09-23-2018, 12:53 PM
Date - 22.09.825 A.S.
Location - Freeport 11
Log Author - "Nyctophilia"
Location - Freeport 11
Log Author - "Nyctophilia"
Well... Yesterday was a little bit abnormal, if any other human would see it. But... I think I had quite a weird dream. Or, well. Most of it was a strange reality I just so happened to exist in.
Progress with Naiad is slow, but steady. She has alot of fears to overcome or throw away. Something in her past is holding her back and she seems to be caring about it too much. She is the one who has to make little steps, one by one. But if she wants to live a new life, she has to relieve her fears, so she can move on.
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[21.09.2018 23:32:50] Windstar: Let's get going.
[21.09.2018 23:33:23] Windstar: I'm headed to a quieter place.
[21.09.2018 23:33:36] Naiad: Sensible.
[21.09.2018 23:33:54] Windstar: There's a system not far from here that's practically abandoned.
[21.09.2018 23:34:00] Nyctophilia: One I think of?
[21.09.2018 23:34:03] Naiad: Yeah, no.
[21.09.2018 23:34:05] Naiad: It's not.
[21.09.2018 23:34:15] Windstar: What? Of course it is.
[21.09.2018 23:34:29] Naiad: I briefly visited it only few days ago, it was a warzone.
[21.09.2018 23:34:43] Nyctophilia: Settled by Cultists.
[21.09.2018 23:34:44] Nyctophilia: Right.
[21.09.2018 23:34:55] Naiad: And Nomads.
[21.09.2018 23:34:59] Windstar: I've been there a million times, it's quiet as hell. Those guys only set up shop for a day.
[21.09.2018 23:35:04] Windstar: There's Nomads everywhere.
[21.09.2018 23:35:09] Naiad: Not in that quantity.
[21.09.2018 23:35:18] Naiad: And size.
[21.09.2018 23:35:24] Nyctophilia: Just breathe in and make a step forward.
[21.09.2018 23:36:27] Windstar: Deep breaths.
[21.09.2018 23:36:45] Nyctophilia: After you.
[21.09.2018 23:37:08] Windstar: I'll ping you if it's safe.
[21.09.2018 23:37:21] Naiad: It's not.
[21.09.2018 23:37:24] Nyctophilia: It is.
[21.09.2018 23:37:32] Nyctophilia: I've been there a couple of times.
[21.09.2018 23:37:52] Nyctophilia: The only time it wasn't safe is today and when the cultists settled down.
[21.09.2018 23:37:55] Windstar: Okay, one sec. Sensors on the fritz.
[21.09.2018 23:38:11] Windstar: Alright... All clear.
[21.09.2018 23:38:14] Nyctophilia: It's clear.
[21.09.2018 23:38:26] Naiad: Don't forget the Nomads. If they can bring such an armada there, it's probably close to.. wherever they're from.
[21.09.2018 23:39:03] Nyctophilia: If you won't think of them as a threat, they won't be one.
[21.09.2018 23:39:14] Nyctophilia: It's how it works in nature.
[21.09.2018 23:39:19] Naiad: It does not.
[21.09.2018 23:39:25] Nyctophilia: It really does.
[21.09.2018 23:39:32] Naiad: The weak get eaten by the strong, in nature.
[21.09.2018 23:39:49] Naiad: You don't get ignored cause you're docile.
[21.09.2018 23:39:52] Nyctophilia: And? Who is weak nw?
[21.09.2018 23:39:56] Naiad: Me?
[21.09.2018 23:40:13] Naiad: I'm just a single person, eh?
[21.09.2018 23:40:18] Nyctophilia: You won't become stronger if you won't overcome your own fears.
[21.09.2018 23:40:20] Nyctophilia: Yes.
[21.09.2018 23:40:23] Nyctophilia: So am I.
[21.09.2018 23:40:27] Windstar: Is... there a problem?
[21.09.2018 23:40:32] Nyctophilia: Naiad is a problem.
[21.09.2018 23:40:54] Naiad: I just wanted to get to know her, not.. this.
[21.09.2018 23:40:56] Naiad: Oh well.
[21.09.2018 23:40:56] Windstar: What's going on?
[21.09.2018 23:41:02] Nyctophilia: You will.
[21.09.2018 23:41:18] Windstar: See? All clear.
[21.09.2018 23:41:28] Naiad: So it seems, at least.
[21.09.2018 23:41:35] Nyctophilia: Quiet as ever.
[21.09.2018 23:41:44] Windstar: See? Even the planet is quiet.
[21.09.2018 23:42:42] Naiad: It's a planet, they all look like that from afar..
[21.09.2018 23:42:52] Nyctophilia: Do you see any difference from some other systems?
[21.09.2018 23:43:00] Windstar: Oh really? Then tell me, what kind of planet does it look like?
[21.09.2018 23:43:31] Naiad: As calm as all of them.
[21.09.2018 23:43:37] Naiad: That's all I meant.
[21.09.2018 23:43:47] Windstar: Still, how would you describe it?
[21.09.2018 23:43:58] Naiad: From afar, there could be a war on Manhattan's surface, you wouldn't be able to tell easily.
[21.09.2018 23:44:20] Nyctophilia: She asks what it is exactly.
[21.09.2018 23:45:06] Nyctophilia: In the meantime... I just might take a moment of appreciation of this planet.
[21.09.2018 23:45:06] Naiad: Looks like Tuvalu's ugly sibling.
[21.09.2018 23:45:13] Windstar: So gaseous?
[21.09.2018 23:45:42] Naiad: Sure. Why do you ask? It's just a planet.
[21.09.2018 23:45:56] Windstar: It's not a gas giant.
[21.09.2018 23:45:57] Naiad: You're distracting from the topic?
[21.09.2018 23:47:13] Windstar: Okay, then ask away.
[21.09.2018 23:47:43] Naiad: This isn't quite as private.
[21.09.2018 23:48:00] Windstar: How much more private could it be? There's nothing else around.
[21.09.2018 23:48:27] Nyctophilia: You want me to go - I can.
[21.09.2018 23:48:33] Nyctophilia: No problem.
[21.09.2018 23:48:48] Naiad: Not sure that'd improve the situation.
[21.09.2018 23:48:57] Windstar: What can I do?
[21.09.2018 23:49:07] Nyctophilia: Have an odd feeling that someone is watching?
[21.09.2018 23:49:23] Naiad: I'm sorry, I'm just.. rattled.
[21.09.2018 23:49:44] Nyctophilia: Well... You don't get used to that kind of isolation from the first time.
[21.09.2018 23:49:47] Naiad: Everything went south so quickly that I have no idea what my position is anymore.
[21.09.2018 23:49:50] Windstar: *She sighs in frustration*
[21.09.2018 23:50:16] Naiad: I don't think we can get back into what we talked about before.
[21.09.2018 23:50:19] Naiad: Not now.
[21.09.2018 23:50:57] Nyctophilia: At least you made a step forward.
[21.09.2018 23:51:05] Windstar: It's admirable, really.
[21.09.2018 23:51:39] Naiad: Nothing about this is admirable. I'm just going crazy.
[21.09.2018 23:52:08] Nyctophilia: Believe me, I'm still thinking that I'm going crazy too.
[21.09.2018 23:53:05] Naiad: Still, I told you I was here, before.
[21.09.2018 23:53:20] Windstar: But you were afraid.
[21.09.2018 23:54:02] Naiad: Yeah, you two are starting to scare me. Well. Re-starting? Pretty sure I was the most scared when I met Miss Pennybrooke the-
[21.09.2018 23:54:11] Naiad: first time, then it dipped for a while.
[21.09.2018 23:55:04] Windstar: "Concern. We strike fear into them."
[21.09.2018 23:55:32] Nyctophilia: And what exactly scares you off?
[21.09.2018 23:56:22] Naiad: *She laughs* You demanded someone's execution, remember? That's a good start.
[21.09.2018 23:56:38] Nyctophilia: Demanded?
[21.09.2018 23:56:53] Windstar: I was defending myself and wanted to be made safe from that maniac...
[21.09.2018 23:57:04] Naiad: And when you were, you wanted him killed.
[21.09.2018 23:57:11] Nyctophilia: Do you even know that such definitions as "friends" exist?
[21.09.2018 23:57:14] Naiad: That's scary.
[21.09.2018 23:57:37] Windstar: Being shouted at and accused of being a Nomad murderer is enough to get you killed out here.
[21.09.2018 23:57:55] Windstar: He was threatening my life with those accusations.
[21.09.2018 23:57:57] Naiad: Yeah, well. He wasn't far off, was he?
[21.09.2018 23:58:12] Nyctophilia: I didn't demanded them to be killed. I'm more than sure that this Order litter survived.
[21.09.2018 23:58:36] Nyctophilia: And that other moron? Who threatened my friend's life?
[21.09.2018 23:58:44] Nyctophilia: I threatened his in the exchange.
[21.09.2018 23:58:49] Nyctophilia: Because I was in a bad mood.
[21.09.2018 23:59:04] Naiad: I mean, questionable methods, sure, but I'm sure the other side's quite shocked to see humans, you know, too close to them.
[21.09.2018 23:59:44] Naiad: You don't just kill people just because you... uh.
[21.09.2018 23:59:51] Nyctophilia: I wouldn't do anything like that if it was a personal offence towards me, because I know humanity too well.
[22.09.2018 00:00:05] Nyctophilia: But I won't tolerate any disrespect towards my friends.
[22.09.2018 00:00:21] Vagrant.Melia: "Why are theirs still afraid?"
[22.09.2018 00:00:36] Windstar: Doesn't disturb you at all that he tried to kill me. It.. *The words are caught in her throat*
[22.09.2018 00:00:43] Nyctophilia: And I wouldn't straight kill them. Just blow up their ship and make them eject.
[22.09.2018 00:00:48] Nyctophilia: And ponder in their doings.
[22.09.2018 00:00:49] Naiad: I did -not- see that.
[22.09.2018 00:01:11] Windstar: "They do not trust us. And believe us to be lying."
[22.09.2018 00:01:13] Naiad: Remember, I didn't find you, after you -ran off- in the middle of me getting weak.
[22.09.2018 00:01:27] Windstar: Getting... weak?
[22.09.2018 00:02:43] Naiad: In a way. Maybe I'm just sulking and that's the entire problem. *She sighs* I'm sorry, I can't seem to read my own emotions-
[22.09.2018 00:02:44] Naiad: anymore either.
[22.09.2018 00:03:03] Windstar: *She remains silent, curled up in a ball in the pilot's seat*
[22.09.2018 00:03:48] Vagrant.Melia: "Concern. Perhaps theirs require direct assurance."
[22.09.2018 00:03:50] Naiad: What did he catch you doing?
[22.09.2018 00:03:52] Windstar: "Sadness. We must show distaste for her distrust."
[22.09.2018 00:04:22] Windstar: He saw me here, in Lost. And there were Nomads nearby, too big for him to attack alone.
[22.09.2018 00:04:40] Windstar: He wanted me to join in as backup.
[22.09.2018 00:04:51] Windstar: I didn't want to, and he... he just turned on me.
[22.09.2018 00:05:14] Windstar: I was only saved because the Auxesian showed up.
[22.09.2018 00:05:18] Naiad: Here?
[22.09.2018 00:05:39] Windstar: Yeah.
[22.09.2018 00:05:48] Nyctophilia: Wild guess. Auxesians might have business out here concerning Secundus.
[22.09.2018 00:06:04] Nyctophilia: Hence why one of them showed up.
[22.09.2018 00:06:06] Naiad: But... Theta? And.. the Sigmas?
[22.09.2018 00:06:10] Nyctophilia: You were lucky.
[22.09.2018 00:06:26] Windstar: I went to Theta, then returned to Delta via a quicker route than I took.
[22.09.2018 00:06:37] Windstar: And saw the Auxesian go in here, and followed.
[22.09.2018 00:07:30] Nyctophilia: I didn't went anywhere at all. I just fooled the scans using the cloak.
[22.09.2018 00:07:56] Naiad: I don't think you're telling the whole truth, and that's fine, you don't have to. I'm just confused now.
[22.09.2018 00:08:13] Windstar: I didn't want to see the Auxesian hurt anyone.
[22.09.2018 00:08:13] Nyctophilia: Again, it was my intuition that played the game.
[22.09.2018 00:08:26] Naiad: That makes little sense.
[22.09.2018 00:08:56] Windstar: And I ended up in a situation where they had to hurt someone to save me.
[22.09.2018 00:09:12] Naiad: Zoners don't just attack other Zoners for not joining them in a fight.
[22.09.2018 00:09:25] Nyctophilia: Because it wasn't a Zoner.
[22.09.2018 00:09:36] Naiad: Sure carried Zoner identification.
[22.09.2018 00:09:47] Windstar: And a Nephtys.
[22.09.2018 00:09:53] Naiad: That's unrelated.
[22.09.2018 00:09:58] Windstar: It isn't!
[22.09.2018 00:09:59] Nyctophilia: Related.
[22.09.2018 00:10:10] Windstar: Why do you keep dismissing this!?
[22.09.2018 00:10:36] Windstar: "Pondering. We must devise a plan."
[22.09.2018 00:10:42] Nyctophilia: If you don't see a patern - that's fine.
[22.09.2018 00:10:42] Naiad: It's just a ship, doesn't say anything about the person flying it.
[22.09.2018 00:10:55] Naiad: This sector's getting to my head, I guess.
[22.09.2018 00:11:05] Windstar: I -- Ugh.
[22.09.2018 00:11:25] Nyctophilia: I just see it. Some Order goon, disguising as a Zoner.
[22.09.2018 00:11:31] Nyctophilia: For some shenanigans.
[22.09.2018 00:12:01] Nyctophilia: Believe me, I already stated why every Zoner out here would have the Order.
[22.09.2018 00:12:09] Nyctophilia: hate, rather.
[22.09.2018 00:12:11] Vagrant.Melia: "There are numerous potential outcomes. We must act softly."
[22.09.2018 00:12:16] Windstar: "Innovation. We must break their association of this Carrier with the Light."
[22.09.2018 00:12:17] Naiad: Seemed like an overstatement.
[22.09.2018 00:12:42] Windstar: "Deception. We must falsify an attack and escape."
[22.09.2018 00:13:04] Vagrant.Melia: "We must not seek deliberate harm."
[22.09.2018 00:13:06] Naiad: Okay, okay, I'm sorry. I think the problem for me is that I only have personal bad experience with Core and Auxesia and like, not the Order
[22.09.2018 00:13:30] Nyctophilia: Tell me. If some random guy threatened your homeworld with a NEMP bombardement, would you like to fly a ship associated with them?
[22.09.2018 00:13:46] Windstar: "Frustration. If our Brethren were present, we would avoid alienation."
[22.09.2018 00:14:08] Nyctophilia: Don't tell me you would.
[22.09.2018 00:14:08] Windstar: "The false offense may make them fear the Light."
[22.09.2018 00:14:22] Naiad: But Zoners aren't a people. They have no homeworld. They're a bunch of independent groups and individuals trying to escape the problems of the houses.
[22.09.2018 00:14:36] Nyctophilia: Answer a question.
[22.09.2018 00:15:08] Naiad: It's just a ship.
[22.09.2018 00:15:43] Nyctophilia: Still, it would make you look like an affiliate of a certain organisation.
[22.09.2018 00:15:52] Naiad: Isn't that what IFFs are for?
[22.09.2018 00:16:06] Naiad: Flying a Libertonian ship doesn't make me Libertonian.
[22.09.2018 00:16:15] Nyctophilia: Signatures can be faked easily nowadays.
[22.09.2018 00:16:17] Nyctophilia: Trust me.
[22.09.2018 00:16:49] Nyctophilia: Libertonian can fly a Bretonian ship as well as a Kusarian could, in theory, fly a Gallic ship.
[22.09.2018 00:16:53] Vagrant.Melia: " We are confident in the direct approach."
[22.09.2018 00:17:11] Windstar: "Uncertainty. They would flee."
[22.09.2018 00:17:16] Naiad: But I'm not here to discuss that, I overreacted because I was left alone and then just witnessed that.. situation.
[22.09.2018 00:17:21] Vagrant.Melia: "Perhaps."
[22.09.2018 00:17:30] Naiad: It's not really what I was looking for.
[22.09.2018 00:17:37] Nyctophilia: You weren't the only one who overreacted.
[22.09.2018 00:17:39] Naiad: I guess I'm sorry?
[22.09.2018 00:17:41] Nyctophilia: You saw my reaction.
[22.09.2018 00:17:52] Nyctophilia: I threatened an unknown person.
[22.09.2018 00:18:11] Nyctophilia: And still, we're here.
[22.09.2018 00:18:18] Nyctophilia: None's around, except for us.
[22.09.2018 00:18:26] Vagrant.Melia: "Yet if we were to show a calming disposition, it may prove receptive."
[22.09.2018 00:18:34] Naiad: I think I was feeling a little hurt.
[22.09.2018 00:19:04] Windstar: Let's just... move away from the jump hole...
[22.09.2018 00:19:10] Nyctophilia: Sorry if I had to leave you that swiftly... But I can't control my own intuition. If it tells me "bad", I follow.
[22.09.2018 00:19:12] Windstar: I don't want to be jumped on.
[22.09.2018 00:19:27] Naiad: I find its presence reassuring.
[22.09.2018 00:19:30] Naiad: Easy way out.
[22.09.2018 00:19:32] Naiad: But if you insist.
[22.09.2018 00:19:37] Windstar: Easy way in.
[22.09.2018 00:19:45] Nyctophilia: The only.
[22.09.2018 00:21:12] Windstar: *She takes off her helmet, revealing the left eyepatch once more*
[22.09.2018 00:21:13] Nyctophilia: The dark side of Moros... Do I like it.
[22.09.2018 00:22:11] Naiad: Well. We were talking about a big step, before.
[22.09.2018 00:22:20] Windstar: Yeah... we were.
[22.09.2018 00:22:27] Naiad: One more in line with what I was looking for.
[22.09.2018 00:22:36] Windstar: "We are now on the dark side of Moros."
[22.09.2018 00:23:02] Naiad: Curiously exactly the moment you chose to run into that mess. I think that's why I snapped a little.
[22.09.2018 00:23:14] Naiad: I'm sorry. I should've known better.
[22.09.2018 00:23:26] Windstar: It's okay... I'm sorry for reacting like that.
[22.09.2018 00:23:56] Vagrant.Melia: "Has the darkling begun to reach a state of comfort?"
[22.09.2018 00:24:23] Windstar: "Informed darkling can confirm they are calming, yet still tense."
[22.09.2018 00:24:29] Nyctophilia: I also overreacted out there... Seems like something in the air was too tense.
[22.09.2018 00:25:17] Windstar: The farther away from civilization, the calmer the air is.
[22.09.2018 00:25:31] Naiad: So that's where we are right now. I don't feel like I could make any steps, for now.
[22.09.2018 00:25:46] Nyctophilia: The way that Freelancer was behaving... Not to mention an Order litter... Ugh.
[22.09.2018 00:26:06] Naiad: Maybe some attempt at sleep will take care of that.
[22.09.2018 00:26:16] Nyctophilia: You don't have to. Just aclimitize and get comfy.
[22.09.2018 00:26:49] Naiad: Yeah, no, you're right. I should be clearer.
[22.09.2018 00:26:57] Naiad: I'm not talking about this system.
[22.09.2018 00:27:10] Nyctophilia: Neither do I.
[22.09.2018 00:27:50] Naiad: Maybe your friend got what I mean.
[22.09.2018 00:27:54] Nyctophilia: Don't let it wrap around yourself. Many things happen every day, many things pass.
[22.09.2018 00:27:54] Windstar: Yeah...
[22.09.2018 00:28:01] Nyctophilia: Many things are about to happen.
[22.09.2018 00:28:10] Vagrant.Melia: "Grant them assurance."
[22.09.2018 00:28:19] Naiad: If that's so, I better start running now, get a headstart, eh?
[22.09.2018 00:28:42] Windstar: "They have calmed, but their form tires."
[22.09.2018 00:28:57] Naiad: *She chuckles* In any case, postpone what we talked about. And if you had stayed, you'd have heard me tell you that I would-
[22.09.2018 00:29:13] Vagrant.Melia: "Theirs must be shown the way of peace."
[22.09.2018 00:29:18] Naiad: need alot of preparation anyways, probably a visit to the houses.
[22.09.2018 00:29:40] Nyctophilia: We can go to any house system any time you want, sure thing.
[22.09.2018 00:29:42] Windstar: Will you come back soon?
[22.09.2018 00:30:08] Naiad: You could've told me I was talking past you.
[22.09.2018 00:30:36] Naiad: I suppose it's been a long day, and after all that's happened, it's better to have this conversation some other time.
[22.09.2018 00:30:51] Windstar: Yeah... *She can't help but yawn a little*
[22.09.2018 00:30:55] Nyctophilia: Sure. Take a rest if you need one.
[22.09.2018 00:31:05] Nyctophilia: Be careful on your way to Freeport.
[22.09.2018 00:31:32] Windstar: "Vacate..!"
[22.09.2018 00:31:40] Naiad: We should try to start this over, 'Windstar'
[22.09.2018 00:31:41] Nyctophilia: Shoo.
[22.09.2018 00:31:48] Nyctophilia: She needs a clear path.
[22.09.2018 00:31:54] Windstar: Yeah. Let's.
[22.09.2018 00:32:16] Naiad: You can ask me what I was on about tomorrow, I might have better answers.
[22.09.2018 00:32:32] Windstar: Thanks. I'm looking forward to it.
[22.09.2018 00:32:48] Naiad: Hopefully.
[22.09.2018 00:33:05] Naiad: See you then.
...I don't think she pays too much attention to how many efforts two of us put into her. Nor does she cares. Not gonna say that I haven't met such selfish persones in my life, but seeing Kimi putting so much effort into her, while there is no effect... It's Saddening.
The air of the aftermath was quite tense, so I felt a strange urge to play some music... Just press some keys on a holopad. I even forgot that I've installed this plug-in into my new ship's systems. If only I knew what it would resolve into.
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[22.09.2018 00:33:47] Windstar: *The emotion of exhaustion and frustration spills out, almost psychically, from Kimi*
[22.09.2018 00:33:48] Nyctophilia: ...We're alone now.
[22.09.2018 00:33:53] Windstar: "All is clear."
[22.09.2018 00:34:10] Nyctophilia: Wasn't as bad as I anticipated.
[22.09.2018 00:34:25] Nyctophilia: There is something promising, but it will take alot, alot of time.
[22.09.2018 00:34:43] Windstar: She's harder than that Aoi girl to bring to the Light.
[22.09.2018 00:34:57] Nyctophilia: Not as hostile though.
[22.09.2018 00:35:07] Windstar: The Phoenix darkling made matters worse today.
[22.09.2018 00:35:10] Rules Tip: A single player running two or more instances of Freelancer for trading or mining purposes is against server rules and is regarded as cheating.
[22.09.2018 00:35:35] Windstar: We are beyond frustrated, but we must have patience...
[22.09.2018 00:36:01] Nyctophilia: There will be obstacles. But I'm sure she will accept compassion, sooner or later.
[22.09.2018 00:36:44] Windstar: The darkling saw too much, we had to dispose of them. Luckily, the Auxesian helped.
[22.09.2018 00:37:04] Nyctophilia: ...You didn't called for me though.
[22.09.2018 00:37:24] Windstar: If it was both of us involved, it would have been supremely incriminating.
[22.09.2018 00:37:35] Nyctophilia: Fair enough.
[22.09.2018 00:37:42] Windstar: 2-on-1 is harder to defend.
[22.09.2018 00:38:47] Windstar: *She takes off her eyepatch, revealing the soft rainbow glow present where the darkness usually is*
[22.09.2018 00:39:56] Windstar: Dammit...
[22.09.2018 00:40:30] Nyctophilia: *She exhales slowly, wearing on one headphone on her right ear. She then unwraps her rear holopad with holografic piano keys on it.*
[22.09.2018 00:40:37] Nyctophilia: What's wrong?
[22.09.2018 00:40:52] Windstar: Just... tired.
[22.09.2018 00:41:20] Nyctophilia: Yeah... The day was extremely emotional.
[22.09.2018 00:42:05] Windstar: I had my ring on for much of it... To get used to it.
[22.09.2018 00:42:49] Nyctophilia: *She sets a synth pre-set for a piano and slowly presses the keys with her right hand, while holding her head with her left.*
[22.09.2018 00:43:24] Windstar: *She smiles softly at the music*
[22.09.2018 00:44:26] Windstar: It's so lovely...
[22.09.2018 00:44:34] Nyctophilia: *The melody she tries to compose is monotonous and calm, with a few notes repeating itself sometimes.*
[22.09.2018 00:45:07] Nyctophilia: I actually almost forgot how to do this...
[22.09.2018 00:45:38] Vagrant.Melia: "Calm."
[22.09.2018 00:45:50] Windstar: *She hums along* "Warmth."
[22.09.2018 00:47:24] Vagrant.Melia: "Joy."
[22.09.2018 00:47:42] Nyctophilia: *Some of the notes are silent and sibilant, some of them are imbued with the sound.*
[22.09.2018 00:48:10] Windstar: We didn't know you could compose so beautifully...
[22.09.2018 00:48:20] Nyctophilia: Didn't knew it myself.
[22.09.2018 00:49:47] Nyctophilia: I... I almost forgot how it is to write the music... Not even how to play it...
[22.09.2018 00:50:06] Nyctophilia: And just recently I got a sudden feeling to start playing it again...
[22.09.2018 00:50:36] Windstar: It's the song. You want to try and be part of it.
[22.09.2018 00:52:15] Nyctophilia: This... Composition. I'm pretty sure, most of the music before I've written, I had strict plans for it.
[22.09.2018 00:52:20] Nyctophilia: But this one...
[22.09.2018 00:52:49] Nyctophilia: It was just wrapping around my head. And I couldn't do anything about it.
[22.09.2018 00:53:13] Windstar: Let it flow into you.
[22.09.2018 00:53:36] Nyctophilia: Spontaneous melody, just floating away from my fingers onto the keyboard.
[22.09.2018 00:54:42] Windstar: *She smiles, singing in an otherworldly tone*
[22.09.2018 00:56:20] Nyctophilia: *She keeps pressing the keys slowly and gently. The melody was keeping to it's track, mixing silent, sibilant and deep sounds in a monotonous and calm tone.*
[22.09.2018 00:57:32] Windstar: *Her voice took on the quality of a reverse echo, seemingly impossible for any human*
[22.09.2018 00:58:02] Nyctophilia: *While Nycto was just staring into nowhere with an expression of astonishment.*
[22.09.2018 01:00:02] Windstar: *Her voice echoed across the stars, and seemed to float around Jane's very mind*
[22.09.2018 01:01:52] Nyctophilia: *Nycto gives even a more astonished expression, glaring at her hand, which was automatically pressing keys at this point.*
[22.09.2018 01:01:59] Nyctophilia: Wha... What is even going on?
[22.09.2018 01:02:45] Nyctophilia: Well... Whatever is going on... I like it... *She rests back on her left hand and stares into Moros's dark side.*
[22.09.2018 01:03:19] Windstar: "Warmth. The Light Within amplifies the voice of the Carrier."
[22.09.2018 01:04:59] Windstar: "Curiosity. A new Light?"
[22.09.2018 01:05:52] Nyctophilia: *Suddenly, she realises that the melody's pattern is reaching it's logical end. The final notes begin to play.*
[22.09.2018 01:06:42] Vagrant.Hesione: *Anxiety. Yes. Exploring the Forgotten Void for the first time.*
[22.09.2018 01:06:45] Nyctophilia: *The final notes loop around in a quantitiy of eight, and soon the music stops playing, when Jane notices that her hand has stopped pressing keys.*
[22.09.2018 01:06:48] Vagrant.Melia: "The whole have forged a young aspect."
[22.09.2018 01:07:32] Windstar: *The Light Within reaches out to comfort all, providing warmth.*
[22.09.2018 01:07:50] Nyctophilia: *Afterwards, she notices a visitor.*
[22.09.2018 01:07:54] Nyctophilia: Oh... Uh. Hi.
[22.09.2018 01:08:07] Nyctophilia: Sorry... I was a little bit overwhelmed by a music.
[22.09.2018 01:08:48] Windstar: *Kimi chuckles* I wonder if this Light was the one we touched in our home.
[22.09.2018 01:08:48] /time
[22.09.2018 01:08:48] 2018-09-22 01:08:53 SMT
It's strange. I don't remember most of the things that happened yesterday, as if I was in a trance... But I remember playing this sort of melody. However, when I woke up, I tried replaying it again... And it didn't worked out. It was all wrong. And the most fun thing is I don't even remember playing this kind of music in my old days. It was... Cosmic. Calming. And so monotonous. And how I even enjoyed playing it over and over? As if... It wasn't even me who was playing this music.
However... There was something more to it. A dream, which I once again suspect to be more than real.
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[22.09.2018 01:10:21] Nyctophilia: *She takes out the headphone and folds in the rear holo pad with piano keys.*
[22.09.2018 01:11:04] Nyctophilia: Wow... This music was just something... Other.
[22.09.2018 01:11:21] Windstar: When you are ready, you can make something so much more.
[22.09.2018 01:11:48] Nyctophilia: I mean... I never actually written this kind of music, most of the stuff I write is just jazz... But my goodness.
[22.09.2018 01:11:53] Nyctophilia: It was just beautiful.
[22.09.2018 01:12:40] Windstar: *She nods, smiling* The void beckons you to create something more than you usually do.
[22.09.2018 01:13:23] Nyctophilia: Or more than I am capable of...
[22.09.2018 01:13:36] Windstar: "Joy. They grow."
[22.09.2018 01:15:17] Vagrant.Melia: "Perhaps."
[22.09.2018 01:15:21] Nyctophilia: This is one of the moments that make me think to return doing what I actually enjoy.
[22.09.2018 01:16:32] Vagrant.Melia: "Yet, before it may sing, it must completely know the way of listening."
[22.09.2018 01:17:04] Windstar: Maybe you should. Brokering intel is good for money, but not for the soul.
[22.09.2018 01:17:20] Vagrant.Melia: *This seemed to be directed not just at Nycto, but the smaller Vagrant nearby.*
[22.09.2018 01:17:21] Nyctophilia: I already have all the money for the rest of my life.
[22.09.2018 01:17:38] Nyctophilia: And I mean it.
[22.09.2018 01:17:46] Nyctophilia: Including all possible wastes.
[22.09.2018 01:18:10] Windstar: Then you should join in adding color to the Void.
[22.09.2018 01:18:34] Nyctophilia: I just... Don't have anything else better to do than being... Myself?
[22.09.2018 01:18:56] Windstar: *She smiles* More than yourself.
[22.09.2018 01:18:59] Vagrant.Melia: "The darkling shall open themselves again. They shall listen."
[22.09.2018 01:19:13] Nyctophilia: Writing music, flying around and enjoying the company of the ones who enjoy my.
[22.09.2018 01:19:40] Windstar: Do you want to... experience it again?
[22.09.2018 01:19:55] Vagrant.Melia: "Our Light shall insist."
[22.09.2018 01:20:03] Nyctophilia: If it's what I think it is - I dream about it all the day.
[22.09.2018 01:20:10] Nyctophilia: And all the night.
[22.09.2018 01:21:42] Vagrant.Melia: *Melia begins to project itself and its warmth to the surrounding minds.*
[22.09.2018 01:22:25] Nyctophilia: *A reminiscent feeling surrounds Jane yet again. She tries to reach out to it.*
[22.09.2018 01:22:29] Vagrant.Melia: *For Hesione there would be more or less no practical difference to its present perceptions of mind.*
[22.09.2018 01:22:53] Vagrant.Melia: *For Kimiko and Amphitrite it would begin to shift them towards the collective once more.*
[22.09.2018 01:23:59] Vagrant.Melia: *The most effort would be placed upon Nycto, their purely human state meant their perception had to be completely wrapped around, in order to permit them to be drawn into the mindscape.*
[22.09.2018 01:25:25] Nyctophilia: *She stands up from her pilot chair and follows the feeling, which lead into the upper level of the Spatial, where the resting lodge was located.*
[22.09.2018 01:25:57] Nyctophilia: *She lied down on the couch and stares up into the stars, focusing on this feeling.*
[22.09.2018 01:26:29] Windstar: *The Twin Lights of Kimiko and Amphitrite fuse once more into one being as the two are brought to the greater whole*
[22.09.2018 01:26:35] Vagrant.Melia: *Ever calm, ever gentle, it was there.*
[22.09.2018 01:27:30] Nyctophilia: *Being exhausted by the events of the day and enjoying her couch, she falls asleep, embrasing the presense.*
[22.09.2018 01:31:26] Vagrant.Melia: *The mindscape was beginning to take its shape. That seemingly endless, colored space.*
[22.09.2018 01:32:44] Windstar: *A pulsing light flies around the space, not known to Jane, but vaguely familiar.*
[22.09.2018 01:32:51] Nyctophilia: *Nycto slowly opens her eyes. She acknowledges herself in a mindscape she was for the last time. She swiftly remembers what happened here.*
[22.09.2018 01:33:17] Vagrant.Melia: *Melia's presence was manifest into the vaguely humanoid forms of before. It was watching.*
[22.09.2018 01:33:40] Vagrant.Melia: *Watching as the minds entered, watching the curiosity of the young one. Observing the fusion of the twin lights.*
[22.09.2018 01:34:00] Windstar: *The light slows down and morphs into a humanoid form as well, just as amorphous*
[22.09.2018 01:35:31] Nyctophilia: *She looks around, noticing the humanoid forms around her.*
[22.09.2018 01:36:02] Nyctophilia: *"This place... I remember it. Somehow."*
[22.09.2018 01:37:58] Windstar: "Recollection. We have brought you to the plane of our song once more."
[22.09.2018 01:39:31] Nyctophilia: *"Hm... Yes. I... Have positive memories about this place. *She takes a look at one of the manifestations* But, in the same time, they all cut short in one moment."*
[22.09.2018 01:39:57] Nyctophilia: *"One. Sad. Moment."*
[22.09.2018 01:40:02] Vagrant.Melia: *Melia seemed to be staring back.*
[22.09.2018 01:41:24] Windstar: *The vaguely familiar silhouette steps towards Jane, a projecting that sublime, coursing warmth.*
[22.09.2018 01:41:47] Nyctophilia: "In the first place, I thought it was a dream. That it all was a dream... Then, when I 'woke' up... Everything proved me otherwise."
[22.09.2018 01:44:00] Nyctophilia: *While being turned towards Melia, she somehow notices the warmth and even cuddles in it.*
[22.09.2018 01:44:43] Nyctophilia: "Hm... Yes. This is one of a few things I remember about this place."
[22.09.2018 01:46:38] Windstar: *The warmth courses through her, wrapping around her body like little tendrils of soul-comforting bliss*
[22.09.2018 01:47:13] Vagrant.Melia: "Joy."
[22.09.2018 01:47:31] Windstar: "Curiosity."
[22.09.2018 01:47:45] Nyctophilia: "I... Hope you don't mind... If I sit here..." *She sits down, cuddling herself in the warmth.*
[22.09.2018 01:49:02] Windstar: *The figure sits beside her, tilting its head*
[22.09.2018 01:49:52] Nyctophilia: "It's... Good... As always..."
[22.09.2018 01:50:23] Nyctophilia: "No... It's even better..."
[22.09.2018 01:51:04] Windstar: *The figure doesn't change in appearance, but Jane can somehow perceive the equivalent of a smile.*
[22.09.2018 01:51:07] Vagrant.Melia: *Melia's form melded with the background. Something seems to have grabbed its attention.*
[22.09.2018 01:51:35] Windstar: "Curiosity. An intruder?"
[22.09.2018 01:53:29] Nyctophilia: *Something new seems to be emitting from Jane. She appears to be happy, but not emotionally.*
[22.09.2018 01:53:55] Vagrant.Melia: "A familiar form approaches."
[22.09.2018 01:54:44] Vatan: *The cloud releases, expanding and revealing a metal vessel.*
[22.09.2018 01:55:08] Vagrant.Melia: *Melia reaches out to Vatan.* "Join."
[22.09.2018 01:55:18] Windstar: *The spectral form dives inside of Jane, curiously investigating this new sensation.*
[22.09.2018 01:55:33] Vatan: "Ours joins, observes."
[22.09.2018 01:56:16] Windstar: "We welcome yours chorus in our song. Joy."
[22.09.2018 01:56:44] Vagrant.Melia: *Melia manifests a form in the mindscape again.*
[22.09.2018 01:58:55] Nyctophilia: *Suddenly, something strange happens with Jane. A sole tear runs down her right cheek once again. Then an another one on her left.*
[22.09.2018 01:59:39] Windstar: *The form of the Twin Lights emerges from Jane, returning to sit by her in the mindscape.*
[22.09.2018 02:00:05] Nyctophilia: I... I've never been so happy... In my life...
[22.09.2018 02:00:44] Nyctophilia: "First, the music, now - this... I... Just tell me it's real."
[22.09.2018 02:00:59] Windstar: "Submission. Embrace the whole. More than one life shares the bliss."
[22.09.2018 02:02:33] Vagrant.Melia: "Amusement. It is as real as the voids."
[22.09.2018 02:02:35] Nyctophilia: "I... I'd just like to know if there is anyone who could feel the as I do..."
[22.09.2018 02:03:26] Nyctophilia: "If there is - I'd spend the eternity with them. I'd share my pain, my happiness, my music, my everything with them..."
[22.09.2018 02:03:42] Nyctophilia: "If only if they were happy..."
[22.09.2018 02:03:59] Windstar: *Briefly, the traits and identity of Kimiko flashes from within the Twin Lights.* "The Light will embrace you, Jane. But it's a long road."
[22.09.2018 02:03:59] Nyctophilia: "And I'd share theirs."
[22.09.2018 02:05:11] Nyctophilia: "Even longer..."
[22.09.2018 02:05:26] Nyctophilia: "I don't care. It will happen eventually."
[22.09.2018 02:05:33] Vagrant.Melia: "Patience."
[22.09.2018 02:08:29] Windstar: "It will come, if you develop your mind and body to greater fit the whole. And part with the darkness of self."
[22.09.2018 02:09:10] Nyctophilia: "I honestly don't feel like I belong to anything at this stage anymore. More like I'm just flying around, meaninglessly..."
[22.09.2018 02:09:25] Nyctophilia: "Just for sake of such moments as these..."
[22.09.2018 02:09:53] Nyctophilia: "Or writing music, maybe."
[22.09.2018 02:10:41] Nyctophilia: "Well, at least there are people whom I can help."
[22.09.2018 02:11:36] Windstar: *The silhouette turns to Melia* "Unity. We must show them the whole. Briefly and softly."
[22.09.2018 02:11:56] Vagrant.Melia: "We concur."
[22.09.2018 02:12:23] Nyctophilia: *She falls down on the floor, staring into the top.*
[22.09.2018 02:13:21] Nyctophilia: *She is still pondering her purpose of existance, whilist considering many other events around her.*
[22.09.2018 02:16:07] Nyctophilia: *She was thinking "What if it's not worth of my time at all? What if it's all just an illusion, as always? And nothing will happen?"*
[22.09.2018 02:17:05] Nyctophilia: *"And what if I'm being a test subject of some government?"*
[22.09.2018 02:18:02] Windstar: "There is no darkling force over the Light. There never shall be."
[22.09.2018 02:21:28] Nyctophilia: "Yeah... I already went that rabbit hole, and I'm not considering how to get out."
[22.09.2018 02:22:22] Windstar: "Eternity lies ahead and behind, little darkling. You need only let go."
[22.09.2018 02:23:40] Nyctophilia: *She exhales, clearing her mind of all disturbing thoughts.*
[22.09.2018 02:23:49] Nyctophilia: "Yeah... Right..."
[22.09.2018 02:23:59] Vagrant.Melia: "Listen."
[22.09.2018 02:25:44] Nyctophilia: *She rests easy, closing her eyes, almost not feeling any gravity in the mindscape.*
[22.09.2018 02:30:54] Nyctophilia: *While lying adrift, she catches a pattern of emotions. Sorrow. Happiness. Love. All of it makes her simultaneously shed some more tears and smile.*
[22.09.2018 02:31:52] Windstar: *The Twin Lights merge to be one with Melia, joining the whole.*
[22.09.2018 02:33:29] Vagrant.Melia: "We are as one."
[22.09.2018 02:33:38] Windstar: "We are as one."
[22.09.2018 02:35:07] Nyctophilia: *She listens to the Light chanting, and she feels a desire to join.*
[22.09.2018 02:36:32] Vagrant.Melia: "The Light shall purify the darkness, in time."
[22.09.2018 02:37:34] Nyctophilia: *Being enveloped by the warmth and all the emotions, she even stops questioning and just wants to join the familiar chanting.*
[22.09.2018 02:37:35] Vagrant.Melia: "Calm. Patience. We focus."
[22.09.2018 02:38:22] Vagrant.Melia: *The composite manifestation of Melia, Amphitrite and Kimiko united would begin to shift.*
[22.09.2018 02:39:31] Vagrant.Melia: *It began to compress into a long, ever-extended 'beam'. It seemed rooted in the background, but there was simply no way to truly tell how far it really was reaching.*
[22.09.2018 02:41:58] Nyctophilia: *Nycto finally notices that she was floating all the time, but she didn't cared much about this fact. All she was caring about that beam.*
[22.09.2018 02:46:19] Nyctophilia: *She was looking at it in astonishment, while all of the emotions slowly faded away.*
[22.09.2018 02:48:52] Vagrant.Melia: *The beam began to approach at an equally astonishing speed.*
[22.09.2018 02:49:20] Windstar: *All energies and presences were carried within the beam.*
[22.09.2018 02:49:40] Vagrant.Melia: *It pierced through, over, under, all around.*
[22.09.2018 02:51:24] Vagrant.Melia: * The briefest moment's glimpse of the entire sum of the whole.*
[22.09.2018 02:52:36] Windstar: *An infinite chorus of sensation ripples and blasts through Nycto's very soul, blasting away their individuality and self for the briefest of moments.*
[22.09.2018 02:53:14] Nyctophilia: *And these were the moments, when Nycto remembered a vision that Azhi showed her.*
[22.09.2018 02:54:59] Nyctophilia: *A brief moments of infinite love and compassion, which almost made her tear up, realising it were but a mere moments to experience.*
[22.09.2018 02:56:00] Windstar: *The sheer volume of feeling and thought was incomprehensible, and would dash Nycto's own self-awareness and thoughts out to the stormy sea of mental activity she was now engulfed in.*
[22.09.2018 02:56:47] Windstar: *It was impossible to tell whose thoughts were whose.*
[22.09.2018 02:57:03] Nyctophilia: *Yet she wouldn't care less.*
[22.09.2018 02:58:03] Windstar: *She could sometimes see the thoughts of Kimiko and Amphitrite passing by, sharing the flying freedom of song.*
[22.09.2018 02:58:44] Windstar: *A harmony of trillions, across space and time. Complete and beautiful.*
[22.09.2018 02:59:45] Nyctophilia: *It all seemed outstanding for her. Like on a new level of understanding.*
[22.09.2018 03:00:35] Windstar: *For the moment, no longer she. Only they. We. The many. The one. The whole.*
[22.09.2018 03:01:22] Nyctophilia: *And then she realised, that it wasn't only her. That she was a part of something bigger, yet something bigger was a part of her.*
[22.09.2018 03:02:22] Nyctophilia: *The meaning of self started to melt for her, as the moments kept going and going.*
[22.09.2018 03:02:55] Vagrant.Melia: *The distinctly inhuman nature of the moment would completely defy any sort of categorization man could hope to apply to it.*
[22.09.2018 03:04:07] Windstar: *The sensation transcended the typical conceptualization of mankind's world. It almost felt like apotheosis. Divinity born.*
[22.09.2018 03:09:12] Nyctophilia: *Nycto felt a bit renown after the last moments she experiences.*
[22.09.2018 03:13:22] Nyctophilia: *Through her last moments, her comprehension of Nomads changed even more radically.*
[22.09.2018 03:13:35] Vagrant.Melia: *Just as it passed through, it came out and things within the mindscape settled.*
[22.09.2018 03:13:36] Nyctophilia: *However, she was exhausted mentally by the experience.*
[22.09.2018 03:14:18] Windstar: *Gradually, the Twin Lights would fall from the beam, and then seperate into Kimiko and Amphitrite. The two would then fade.*
[22.09.2018 03:14:29] Nyctophilia: *As she was laying down in her ship, she was floating in the Mindscape.*
[22.09.2018 03:14:42] Vagrant.Melia: *Melia stared but for a few moments longer.*
[22.09.2018 03:15:03] Vagrant.Melia: "This is the way of the Light."
[22.09.2018 03:15:34] Windstar: *The spirits returned to the Carrier, and she shook her head weakly*
[22.09.2018 03:16:38] Nyctophilia: *Jane for sure will remember this experience. She lifts off the presenses*
[22.09.2018 03:16:48] Windstar: *Her left eye, which had been a raging inferno of colors, now quieted and returned to its dark void.*
[22.09.2018 03:17:06] Nyctophilia: Watch: [:Destination Set = Freeport 11.:]
[22.09.2018 03:17:20] Windstar: We'll make sure she gets home safe...
[22.09.2018 03:18:04] Nyctophilia: Watch: [:Status = NYCTOPHILIA: Stabile:]
[22.09.2018 03:18:06] Windstar: The Light has blessed you, Jane. Sleep soundly in the bosom of the Vagrants.
[22.09.2018 03:19:38] Windstar: One day, you'll know nothing but love...
[22.09.2018 03:20:01] Nyctophilia: *She might not be hearing the words, as she's still asleep on her couch.*
[22.09.2018 03:20:15] Windstar: *She smiles* Let me know when you wake up.
[22.09.2018 03:20:30] Nyctophilia: *Although, she will appreciate them, once the aboard AI delivers the message for her.*
[22.09.2018 03:20:36] 2018-09-22 03:20:40 SMT Traffic control alert: Nyctophilia has requested to dock
[22.09.2018 03:20:55] Nyctophilia: Watch: [:Initiating Docking Sequence = Freeport 11:]
An another moment of joy. But it felt... Way, way different. It wasn't just me. I, I didn't felt like myself. The joy was innumerable. Various patterns of thoughts, emotions, feelings... As if something reached out to my very soul and scattered it on multiple pieces, yet all of them were connected to each other and to something greater than I am. And as always, in a moment, it all faded away... I was just me.
It was the moment when I woke up. The AI delivered a message from Kimi to me and... Yeah. I want to be optimistic about it, but... I have a feeling that this day may never come. That there will be only such moments and "dreams" we could enjoy. I'm... Not iron and my patience has limits. They all keep talking about that "one day" or "the moment that shall come", but I just don't care about it. I just... I realise that I never got to know Kimi as a person. Ever since she became one with them, she was completely contributed to their cause, but I never ever got a chance to talk to "real" her. Or... Maybe because it's what she really wants as herself. I... I might be blinded, but she doesn't looks hurt when she talks to me, but when she puts effort into Naiad, she exhausts herself at an enormous grade. Like, she really wants to help her. But Naiad doesn't seems to be appreciating this kind of assistance or even paying attention to it.
I'm tearing appart. On one side, I want to be with the ones, who can provide me what I seek, but on the other side, I want to help Kimi... And I feel like I will lose an access to another option if I pick one of them. I don't know what to do.