08-03-2016, 09:36 PM
To Thalia Thorn, from Nesrin Khan.
Hello, Miss Thorn. I’m going to assume you’re not married or have a doctorate, if you do, correct me, please.
I want to begin by telling you who I am. Why I’m doing this.
I was a Zoner, once, Miss Thorn - just like you, although I can’t profess to having so noble a role; I was barely more than a hired gun, washed up on the shores of the edge worlds because the houses were drowning me in nightmares. I was in the Bretonian Armed Forces, once, fighting the good fight as the infected turned the world on its axis and sent us all to the slaughter twenty two years ago. The good fight - we were fighting a mechanism, Thorn - a construct of a people long dead, the accident of an oversight by a people so technologically endowed, we see their masterpieces as the magic of the magi. We are Promethean man, crawling its way through the soil to regain a lost Eden. We are ants tasked with building a nuclear reactor, goats assigned to breach a dam. We are a scalar people, presented with a pyramid that reaches the sun.
What the hell are we meant to do?
I ran to the edge worlds because I couldn’t, I can’t, human psychology cannot, survive, watching your friends become demigods wreathed with the… thorns… of your destruction. Your body survives, but your mind doesn’t make it out. It reaches the end of the tunnel and there’s no light for you there - just the illusion of the shadows that once wreathed you. Plato was right - you see the light, you prefer to sprint back to the cave. To live in the darkness.
The Nomads followed me out there. Even in the darkness between dying stars, you can’t escape their light. Out there, I learnt the second lesson. The alien machine that operates my mind gave me the gift of focus, Thalia. I can’t save myself from the fire - but I can take a few monsters with me.
Now, I dedicate myself to survival of others. To the little things. I’m currently working on a - rather heavily classified - indigenous Auxesian research program devoted to the rescaling a few magneto plasma thrusters - small fry, for an organisation so enriched with intellectual capital as Ingenuus. Scaling issues have prevented me from being able to mount the propulsion solution to any fighter under freighter scale, so I’m hoping you can reimburse me with an old friend.
When I wore your stripes I knew the Osprey quite well - the cockpit layout is still familiar to me - the ease of the thrust levers, the bassonic rumble of the stellarator. She was a beast built with a design philosophy few combat craft could match - most are designed to kill, she is made to save. An escort built with the rakish epponage of an interceptor. You have to love her.
If you could provide me with an Osprey escort, latest model, it’d be invaluable to my research. If you need compensation for the model, I’d be able to provide it, along with biographical evidence of my posting aboard the Deep Space Colony Vessel, the Polyhemi, although I hope you don’t need the latter part. It’s a painful road to re-tread.
God go with you, Thalia - I’ve been praying for you ever since that EVA. I hope you’ve recuperated soundly - you’re a smart woman, you deserve to be back in the lab where you belong.
Keep in touch.