02-07-2015, 04:36 AM
Entry 1 - 28th of December, 813 AS
I write in here because of two reasons.
The first is, it is my birthday. I turned 30 now today, and I am told that's something to appreciate. Given the second reason decided to write this journal, I both agree and disagree.
This reason is that I saw death today. Not a simple death of a creature. Not a bird on Kyushu dying because he flew in the forcefield of my window. And not an acted death in Holo. I saw a man dying.
Not that I wasn't prepared for that. Military training for Officers is strict, and you will fastly learn to adopt and react. But even if you learn how you have to react, it doesn't prepare you for the eyes of a dead person, fixating you, trying desperately to stay alive - and then watching this fire fade. The eyes breaking contact with yours, and then the person you see, the one you have years spent with serving is just... gone.
I should really explain how this came to be.
My Name is Sakuma Hitomi. I am Kaigun Chūi [Lieutenant Junior Grade] of the Kusari Naval Forces, one of the few women to be serve the Emperor. About half a year ago, our unit got stationed on the Nagumo, with the intention of "Securing the interests of the Empire in Tau-29".
We all knew that this was merely a coverup. Samura shipments in this region of space seemed to go missing again and again, and the Admirality had to react somehow. What surprised us was that of all units, our Hikōtai [squadron] got commanded here, since being part of the 343rd usually means covering Shogun Sulus back. But we all were relieved to finally see some action. We had not last one man in years now, and didn't plan to change that.
Well, change came.
And it had the face of Bretonians.
Following a (most likely faked) emergency transmission of a Samura vessel, we got ambushed by a wave of Privateers. I don't think they expected such a force - their comms chatter indicated that they were quite surprised. Everything was going well, I thought. I actually enjoyed managing Aotaka's comms, shouting orders given by the Chūsa, until some fighter pilot managed to hit our port stabilizer hard. Helmsman lost control, and the Aotaka went into a flat spin. After recovering, the fighters were slaughtered. Not a single one of our pilots has returned, as we were forced to retreat.
Dishonoured and disgraced, the Chūsa draw his dagger and ordered me to be his Kaishakunin. And that is where I witnessed death. I killed my superior. The man I ever looked up to. Although letting him die in Honour, it was horrifying. I don't believe I will ever forget the look on his face when he gave me the order to kill him. And I still do not understand why he chose me.
I write in here because of two reasons.
The first is, it is my birthday. I turned 30 now today, and I am told that's something to appreciate. Given the second reason decided to write this journal, I both agree and disagree.
This reason is that I saw death today. Not a simple death of a creature. Not a bird on Kyushu dying because he flew in the forcefield of my window. And not an acted death in Holo. I saw a man dying.
Not that I wasn't prepared for that. Military training for Officers is strict, and you will fastly learn to adopt and react. But even if you learn how you have to react, it doesn't prepare you for the eyes of a dead person, fixating you, trying desperately to stay alive - and then watching this fire fade. The eyes breaking contact with yours, and then the person you see, the one you have years spent with serving is just... gone.
I should really explain how this came to be.
My Name is Sakuma Hitomi. I am Kaigun Chūi [Lieutenant Junior Grade] of the Kusari Naval Forces, one of the few women to be serve the Emperor. About half a year ago, our unit got stationed on the Nagumo, with the intention of "Securing the interests of the Empire in Tau-29".
We all knew that this was merely a coverup. Samura shipments in this region of space seemed to go missing again and again, and the Admirality had to react somehow. What surprised us was that of all units, our Hikōtai [squadron] got commanded here, since being part of the 343rd usually means covering Shogun Sulus back. But we all were relieved to finally see some action. We had not last one man in years now, and didn't plan to change that.
Well, change came.
And it had the face of Bretonians.
Following a (most likely faked) emergency transmission of a Samura vessel, we got ambushed by a wave of Privateers. I don't think they expected such a force - their comms chatter indicated that they were quite surprised. Everything was going well, I thought. I actually enjoyed managing Aotaka's comms, shouting orders given by the Chūsa, until some fighter pilot managed to hit our port stabilizer hard. Helmsman lost control, and the Aotaka went into a flat spin. After recovering, the fighters were slaughtered. Not a single one of our pilots has returned, as we were forced to retreat.
Dishonoured and disgraced, the Chūsa draw his dagger and ordered me to be his Kaishakunin. And that is where I witnessed death. I killed my superior. The man I ever looked up to. Although letting him die in Honour, it was horrifying. I don't believe I will ever forget the look on his face when he gave me the order to kill him. And I still do not understand why he chose me.