Frustration.
There were few instances in which Lyell could truly say that she had felt exasperated in her life. Fancying herself a woman of composure and class, such things were considered beneath her notice. Still, if there was something she could not help but take note of, it would be being stuck. It had been days since the last time she had spoken to the Administrator who was still locked in her 'cellar', as she liked to call it. She simply couldn't find the energy in herself to subject herself to his mindless screams. There was a sort of idle wonder about how long it would take until the treatment she had ordered him to be subjected to would evacuate any semblence of humanity left in his skull, hollowing it out like a pumpkin for halloween. It was akin to a child in school, dissecting an animal in biology class for the first time. There was simply something visceral, and Lyell even dared say, pleasing about the thought of one of her enemies suffering worse pains than even biblical punishment had prescribed. If there was a good, a gestating figure looming over everything and orchestrating their lives to the tee, every little detail to amuse himself, Lyell was convinced that this God was not a merciful or caring creature — and neither was she. He had not spoken. Regardless of how adamant they had tried to pry the secrets of the Ingenuus Power Cores out of Finn McCool's feelble skull, he had not yielded, given no quarter.
With one finger, Lyell turned the page of the book in front of her. She was sitting in her study, secluded in the farmost reaches of Durban, quite far from the suffering of McCool.
The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing. He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, he refreshes my soul. It wasn't like she necessarily needed these things, but she found a strange satisfaction in owning things that the mortal soul would not be able to afford. The book in front of her was ancient, believed to have been taken from Sol by one of the passengers of the Hispania, and she had procured it for a sum so abhorrent, it would make Gallic nobles blush. With a resounding snap, the book was closed and pushed to the side. Putting her head into her hands, Lyell remained like this for a while before staring off into the distance, into the corner of her room, ponderous. The electronic light streaming from the ceiling illuminated her grey hair, laying bare to all who could see her advanced age that she so adamantly denied and refused to show, although it was taking a toll on her.
With a hand, she opened a tab on the terminal that was mounted on the desk in front of her and appraised the
contents of what was shown. It had been a while since she had contacted them. It had been more of a mood, really, nothing concrete. There had always been a rather insatiable desire to find out whether these creatures were capable of more than simple aggression. Culture, art. Maybe even a soul? What would she gain from doing anything for them? Nothing tangible, that was certain. The fiends were way too sly to yield anything of note, anything that she could use. Then again, what would she do even if they did? She already was rich, richer than 99.9% of Sirius. She could buy an entire planet if she wanted to, or better yet, simply take one for herself out here, in the Omicrons. After all, the useful idiots of the Core would do anything for their mistress.
And yet it all seemed hollow. Lyell had long since forewent the pleasures money, realizing that there was a certain treshold, that, once passed, would simply devolve her frenzied avarice into gluttonous self-indulgence that would ultimately lead to ruin. Idly, she tapped the edge of the nearly invaluable book that was lying in front of her. One of the only copies of the bible that were yet preserved from Sol. There was the sudden urge to destroy it, simply because she could. Not her problem that the money that went into acquiring this could have probably funded the evacuation and continued safety of the entire population of Planet Nuremberg from the dark matter catastrophe in Munich, but she stopped herself. After all, wanton destruction served no purpose.
Sighing, she stood up, the chair she had sat on grinding over the expensive ground loudly in the complete and utter silence of the room. With decisive steps, Lyell moved towards the door and left, intending to pay McCool one final visit that would be the deciding factor in whether she would decide to finally allow him to die or not. God might be neither merciful nor kind, but even he got bored at some point.