Communication channel opened... Encryption:Standard Origin: California, Battleship Yukon ID: Captain John Armada Subject: From light to darkness
Hello Lauren,
I've read the message you recently left to the Liberty Navy and the 5th High Command. Besides not knowing if permission to react on this, has been given or not, I finally decided this on my own. It is a pity to see how things have turned out.
I am sorry it did turn this way, and that the 5th Fleet was not able to meet your expectations, nor able to make you feel welcome into the fleet.
I am not speaking for the others, not that I could or ever would, since I am sure everyone has his own feelings about this and you, but personally I believe that we could have done better.
I wasn't around much, thanks to another stay in hospital. These haven been grown in numbers since the Hellfire Legion ambushed me, and I apologize, for not being around, to fight and fly along with you.
I used to be in a similar situation like you. Full of anger and frustration, because the Navy didn't meet my expectations, nor respected my work, or even reacted properly on my call for reinforcements, when I needed them most. However, I didn't start writing this to tell you my lifestory, rather more to show understanding and compassion to you, and to what made you finally decide doing this step.
In my opinion you are a great pilot, both in and outside of combat, and you have the potential to rise in ranks and lead.
Don't throw your talent away because of anger and frustration caused by bad experience. Rather join another fleet, if this one hasn't given you, what you expect and need. I really hope you reconsider your decision once your mind is free of anger and take the right choice.
I wouldn't want to meet you as my opponent in space.
It was an honor to work and fly with you.
Find back to the light!
[img float=left]http://i.imgur.com/vouN9FI.jpg?4[/img] Communication channel opened...[img float=right]http://i.imgur.com/WUl2ymH.png?1[/img] Encryption:Standard Location:Buffalo Base, New York ID:Lauren Shaw Subject:Communications
Captain Armada,
What a surprise this is. The permission to that transmission was not the most secure I must admit. But it was not meant to be secure.
Why would you be sorry things turned this way, you are a member of the 5th Fleet are you not? You say that the 5th Fleet did not meet my expectations but is it that? I have heard this word alot recently and expectations is trying to say I am judging the 5th Fleet on there bad leadership. Which yes I am and no im not. The 5th Fleet needs to have a good recruitment process, including how they train there newest recruits. Im sure you are aware of my work and look what I had to do to get my first promotion.
It is not your fight you was put into hospital by the Hellfire Legion, but I can tell you this, I have been out numbered also by the Hellfire Legion and Battlegroup Auxesia near the orbit of Planet Manhattan. I have sent in my report on this which im sure you are more than welcome to read.
What I am trying to get at here is, the 5th Leadership are bad. They only think of them selves, and members of the council or government which is equivalent to there rank. Which I see is completely wrong. They want to become better all round, so why not show there members the ropes. Why not be that leader who helps there newest members. There has been multiply times I was flying alone with no wing man or women because the response times are bad and there priority is not the innocent people of Liberty, but there prioritize are there self.
I would like to thank you for saying I am a great pilot, in and outside of combat. You are not the only person who has told me, that I have the potential to rise in the ranks and lead sqaudrons, fleets, but first I need to find the correct place for me to be.
My talent? What is my talent. My frustration and anger will be taken out on the 5th Fleet if anything. Everyone else i do not have a problem with unless they have a problem with me. But we will see wont we. We all have to earn a living.
What options do I have open to me now Captain Armada? I do not have many that many left. I might even have to return home to Bretonia.
Communication channel opened... Encryption:Standard Origin: California, Battleship Yukon ID: Captain John Armada Subject: From light to darkness
Lauren,
I'm glad you did respond to my message, since I wasn't sure if you would even care, given to the fact, that I am a 5th Fleet member.
Mentioning this, yes I am a 5th Fleet member, but I do have my own mind and will, and only because one, some or even all the others would be, or not be sorry for the whole situation, I still can decide this on my own.
I've experienced both, good and bad situations within the 5th Fleet, since I had joined them, around one year ago. New members come, old members leave, the one way or the other. Even new members leave, and new members stay. Admiral O'neill might have a special way to act, I know. To me, he was always respectful and righteous, and under his command I was able to become more effecient and do more for Liberty than remaining in the Secondary Feet.
Generally, he used to give permissions and duties to several high ranked members, for example, recruiting, training, overwatching new members and so on. Unfortunately, the one for the training is yet M.I.A, and even months of searching for him, left no traces.
Instead I got this duty, though I never was that good, maybe advanced even, and since my time in coma and rehabilitation care, my piloting skills got worse again. Basically, yes the 5th Fleet is unorganized yet, and the response-reaction times on calling for reinforcements could be way better. I still hope this will improve soon.
Your talent is survival and compusure in the eye of the storm, surrounded by enemies. The moment when the situation looks dire and dead-end, you still keep fighting. You are not hardened and cold by the daily routine of warfare and it doesn't seem this will even change. As I already said, you do have the potential to rise in ranks and lead.
I did read your reports, all of them, from the beginning on. If it was on me to decide who would be promoted or not, you'd be Lieutenant Commander at least, but I am not the one to decide this, for my promotion into the High Command has been either delayed or denied.
Why turning to the complete opposite and become something you may dislike and used to fight?
You wish to protect the innocent, not harm them, don't you?
You wish to serve the law and the order, instead of breaking both, don't you?
You wish to live a life worth to live, a life you can be proud of and be satisfied with. A life you can look back at, at the end of your days, and leave this world in peace, with a smile, don't you?
You ask me what options you have left?
While returning to the 5th, is no option for sure, I guess, you may join the Primary Fleet.
You could also join the Bounty Hunters and hunt down the criminals, or become a Freelancer, join a Freelancer group and assist the Liberty Forces. Maybe found your own Freelancer group and work for the Liberty Forces, or leave Liberty and return to Bretonia, if this is your wish. Any of this, is better than going rogue, and becoming, what you used to fight.
Think of this and reconsider what you really want. Everyone is looking for a place to fit in, in his or her life, so did I, and may do again. Don't lose yourself in anger, frustration and don't let it grow to hate, since hate will poison and corrupt your heart and mind. A hateful life is no good life.
[img float=left]http://i.imgur.com/vouN9FI.jpg?4[/img] Communication channel opened...[img float=right]http://i.imgur.com/WUl2ymH.png?1[/img] Encryption:Standard Location:Buffalo Base, New York ID:Lauren Shaw Subject:Communications
Captain Armada,
I know you area 5th Fleet officer, you are also a rank of Captain. You say you have experienced both, good and bad situations within the 5th since you joining. But yes new members, old members, high ranking officers will eventually leave or be killed fighting for what they believe. Yet I was forced to leave by the attitude towards me, the respect, trust, honor and pride. Well there was non of this. I was fighting for what I believed in and was not praised about it once. I was promised a medal for what I achieved and have I received such medal? No, no I haven't.
O'Neill is one to pick pilots to be close with him in his personal life also. He will not see you as 5th Navy pilots, he will see you as a friends and I was not a friend. I was just some cadet, recruit who would have never got the respect that I deserved. You talk about there being no one to train new pilots, so if this is the case surely there should be talks of appointing a new officer to this or just not accept anyone into training school.
You say I have a talent to survive and composure in the eye of the storm. You say all these things about me as a human, as a warrior, as a shell shock. I will always look at a battle and will fight for what I believe in. If I am out numbered ten to one, I will fight or I will get to a secure location. But I will not let the enemy go. That is the thing will me, if I see a situation even if I am out numbered I will go in. Some people say this is stupidity, some people would say its brave. I see it as apart of the job I have applied for.
Saying that I should be promoted to Lieutenant Commander, you have not been the first person to say this to me. I have heard it once or twice before, but as far as I was aware. I was only an Ensign, I was not given this Lieutenant Rank that some officers talk about.
Why turning to the complete opposite and become something you may dislike and used to fight? I did not chose this, I was forced to do this.
You wish to protect the innocent, not harm them, don't you? Of course I wish to protect and not harm the innocent people, but if I am forced to then of course I will cause destruction to there ships so they are not usable and then take them to the nearest station. But I do not wish to make the death toll any higher.
You wish to serve the law and the order, instead of breaking both, don't you? I do wish this but it seems the 5th have made there mind up and made me "Criminal" labelled.
You wish to live a life worth to live, a life you can be proud of and be satisfied with. A life you can look back at, at the end of your days, and leave this world in peace, with a smile, don't you? Everyone wishes to live a life worth living, my life is not worth living right now. But my options are not open at all.
You ask me what options you have left? Yes i do?
You think I would be welcomed with open arms to the Primary Fleet? You think they would allow that. What Bounty Hunter Group or Freelancer group are there in and around Liberty?
Communication channel opened... Encryption:Standard Origin: California, Battleship Yukon ID: Captain John Armada Subject: Not the best idea...
Greetings Lauren,
it wasn't really the best idea to move into a fight between Liberty Forces and the Outcasts. A chance to speak to the Liberty Navy Primary Fleet, should have done with their Fleet Admiral, somewhere away from tradelanes and other Liberty Navy ships.
Shooting and destroying Liberty Forces ships, of course didn't help your current situation either, even if it was selfdefence, because you were attacked. I told them all to cease fire on you, but nobody listened. It seems there is no desire to talk with you , even though you would actually deserve the chance. I can't understand why people keep being ignorant, not offering a hand to grab and be saved from misery. Instead they kicked the fingers of your hand, that held upon the last edge to return to the lawful life.
It is a pity, that his has to be this way. Unfortunately, Liberty Navy Primary Fleet orders overrule mine, and so I can't even order anyone to not fire at you. Anyways, you -NEED- to contact Fleet Admiral Alan Jones and sort things out, if you want this madness to end. You don't deserve this treatment, you haven't murdered anyone. A second chance should be offered.
I hope that you are still believing in the possibility to return, and I hope that the Fleet Admiral will be offering you this chance.