02-21-2019, 11:36 AM
Index
- Bodhisattva
- Kalyāṇa-mitratās
- Śīla
- Dharma
- Mantra
- Mikkyō
- Vedanā
- Daeira
- Samsara
- Middle Path
- Anātman
- Buddhi
- Duḥkha
- Karma
- Skandha
- Prajñā
- Sūtra
- Anitya
- Zazen
- Mudita
- Hrī
- Kleśa
- Manasikārai
- Karuṇā
- Mārdava
- Vipassanā
1. Bodhisattva
And therefore I’ll dispel the pain of others, For it is simply pain, just like my own. And others I will aid and benefit, For they are living beings, like my body.
I am thankfully and gracefully situated within my new abode on Freeport 9, still surprised at the turn of events of the last few days. I have, come to terms with myself and my inner-feelings many times, I found myself at a crossroads that Alexandria helped me through finding a path. Whether this path is the right path, is irrelevant to the impermanence of my existence. I worry of my own, being this body may very well perish at any moment with the decisions I have made, the conversations that I have dived into with no fear and the friendships of those who can be construed as traitors to their own kind. What worries me, and why I have begun to write these accounts is passing on without anyone knowing my story, my life and why I make these decisions.
Talking with the blue dragons, for instance seems most wise to a Buddhist. Not many can understand my viewpoint of all beings, we are all equal in the great expanse of interconnectedness. My mindfulness resonates with me that we are effective of each-other due to dependent originations. Talking with a blue dragons, majestic and truly the closest to Bodhisattvas that I have seen for instance seems wise for me as cause and effect. My being is dependent on others, the composition of my body and the environment, if I was to shy away from conversing then perhaps that blue dragon would've attacked those more violent to their peaceful kind. We are in a constant flux, creation and destruction rooted in ever-changing conditions of the universe. I grew up in a harsh place, beautiful as it is now I did not see it's beauty then. I believe that peaceful insight into other beings including the nomads is a core tenant of my very existence.
If I was to be executed, arrested or ostracised for my religious beliefs in other beings then, I would be briefly saddened but I was also accept what it is to come. I only wish that, when people find this diary they come to realise who I was, rather then judging me on out of context actions. Make no mistake, I dismay against the nomads that cause violence those nomads that cannot be convinced of anything but and I dismay against those who are infected. I personally would not want infection, it is a destruction of the self and against everything I have learnt of keeping the mind whole. If I was joined with another mind, intriguing and horrific as that prospect sounds I would not truly understand it. I am a me, not a we.
Alexandria enjoys these philosophical quandaries that constantly go through my mind. I have come to seek guidance in a blue dragon known as Daeira, beautiful as her song is I cannot help but think that she has a ulterior motive of converting me to worshipping her kind. I have explained and told stories to her, "her" I suppose I have imprinted a matriarchal view. But yes, I have told stories of Buddhism and the tales of dark and light are very similar. However I believe that there is darkness and light within all beings, including the Nomads. I do not think Daeira would accept such a viewpoint and I am well, apprehensive of speaking to her of my feelings on that. All beings are profound things but Daeira is the most profound, and I do not want to jeopardize the odd relationship between us. We are both, teacher and student to each other of our ways. If I am to reborn, and I cannot reach Nirvana perhaps I would enjoy a Nomad form. We live in the infinite regress, and our actions shall be judged accordingly.
2. Kalyāṇa-mitratās
Once the Buddha’s disciple Ananda asked him about friendship. Ananda knew that having good and encouraging friends was very important for the path. He even wondered whether having good friends is half the path.
“No, Ananda,” the Buddha told him, “having good friends isn’t half of the Holy Life. Having good friends is the whole of the Holy Life.”
When I joined New Dawn, Mark showed me much of what we hope to accomplish. I admit, our friendship is based on mutual respect and a view of the greater good for humankind. I have not seen him for some weeks, nor have I other members of New Dawn. I question whether I should remain in this small group but bes
I have met many strange, interesting and hostile people and leaving them unmentioned would seem rude of me. I only spent a few months out in space when I met someone known as Mysterious. I'm unsure about him, still unsure about him. He has strange dreams that one could construe as pure lunacy but with the way the Nomads are from stories, who I am I to disbelieve him. Do I think he should go to a medical professional to get checked? Yes, would I say such things to him? No. I find him very young and the way he speaks confusing at times. Still, I would consider him a friend. He considers me, greater than that seeing me as his love. I do not think he understands my viewpoint on love and relationships but again I would never truly let him down that would be unkind.
The other I met was "John" or "Wolf" a explorer of some renown and immensely popular with other explorers it seems. He seems touched by fate and rather mysterious at times, I have met many others who are friends of his a sort of Wolf fan-club I imagine although that seems to be a bit shall we say, corny? Nevertheless I am intrigued by him and his background that he keeps to himself. His quest for this, Narcharite or Nacharite worries me greatly. He nearly died and that would be most sad if he did. I have not seen him for some time since the voided incidents.
Then there is Captain Alexander Daniels, someone who I have much conflict personally and politically with. I do not know what his plan is with his quest to seek Nomads. I hope he does not become infected, he would never be the same spirit, the same soul. I do respect him for seeking the Nomads but I also think it is quite foolish to join them by being infected. Still, there is something carnal within me about him. Alexandria calls it a infatuation and I would agree, but whether I would willingly pursue this infatuation with him is another story entirely. Love for me is not so simple, I have loved before and it ended in tragedy which I will get into later. Still, should I not seek it again, would I betray myself if I do? Alexander is not the only one I am infatuated with.
Alexandria Conley is well, at this point my best friend. She has confided in me and I in her. We argue, well we debate constantly back and forth like grand philosophers we think we are. I like her and she has convinced me to become a Zoner, something I had not thought before and indeed something I avoided before. I am now, neutral in faction and in life I only hope the other Zoners will be as forgiving with my beliefs as Alex has been. There might be something more to her, she does not hide it well and I am curious about her. I need to get her a scarf.