09-18-2021, 11:47 PM
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September 18th, 828 A.S. - Uncharted System 32
September 18th, 828 A.S. - Uncharted System 32
Dark blue mist. We've been surrounded by it for about two months now, and it's likely going to be more months. I generally didn't dislike it, but knowing the entire system was flooded in this mist, and the fact that the sensors were reduced to ten percent range inside of it, I felt like this ship was submerged in an ocean full of giant monsters just waiting for us to accidentally stumble across. However, we weren't moving for a while now. There was a gauntlet of hazardous systems behind us and now were taking the time to recover.
"Heyooo!" Sombra yelled, joining me in the dark observation room. I was sitting on the bench in front of the tall window revealing the aforementioned dark blue mist, which was illuminated by the Apahanta's own blue lights at this distance. The lately suspiciously jovial woman sat down right next to me, only to lean against my side, placing her head on my shoulder. "What are you doing in here all alone?" she asked, looking over at the tiny asteroid base we built in the past two months.
"Just thinking a bit." In fact, I sat here because despite us being all alone in this region of space - hopefully - being on this ship with more than two dozens of people and hundreds of service robots, I sometimes felt the need to just be on my own. Looking out of the windows usually reminded me how alone we were outside here. A thought that was both calming and alarming.
"About what?" she asked, gently placing one of her hands on my thigh.
"Eh, nothing important." She squeezed my thigh, obviously not happy with the response. I chuckled. "This morning, Ezrael said our last encounter with anything Sirian is now one year in the past. It was a lesser Nomad, curiously following the Apahanta for a few hours before turning around and disappearing. Ever since then, we've been entirely on our own. And chances are we will never ever see another soul again."
"Does that thought unsettle you?" Sombra asked me, for a moment turning her head toward me.
"Right now, it does not, no. It's just... this reminder of, on a cosmic scale, how small we are, even considering mankind and Nomads managed to colonize multiple systems. According to Ez, we're now two lengths of Sirius away from Sirius. More or less 30 jump holes." I took my PDA and opened the starmap, showing it to her.
"It's not 100% accurate, but that's the way we made so far. I could technically add the other nebulae we have seen in the distance, but it's hard to tell how far away they are from the individual system. Still, kinda intimidating to see all this, don't you think?"
She took the PDA and took a close look. After a few seconds, though, she put it away. "Come."
Sombra made a move to stand up but grabbed my hand to make me follow, leading me to the window. Getting close to the window actually made me feel uncomfortable, as the only thing between me and the cold below was just a thick layer of transparent duraglass. It was an unreasonable feeling, considering that being anywere else in this room was just as dangerous. Or being on this ship, in general. Space is nothing but a death trap, although we had not a single deadly incident since we left Sirius.
"Look down there. Do you see that?" she asked me, pointing into the mist below us. In this moment, the Apahanta was in a chasm of giant rocks floating in the nebula. Left and right were huge chunks, above and below us just some smaller rocks. It was a little hiding place, just in case something was out there. This nebula gave us the opportunity to remain uncloaked, meaning the cloaking device could get some love after operating for months without a break. Considering we had built a small outpost inside one of the big rocks, staying cloaked was a moot point anyway, as the installation did not profit from the cloak. The outpost itself was just a big empty hull with just enough life support to get an extended hydroponics, water purification system and ore smelter going. We had all those things on the ship, however given the resource rich environment around us, Ezrael decided to boost our own little economy for a while as long as it seemed convenient. He also said this was more of a test project in case we ever need to settle down, to see how prepared we are for such a case. Turned out we are quite well prepared for simple constructions.
Following Sombra's finger, I looked down, almost pushing my head against the duraglass. Below us was a lot of nothing. "I don't see anything."
"Exactly. Nothing. That's space, regardless of where you are. Nothing means nothing is there to actively seek you out and shoot you. When I was piloting the Catport, I was always on edge, always afraid a pirate bomber could show up to surprise me while I sleep. Out here, we don't need to be afraid. It's just space. I'm quite happy about us being alone out here, since I have everything nice I need for being happy. I have you, and Ez, and Leon, and all the others, and we live a happy life here. I don't want to worry about cosmic scales and nothingness, really. It's just depressing, and I know that none of us is anything special. We're random creations in a huge universe filled with all kinds of random shit. I'm quite happy with all of this, even if there is nothing below us and nothing above us. Just us here."
I blinked at her a few times. "... what are you trying to say?"
"I'm trying to say that we're all coming across that feeling of emptiness. Very nihilistic. However, if I compare my previous life with this what we are having here, I have to admit that while this is different - and more safe than Sirius - I already had the nihilistic feelings back in Sirius, even on Curacao. Sometimes in the night, you just sit there and look out of the window and think to yourself 'Wow, we're super insignificant' and 'If I die, nobody would remember me after ten years or so'. But that's how things are, Noel, regardless of time and place. There have been billions of humans and we don't remember most of them. Sure, if you died, I'd still remember you until the end of my own days-"
"... that's a bad example," I interjected.
She smirked slightly, turning to me to hug me. "What I'm trying to say is that things are the same everywhere. I'm sure that the people of Sirius already forgot about us entirely. It wouldn't make a difference to them if we die now or in ten years or if we even managed to outlive them. To them, we are no longer significant. Just like they are to us. We won't remember their names for long, and vice versa." She stopped for a moment, still hugging me, which was nice. We've been a couple for about 1.5 years now, and it was still incredibly passionate with her. "Although I wouldn't be surprised if Ezrael left some women behind, not knowing he has children with them."
"That'd be horrible, yet somewhat realistic."
"Come, time to snuggle in bed. With cups of hot chocolate and some cheesy movies." Allowing her to drag me back to our quarters, we did as she suggested. She was right. Being all the way out here didn't change anything, except for the fact that it increased out life expectancy due to noone else being out here. Just the Apahanta.
Hopefully.
"Heyooo!" Sombra yelled, joining me in the dark observation room. I was sitting on the bench in front of the tall window revealing the aforementioned dark blue mist, which was illuminated by the Apahanta's own blue lights at this distance. The lately suspiciously jovial woman sat down right next to me, only to lean against my side, placing her head on my shoulder. "What are you doing in here all alone?" she asked, looking over at the tiny asteroid base we built in the past two months.
"Just thinking a bit." In fact, I sat here because despite us being all alone in this region of space - hopefully - being on this ship with more than two dozens of people and hundreds of service robots, I sometimes felt the need to just be on my own. Looking out of the windows usually reminded me how alone we were outside here. A thought that was both calming and alarming.
"About what?" she asked, gently placing one of her hands on my thigh.
"Eh, nothing important." She squeezed my thigh, obviously not happy with the response. I chuckled. "This morning, Ezrael said our last encounter with anything Sirian is now one year in the past. It was a lesser Nomad, curiously following the Apahanta for a few hours before turning around and disappearing. Ever since then, we've been entirely on our own. And chances are we will never ever see another soul again."
"Does that thought unsettle you?" Sombra asked me, for a moment turning her head toward me.
"Right now, it does not, no. It's just... this reminder of, on a cosmic scale, how small we are, even considering mankind and Nomads managed to colonize multiple systems. According to Ez, we're now two lengths of Sirius away from Sirius. More or less 30 jump holes." I took my PDA and opened the starmap, showing it to her.
"It's not 100% accurate, but that's the way we made so far. I could technically add the other nebulae we have seen in the distance, but it's hard to tell how far away they are from the individual system. Still, kinda intimidating to see all this, don't you think?"
She took the PDA and took a close look. After a few seconds, though, she put it away. "Come."
Sombra made a move to stand up but grabbed my hand to make me follow, leading me to the window. Getting close to the window actually made me feel uncomfortable, as the only thing between me and the cold below was just a thick layer of transparent duraglass. It was an unreasonable feeling, considering that being anywere else in this room was just as dangerous. Or being on this ship, in general. Space is nothing but a death trap, although we had not a single deadly incident since we left Sirius.
"Look down there. Do you see that?" she asked me, pointing into the mist below us. In this moment, the Apahanta was in a chasm of giant rocks floating in the nebula. Left and right were huge chunks, above and below us just some smaller rocks. It was a little hiding place, just in case something was out there. This nebula gave us the opportunity to remain uncloaked, meaning the cloaking device could get some love after operating for months without a break. Considering we had built a small outpost inside one of the big rocks, staying cloaked was a moot point anyway, as the installation did not profit from the cloak. The outpost itself was just a big empty hull with just enough life support to get an extended hydroponics, water purification system and ore smelter going. We had all those things on the ship, however given the resource rich environment around us, Ezrael decided to boost our own little economy for a while as long as it seemed convenient. He also said this was more of a test project in case we ever need to settle down, to see how prepared we are for such a case. Turned out we are quite well prepared for simple constructions.
Following Sombra's finger, I looked down, almost pushing my head against the duraglass. Below us was a lot of nothing. "I don't see anything."
"Exactly. Nothing. That's space, regardless of where you are. Nothing means nothing is there to actively seek you out and shoot you. When I was piloting the Catport, I was always on edge, always afraid a pirate bomber could show up to surprise me while I sleep. Out here, we don't need to be afraid. It's just space. I'm quite happy about us being alone out here, since I have everything nice I need for being happy. I have you, and Ez, and Leon, and all the others, and we live a happy life here. I don't want to worry about cosmic scales and nothingness, really. It's just depressing, and I know that none of us is anything special. We're random creations in a huge universe filled with all kinds of random shit. I'm quite happy with all of this, even if there is nothing below us and nothing above us. Just us here."
I blinked at her a few times. "... what are you trying to say?"
"I'm trying to say that we're all coming across that feeling of emptiness. Very nihilistic. However, if I compare my previous life with this what we are having here, I have to admit that while this is different - and more safe than Sirius - I already had the nihilistic feelings back in Sirius, even on Curacao. Sometimes in the night, you just sit there and look out of the window and think to yourself 'Wow, we're super insignificant' and 'If I die, nobody would remember me after ten years or so'. But that's how things are, Noel, regardless of time and place. There have been billions of humans and we don't remember most of them. Sure, if you died, I'd still remember you until the end of my own days-"
"... that's a bad example," I interjected.
She smirked slightly, turning to me to hug me. "What I'm trying to say is that things are the same everywhere. I'm sure that the people of Sirius already forgot about us entirely. It wouldn't make a difference to them if we die now or in ten years or if we even managed to outlive them. To them, we are no longer significant. Just like they are to us. We won't remember their names for long, and vice versa." She stopped for a moment, still hugging me, which was nice. We've been a couple for about 1.5 years now, and it was still incredibly passionate with her. "Although I wouldn't be surprised if Ezrael left some women behind, not knowing he has children with them."
"That'd be horrible, yet somewhat realistic."
"Come, time to snuggle in bed. With cups of hot chocolate and some cheesy movies." Allowing her to drag me back to our quarters, we did as she suggested. She was right. Being all the way out here didn't change anything, except for the fact that it increased out life expectancy due to noone else being out here. Just the Apahanta.
Hopefully.