately shot back that the house was spotless, and he claimed that Alessia was doing this for enjoyment. Kaia was in the kitchen when the argument took place. It sounded like he was defending her against Alessia, something that she thought would never happen. The argument ended with Kenneth stated that the three of them would head to the temple and that the spirits would determine Alessia's punishment.
The three of them boarded the shuttle and headed off to the temple. the ride was silent, Kaia was too afraid to speak, Alessia was only giving hostile glances, and Kenneth was busy piloting. They reached the temple within ten minutes, but it seemed to take hours, given everyone's mood. They then entered the large doors of the temple, and Kenneth told the two to wait while he spoke to a cardinal about the issue. The two waited, remaining silent for their own reasons, and after about half an hour, Kenneth and the cardinal returned, with the cardinal carrying a whip. However, he did not use it, but instead gave it to Kaia, saying the spirits were leaving judgment up to her.
Kaia looked at the whip in her hands, trembling lightly. She was still in her maid outfit, which subconsciously fixed the role she was given in the mansion, in other words bound her to complete obedience to her masters. The way Alessia looked at her made her feel very uneasy. She gulped, opened the whip and both reluctantly and feeling that she deserved it, whipped it around on her own backside from above herself. Kaia did this quite a few times, each time yelping from pain, until she got down on her knees from the pain and exhaustion. After it, Kaia recollected the whip and handed it back to the cardinal with a look of shame on her face.
Both Kenneth and the cardinal seemed disappointed, while Alessia seemed to be gloating over what just happened. Kenneth then suggested that he should go, and he took Alessia and Kaia with him. The ride back seemed to be even more silent, if that was even possible, and by nightfall, they were back in the house. Once inside, Kenneth told Kaia to head up to her room, and once there, find remove her outfit and hand it to him, then she was to spend the rest of the night in her room. She did this and went back to her room, upon which, Kenneth locked it from the outside. He then handed Alessia the outfit and told her to change into it. She refused at first, asking why she should, and Kenneth replied that either she would wear it or she would be killed. Shocked and somewhat frightened, she wore the maid's outfit. Kenneth then took her to the kitchen and told her to clean it. "The kitchen is already clean though." She replied. Kenneth then took various things, such as what seemed like flour and other foods and threw them about the room. He then repeated, "Clean the Kitchen."
They did this for every room of the house, throughout the night. Kaia heard what was going on, but was locked in her room, unable to do anything. Meanwhile, Alessia was in tears, cleaning the mess that Kenneth, who was almost always there with her, created. He did leave a few times to go and do various things, one of which was that he went out and bought a plain outfit, which he left in Kaia's room, after she fell asleep. She woke early in the morning and still heard Kenneth shouting downstairs. She saw the outfit that Kenneth left her, and not wanting to appear indecent or let him know about her secret, she put it on and went downstairs. Kenneth then noticed her and told the two to follow him back upstairs to Kaia's room. Kaia avoided looking at Alessia. He then asked Kaia to tell Alessia to clean her room, not using any titles, only telling her to clean it.
It was evident that Kaia was conflicted. In the short time she was at the mansion, Alessia has been the mistress and her master. But she had always told of Kenneth and that he was the complete master of the house. Finally, she glanced with slight fear at Alessia and said: "C-Could you please clean the room Alessia?" Her voice sounded uncertain, awaiting punishment any moment.
Alessia did not look at Kaia, most likely out of shame, trying to hide the tears in her eyes. She then went in and remade the bed and cleaned the room. In the meantime, Kenneth took Kaia to the kitchen and made breakfast for the two of them. He tried making an omelets, but soon after beginning, decided on scrambled eggs. Kaia tried to take over, but Kenneth wouldn't let her, saying that she would not be the one serving anymore. Once he finished, he took two plates of it and brought it to the table and told her to eat with him.
Kaia nervously sat down, and began eating it in an over-appropriate way. It seems that Alessia had disciplined and shaped her into a perfect servant. Kenneth realized that she was not going to talk or relax for that matter, and asked "Tell me about your family, if you can remember." Kaia froze the moment he mentioned family, as if he had pulled on a string. "F-Family?" she gulped. "I.. I had a family on Kyushu.. Parents and two younger sisters.." she began, looking saddened. "We were quite poor.."
Kenneth then said, "Well, tell me about your sisters, they seem to bring back some emotions." Kaia looked away slightly, continuing to eat from time to time. "One is six years younger than me, the other nine years younger.." she said. Although she remembered her family quite often at nights, they seemed so distant to her by now. Just remembering how they looked or sounded like was quite difficult.
Kenneth then asked, "And your parents, do you remember them?" Kaia glanced at him from time to time. "I do.." she said. "Although my father.. died.." she said, feeling a small glimpse of anger for a moment, recalling the day her family held the funeral. Even to this day, Kaia didn't believe that it was an accident, but she had no time to think of anything else other than the present while a slave.
"Oh... I'm sorry for your loss," replied Kenneth. By now, the two had finished breakfast, and Kenneth took their dishes to the kitchen. Kaia tried to clean them, but he wouldn't let her. Instead, he brought her back upstairs where Alessia had finished cleaning. He then told Kaia to tell her to clean the kitchen for them. Reluctantly but obeying her master, Kaia asked Alessia: "U-Umm.. could you.. clean the kitchen?" she said silently. While looking at Alessia she felt both slight pity as well as satisfaction from it. Kenneth then spoke up saying, "I'm sorry, you'll have to speak up. I couldn't make out what you said." Kaia gulped, and once again said the same thing but with more voice, which sounded slightly stern as well. "Alessia, clean the kitchen..!" she said. Kenneth smiled, seeing that Kaia was making progress. He then asked her if there was anything she had wanted to do that day, hoping that this freedom to choose would help her recover.
"Do?" she asked a bit uncertainly. After all, she wasn't given nor room nor time to want to do anything else. Alessia made her work hard all day, and if she didn't do that or sleep, she had her way with Kaia. "I... don't know.." she said, trying to think. For years others told Kaia what she had to do. And now, first time in years was she to choose her activity herself. The recent emotions that emerged in her however made her want to have vengeance for all the wrongfulness people in the past as well as Alessia have caused her. Yet, she was still bound to servitude. Kaia's will did not matter, as her only purpose was to serve her master.
"Well, why don't we go for a walk then, the area is quite beautiful, even if it might be a bit cold" Kenneth said. He found some winter coats, and some food that they would eat when they'd get hungry. Kaia once again tried to carry the supplies, but Kenneth refused, saying, "Remember what I said earlier about you not serving anyone anymore? I meant it." The two then went out, walking towards the river that went through the valley.
Kaia remained still quite silent, obviously not used to the situation. Finally, she couldn't help but ask: "W-Why are you helping me, a servant?" Her voice expressed how Kaia viewed herself: a servant whose life was in the hands of her master. Kenneth turned around again, restating his point. "You will not be serving anyone ever again. You are not a servant anymore."
"B-But why?" It seems Kaia couldn't comprehend how anybody, especially her master would help the servant, the slave they had bought become free. Her previous master's brainwashing was still strongly affecting how she viewed everything. Kenneth smiled and answered: "Because you deserve better." Kaia glanced over at him, surprised, but looked again in front of her. She still couldn't comprehend the situation and the reason behind his actions. She remained silent.
Eventually they reached the river, and they walked beside it for some time. By midday, the two were hungry, so he took out the food and handed Kaia a sandwich. The two began to eat, and Kenneth said: "Is there anything you want to talk about, anything you want to get off of your chest?" Kaia slowly munched on the sandwich, and looked away. There wasn't much anything she'd want to talk about. Although Kenneth seemed like a very nice person, she couldn't bring herself to tell him about the greatest humiliation she had faced. Each time somebody had found out about it, something very humiliating happened to her. Even recalling a small bit caused her to flinch. Kenneth saw how she felt, and knew something was bothering her. "I know something is bothering you. What is it, let me help you."
Kaia glanced at Kenneth occasionally, looking conflicted. "N-No.. It's nothing.." she tried to belittle it. "I can clearly see that it is something," replied Kenneth, "it clearly is worrying you. I promise I am not like Alessia or any of your previous masters. I want to help you." Kaia didn't know whether to tell or not, but finally she brought out all the courage she had in her heart: "I-I used to be a man." Kaia instantly closed her eyes, awaiting his judgment.
"Oh... I-I see...," replied Kenneth, "That is why Alessia treated you so harshly. As I said though, you do not have to worry about her anymore. You are safe now. You won't have to worry about being an outcast here. After all, all of us here are. Alessia clearly forgot that, and so she will be punished, but as I said, I am here to help you."
Kaia looked at him, her eyes slightly widened. At first, she thought he was joking, surely he will soon burst into laughter and humiliate her. But as more seconds passed by, more and more she came to believe his words. Tears began to form in her eyes and flowed lightly down her cheek.
Kenneth saw her finally feel relieved and unafraid, and to prove his point about accepting her, he hugged her, and comforted her. Kaia held her hands on him first lightly and slowly her grip tightened, and her emotional breakout intensified. It indeed was as Kaia had said: She used to be a man. Her mind has completely become that of a woman. What that made her, remained unknown. Not a man nor woman. At most a degraded and abused human being. Tears continued to rush down Kaia's cheeks.
By now, the winds started to pick up and the temperature dropped further. Kenneth suggested that they head back home before the weather got worse. Kenneth released her from his embrace and Kaia wiped her tears away. The two gathered their things and then headed back towards home. By the time they arrived, it had started to snow, and the two were looking forward to warming up inside. Kenneth, however had to bring up this issue with Alessia, and when he confronted her, another argument broke out between the two.
Kaia looked slightly horrified, afraid. Hearing the heated debate where she was the subject was hard for her. Kenneth was quite angry with Alessia, as she made Kaia an outcast when Malta was already a safe haven for those who were deemed to be outcasts. In the end, he decided to punish Alessia further, deciding that her position as maid should be made permanent. Kaia just stood there, listened, very nervous. Kenneth then left and headed towards Kaia, and said: "Alessia now has the position that you had. If you want to punish her further, you may."
"P-Punish?" Kaia asked, still uncertain. But instantly, the idea to do everything Alessia had done to her to Alessia came to her mind. Kaia glanced at Alessia, still trembling lightly. She was conflicted whether she should do it or not. After all, that's what made Kenneth mad at Alessia in the first place.
Kenneth, seeing how she was conflicted, said: "If you do not want to punish her more, that is fine. I was already quite harsh with her, but if you think that I was not harsh enough, you may choose to punish her further." Kaia glanced at him, and then away. "N-No.. It's.. enough" she said. Although she wanted to pay back for what Alessia did, Kaia felt some pity for her, especially seeing how she was degraded into her position now.
Kenneth then said: "Alright, I won't force you to punish her, but I do think it is time for dinner. Alessia, would you prepare a meal for us now?" To which she replied: "Yes master." While dinner was being prepared, Kenneth and Kaia went by the fireplace to warm up. Kenneth then asked Kaia: "How are you feeling?" Kaia sat relatively close to him, but still looked slightly tense. She kept her hands on her lap. "O-Odd.." she answered. "How so?" Kenneth replied. Kaia exhaled lightly.
"I-It's just.. this is all so sudden.. I-I don't know how I should react.." she began. "I haven't ever felt... like this.." Kaia shifted slightly. Alessia then came into the room, stating that dinner was ready. The three made their way to the dining room and began to eat their meal. Kenneth then brought back the topic of how Kaia was feeling and said: "Hopefully, we can bring back your confidence." He then glared at Alessia, still angry at the damage she caused. He then stated that tomorrow, he would take her back to the temple and she would consult the spirits. Kaia glanced at him, slightly nervous. She didn't believe in spirits, so this was quite new to her. The three soon finished their meal, and the rest of the night was uneventful.
Early next morning, Kenneth woke up and made himself presentable. Afterwards he knocked on Kaia's door, waking her up and signaling for her to get ready. To his surprise, Kaia was also already awake. When the two were ready, they went downstairs where Alessia had prepared breakfast which they ate quickly. The two then headed out towards the shuttle and proceeded to the temple.
They arrived after about fifteen minutes and went inside where once again, Kenneth consulted a cardinal about the situation. The cardinal then went off to another room while Kenneth waited with Kaia. He soon returned however and told Kaia to follow him. The two proceeded without Kenneth to a small room, and once there, the cardinal handed her an artifact which enhanced visions with the spirits. Kaia held the item nervously. He then left the room and closed the door, leaving her alone with the artifact. Kaia waited for a moment with the artifact in her hand, wondering what would happen. She still was skeptical to the whole idea. The atmosphere was ominous, anticipating the unreal experience that was about to happen.
Kaia would hear a giggling sound from the rock she withheld in her hands...a childish sound...then running...wait, no one was around her...right? If she looked, it sounded like an injured kid was running at her...and then some cold chill came over her but in seconds it was done...then there was the sound of it running away...the rock in her hand started to glow a soft purple and pink color...
Kaia shivered slightly, both surprised and terrified. There were no such things as spirits...right? Yet, what she heard and felt pointed the other way. "H-Hello?" she intuitively said, glancing back to the glowing stone in her hand. She was afraid, but something from the stone also set her to want to listen for more. There was another childish laughing sound only in response, then followed the sound of more whispering to her...
*. "Hers'" unexpecting -of intervention- ~ways of light~ / 'paths are unknown' hidden in sands (time void) / Runners forever -forgotten- / … "who" is this -human-kid- 'breathing the -sands' (?) .*
"E-Excuse me?" she instinctively said, trembling. Her gaze was fixed on the stone and its glow reflected in her eyes. Kaia did her best to try to understand what the voice was trying to tell her, but her initial shock from this... experience clouded her mind slightly. Only now was she able to focus her thoughts again.
Kaia would open her eyes only to find herself... she was not on a station, heck she was not in a ship, where was she? It was hard to tell, the ground was rough, covered with dirt, rocks and what appeared to be mud as well as other things. There was a thick, green nebula around her...it was cold...if she checked, she was wearing nothing in this place... Where did she suddenly go? Wait.. what was that in the far distance she could see?
At first thought she was bothered by her lack of clothing, but the thought quickly dissipated. Her mind was fixed on her surroundings, especially the horizon where there was something she couldn't quite make out at first... What was it? Her thoughts went hazy for a moment before once again returning to the horizon.
The smoke it seemed to be started to clear quickly. As it did, at first all she saw was just grass and more dirt...but then what seemed to be bodies...then ruined buildings and vehicles...as it dissipated, all that was around her was the smoking ruins of the capital city of Malta...but the bodies looked like they'd been there longer as all they were now were just skeletons...what happened?
Kaia looked around, feeling intimidated. This was all so odd: Instead of a clear line of thoughts a clearer line of emotion was inside her. Fear, curiosity, confusion, hate, joy. Kaia went almost through the whole spectrum of emotions as she saw it. After all, Malta was the place where her original life crumbled to dust and further into nothing. Seeing Malta in such a state brought mixed feelings up. Should she be happy? But then, there were many other slaves there as well who are indistinguishable from the common folk as skeletons. Should she feel remorse? In the end, she found herself wondering what was the 'right' thing to feel instead of feeling anything specific. One thing was clear however: seeing this made her realize that she had not a scratch left of her original personality within her. Only her name and biological gender remained as a reminder of what she used to be. Malta was the place and reason her previous life crumbled. Malta was the grave of Hisashi, and the birthplace of Kaia.
In response to her answer, there was another laughing sound...this time closer however. When she opened her eyes, she was in a ship...wait, this was not Omicron Alpha anymore...was this...Okinawa? It surely seemed like it...but...where was everyone? Actually, a better question would be: Where exactly was she...? There were no stations...just pure black clouds where they would have been...However to the common mind...they were easily seen as the wrecks of what was...the icy planet itself...was now just a molten piece of rock...the nebulas were stained crimson red almost like they were cut open on the inside...in the clouds were...wrecks...Outcasts...KNF...GMG...Heck, Corsairs and many others littered the whole nebula's...the stations in ruins...all she got in return with sound was the cry of metal breaking and floating way from each other...then silence...her ship itself however was fully operational it seemed..
Kaia looked, her mind foggy from the sudden transition. "War?" was the first thought that came to her mind. Had to be. But why were there ships from so many factions present? Kaia looked more closely around, just as she regained her full focus. Okinawa itself had little importance in her life, yet something bothered her about it.
She'd see a lone person in her ship, someone she would remember...however looking...deceased to say the least...what happened, unknown really, the war looked ancient to say the least at this point...Kaia, after thinking about it, got a massive splitting headache...when she opened her eyes this time...she was standing there...still holding the artifact like she was not to long ago..
Catching her breath and holding one hand on her head, Kaia struggled with the sudden pain. Was it related to what she saw? Most probably, but no way to say for sure what exactly caused it. Kaia opened one eye, looking at the artifact. Kenneth talked about guidance, but this was more like a dream - partially a nightmare. The artifact stopped glowing, and everything seemingly returned back to normal.
Seeing that the vision had ended, she left the room and found the cardinal waiting outside. She handed him the artifact and went to find Kenneth, who was waiting in the main chamber. He asked her, "How was it? Do you feel any different?" Kaia looked quite confused, the headache still taking place. "D-Different? Yes.." she replied. Her mind was still partially absent. "Why don't we head home for now so you can rest? And when you feel better, we'll talk about it," Kenneth stated, seeing her current state. She agreed and the two boarded the shuttle and headed back home. By the time they returned, it was midday. Kaia went up to her room to rest, and Kenneth told Alessia to bring her lunch, in case she felt like eating.
Kaia lay on her bed, gazing blankly at the roof. What did the spirit want to tell her? Both parts of the vision showed her destruction, decay, the aftermath of war. As Alessia entered the room, Kaia didn't react until she got closer. Kaia looked so different from what she was before, something completely different. Despite seeing Kaia in her current condition, she knew better than to take advantage of her again. Kenneth made that quite clear. Instead, she left the food on the table beside the bed and asked Kaia how she was feeling.
Still feeling hazy, Kaia glanced at Alessia, surprised. "I-I.. weird.." she said, sounding both exhausted and confused. Seems like she didn't know herself. She was disoriented. Seeing this disorientation, Alessia thought it would be best to let Kaia sleep, so she left the room and shut the door. Shortly, Kaia fell asleep.
While Kaia was sleeping, Kenneth was downstairs reading. He noticed Alessia walking down the stairs and called her over. Not wanting to disobey, she hurried over and asked what he needed. "How was Kaia when you saw her?" he asked. "She was quite disoriented, she couldn't focus and she could barely speak." Kenneth showed a bit of concern, but these were the standard symptoms of an intense vision. All she needed was some rest.
After a few hours, Kaia woke up. The sleep help her, but she still felt hazy. The food that Alessia had brought was already cold, but it didn't stop Kaia from eating. It actually was better for her as cold, it refreshed her. Once finished, she took the dishes and moved downstairs towards the kitchen and began washing and cleaning them. Somehow, having something concrete to do again made her feel relaxed, helped her clear her thoughts. Kenneth heard what she was doing and walked over to confront her. "You know that you don't need to do this, right?" he asked. Kaia nodded. "It's alright... Doing something again helps me relax." Kennneth then stated: "Alright, if that's the case, then at least let me help you finish," as he started to clean some dishes as well.
The two finished quickly. Kenneth led her to another room and gestured towards the bookshelves, saying: "Go ahead and choose something to read, I'm sure it will help you with your recovery." Kaia looked at him and then at the bookshelves. There were so many books to choose from, but the category on spirits and Outcast fables caught her eye. She moved closer and picked a book on visions. The back of the book explained that the book told and explained visions that others have had and how they had affected their lives. She moved to the couch and sat down, opening the book. Kenneth saw her choice and was happy with her decision. He sat down next to her, incase she had any questions while reading.
Kaia moved her hair from the side Kenneth was sitting behind her ear and began reading the book. The introduction contained almost the same information as the back cover, so she moved on forwards towards the first vision described there. It didn't tell much at all, and as such she moved on to the next one. The next vision that she turned to was about an outcast who's vision seemed to show the destruction of where he grew up, and saw many of the people he knew dead. This was eventually interpreted to show that the life he had before was gone, as he was now an outcast, chained to Malta as many others were, due to their addiction, and that he should learn to move on in life.
In a sense, her own vision was partially the same. However which life ended? Her original life as Hisashi or her life as a slave? Her own vision showed Malta's and Okinawa's destruction. Malta could mean either, however she was still enslaved by cardamine. Most likely it meant that Kaia's life as Hisashi had ended, but that wasn't anything new. She was forced to move on by others, and even now she couldn't even remember how it felt like to be Hisashi. Even so, she had a hard time remembering her family. As such, the vision didn't tell her anything new.
Kenneth saw her pause on this vision and asked, "Anything interesting about this one?" Kaia nodded, continuing to read about it. "Such as?" he stated. She explained to him, in which she also told about her own vision. Her description of the vision was slightly more abstract, but overall quite accurate. Kenneth stated: "Well I see how it could mean that, and it seems that the spirit said to move on from two entirely different things. Okinawa probably referred to your life in Kusari, and Malta possibly meaning your life as a slave."
"If it meant that, it then didn't tell much of what I should do now... I'm still imprisoned to Malta through cardamine," she sighed. "So am I, as are many others." Kenneth replied. "Yet I was able to work towards all this," referencing the plantation. "There is nothing stopping you from achieving greatness, and I want to help you achieve it."
"Greatness..?" she asked. The idea seemed so far-fetched to her. Kaia looked at the book, still looking slightly distant. She had no dreams, no goals to follow. "Sure," said Kenneth, "I believe that you have the ability to succeed, all you need is a goal to work towards." Kaia brushed her hair away behind her ear again. "But.. I have no goal... The only goal I've had was to serve my master the best I can.." she said.
"Well, we will just have to find one for you," Kenneth stated. Kaia glanced at him, before looking back at the book. She couldn't imagine any reason or goal for her life: Her reason and goal as Hisashi died when she was enslaved, after which her reason to live was to serve her master. Now that she didn't have that, there wasn't anything left. Kenneth then suggested: "I'm sure that many factions here on Malta would be happy to have you assisting them, or you could stay here and join the cross, we would gladly accept you."
Kaia turned to look at him. "Join.. the Outcasts?" she asked. She had mixed feelings about the idea. She would be joining those who enslaved and had their way with her. Now that Kaia thought about it, she had begun detesting people: The miners who sold her out to the slavers, those who turned her into what she is now and especially the greedy Don who did god knows how many despicable and humiliating things to her. In that sense, joining the Outcasts could get her the strength and resources to have revenge on them.
"Sure," he said, "I understand how you didn't have the best experience with all of us, but have I or any other member of the Crimson Cross harmed you? There are some outcasts who might be cruel, but we are not them." Kaia glanced back at Kenneth, thinking about it. In any case, it would be a good start to at least do something rather than idle, but her will was still very weak. She could easily be subdued and exploited by another person. Was it really good for her to move away from the now comfortable mansion and Kenneth? He still saw doubt in her eyes and asked, "What's wrong? You still seem hesitant." Kaia rested her head on the couch. "I just.. need some time to think about it," she said and closed the book, figuring that it wouldn't give her anything new anymore. Kenneth then said, "Take all the time you need, this is a big decision to make. In the meantime, you should go get some more rest."
Kaia sat there for a moment before rising and putting the book back from where she took it. "I... I think I'll go walk outside for a while.." she said, turning back to Kenneth. "That's fine," he said, "Just be careful. It is quite cold out, and there isn't much daylight left." Kaia nodded, and went on to put a warm coat on. It was just shifting to being dark outside, with the lights already on. "I won't be too long" Kaia said, giving a slight smile before opening the door and heading out. Kenneth, originally worried about why she would head out so late, seemed more at ease when she gave that smile. She was recovering after all.
An hour or so went by before Kaia came back. She brushed the snow off from her coat and boots, undressed and put the coat back where it was. There was already much snow outside. Kaia set her boots neatly from where she took them. Kenneth heard the front door shut and assumed Kaia finished her walk. He went to go to talk to her and asked: "How was your walk?"
"It was okay.. The air is refreshing due to the cold," she said, focusing on Kenneth now that she had put her coat and boots away. "That's good to hear," replied Kenneth, "Have you thought about what I proposed while you were out?" Kaia nodded, looking downwards. "I.. I could try," she refocused on Kenneth's eyes. The way she looked at him still showed that Kaia regarded him as her master. She was quite hesitant in agreeing, and Kenneth spoke up about it, saying, "This isn't about what I want, you are not obligated to do what I am suggesting, They will only allow you to join if this is truly what you want for yourself."
Kaia looked away. She still didn't know what she truly wanted, so this wasn't a too sure decision. But she had to start somewhere. "I will try." "Alright then," Kenneth stated, "We will head out tomorrow and they will decide if you will be accepted."
Kaia, 27 years old.