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Subject: Releasing steam
I don't have anything else to say other than what I vented about to Vex.
I will admit that a large part of me really wants to confront my CO.. mainly because I've just had it and have not a single damn in the world to give anymore. They can court martial me, they can throw me out an airlock.. I'll probably just end up spitting in their faces while they do so...
I mean.. I want to be with Mark.. but without him here by my side and stuck with nuggets.. I... [WARNING, FAULT DETECTED, BUFFER OVERFLOW DETECTED BUT HAL DID NOT DECLARE FAULT!] I...
Audible crying is heard before the feed glitches out.
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[27.04.2018 03:09:44] REC AUDIO LOG dev/sda0/shiplog/apmaudrec/source/270118030944Z-001.alg"
[27.04.2018 03:09:44] COMSYS TERM LOCAL
[27.04.2018 03:09:44] CV-Beshmet: V: Black hair tells me bride, but I don't know who's who in Auxesia anymore.
[27.04.2018 03:10:12] A/)-Mugunghwa: *She removes her helmet.* Annyeonghaseyo, Vex. Been a while. *she smiles.*
[27.04.2018 03:10:22] CV-Beshmet: V: Indeed.
[27.04.2018 03:10:49] A/)-Mugunghwa: All going well with you and Kryn?
[27.04.2018 03:11:06] CV-Beshmet: V: Mhm. All's good.
[27.04.2018 03:11:31] A/)-Mugunghwa: That's good. *sigh* to tell you the truth.. I'm not too peachy myself.
[27.04.2018 03:11:47] A/)-Mugunghwa: I have to keep a fake smile around the Auxesians because of my presence in their ranks.
[27.04.2018 03:12:00] CV-Beshmet: V: What's got you down?
[27.04.2018 03:12:28] A/)-Mugunghwa: I didn't join of my own volition. the Harpies' CO, Boss, decided to have us Join Aux and she didn't even ask for my opinion the
[27.04.2018 03:12:30] A/)-Mugunghwa: matter.
[27.04.2018 03:12:54] A/)-Mugunghwa: I just.. I feel torn, y'know?
[27.04.2018 03:13:07] CV-Beshmet: V: I feel ya.
[27.04.2018 03:13:16] A/)-Mugunghwa: And hell, from what Honya's been writing from home on the Seraphine, Hanamura's the same.
[27.04.2018 03:13:55] A/)-Blaze: F: Weapons of mass destruction.
[27.04.2018 03:13:58] A/)-Star.Sentinel: Disabled it for a week.
[27.04.2018 03:14:15] A/)-Mugunghwa: Hell, we were in the middle of a tasking when I had to leave.
[27.04.2018 03:14:47] A/)-Mugunghwa: We were hunting down Ezrael Vertiga, he went missing and Hanamura said that one of his friends is worried about him.
[27.04.2018 03:15:01] A/)-Mugunghwa: Especially since he was last seen dealing with Cultists in 11.
[27.04.2018 03:15:17] CV-Beshmet: V: Yeah.. heard about that.
[27.04.2018 03:15:28] A/)-Mugunghwa: Apparently he jumped out in battle and he's been gone ever since.
[27.04.2018 03:15:56] A/)-Mugunghwa: Hence why it's not a case of "oh, just go to Klaksvik and see Hanamura."
[27.04.2018 03:16:15] A/)-Mugunghwa: She's all the way in S-19, with most of the crew, and what few drones she was able to get her hands on, searching for him.
[27.04.2018 03:16:45] A/)-Mugunghwa: And the crew isn't much - It's 7-8 people, Hanamura included, and most of the time, Honya's hooked up to the ship to keep it
[27.04.2018 03:16:46] A/)-Mugunghwa: running.
[27.04.2018 03:16:59] A/)-Mugunghwa: And I mean, literally, wires coming out of her back.
[27.04.2018 03:17:27] A/)-Mugunghwa: She's a general purpose AI, so that crap isn't good for her health.
[27.04.2018 03:17:33] CV-Beshmet: V: Right.
[27.04.2018 03:18:30] A/)-Mugunghwa: And meanwhile, I'm stuck as an Initiate, not even part of the Harpies yet, because I, quote one guy, "Needed to be shown the
[27.04.2018 03:19:07] A/)-Mugunghwa: ropes." Mother**ker, I visited your goddamn planet, I talked with the HEAD OF AUXESIA HIMSELF, F**KMOTHERING LEVIATHAN!
[27.04.2018 03:19:33] A/)-Mugunghwa: I'VE WORKED WITH YOU GUYS BEFORE JOINING - I THINK I KNOW WHAT IT MEANS TO WORK WITH AUXESIA!
[27.04.2018 03:19:39] A/)-Mugunghwa: ...
[27.04.2018 03:19:41] A/)-Mugunghwa: Sorry.
[27.04.2018 03:19:44] A/)-Mugunghwa: Just needed to vent.
[27.04.2018 03:19:51] CV-Beshmet: V: No problem. I do it sometimes.
[27.04.2018 03:20:01] CV-Beshmet: V: I just try to keep it contained to my bridge.
[27.04.2018 03:20:20] A/)-Mugunghwa: If I were to leave and go back to help Hanamura, Blaze over there would have my head.
[27.04.2018 03:21:06] A/)-Mugunghwa: I'd be likely kicked out, and knowing Seline, she wouldn't even stand up for me, because it'd risk her being able to kiss ass..
[27.04.2018 03:21:14] A/)-Mugunghwa: to the guys upstairs in Naxos.
[27.04.2018 03:21:28] CV-Beshmet: V: Right..
[27.04.2018 03:21:41] A/)-Mugunghwa: So I'd be kicked out, away from Mark for god knows how long, and I'd be as much of a emotional wreck as I am now.
[27.04.2018 03:22:30] A/)-Mugunghwa: That and.. I just feel like I don't belong here.
[27.04.2018 03:22:38] A/)-Mugunghwa: Like the Harpies don't belong here.
[27.04.2018 03:22:45] A/)-Mugunghwa: It's too strict. Too.. formal.
[27.04.2018 03:22:59] A/)-Mugunghwa: But, I have to suck it up because of Mark.
[27.04.2018 03:23:11] CV-Beshmet: V: Try to work with it.. things can always change.
[27.04.2018 03:23:12] A/)-Mugunghwa: That and I don't want to bring disgrace on Honya.
[27.04.2018 03:23:28] A/)-Mugunghwa: Did you know Leviathan offered to be her personal mentor?
[27.04.2018 03:24:58] CV-Beshmet: V: Is that such a bad thing?
[27.04.2018 03:25:08] SYS FAIL - A.D.M.I.N.S. OVERRIDE
[27.04.2018 03:25:08] COMSYS TERM LOCAL
[27.04.2018 03:25:16] A/)-Mugunghwa: Goddamn powerplant died.
[27.04.2018 03:25:24] CV-Beshmet: V: Noticed.
[27.04.2018 03:25:40] CV-Beshmet: V: Everything's back up, I suppose?
[27.04.2018 03:25:42] A/)-Mugunghwa: But yeah - he actually offered it. We were at the dinner table on Ismara and he actually offered it to her.
[27.04.2018 03:25:44] A/)-Mugunghwa: yeah.
[27.04.2018 03:26:06] A/)-Mugunghwa: Said something about "A.D.M.I.N. Override", whatever that crap is.
[27.04.2018 03:26:15] A/)-Mugunghwa: Anywho.
[27.04.2018 03:26:57] A/)-Mugunghwa: Thanks for being here, Vex. It means a lot to me that there's at least someone from home here. Not to mention someone who will
[27.04.2018 03:27:00] A/)-Mugunghwa: put up with my ranting.
[27.04.2018 03:27:35] CV-Beshmet: V: Like I said, it's no issue. I get what it feels like being in waters I don't know.
[27.04.2018 03:27:35] COMSYS LOCAL INIT OK
[27.04.2018 03:27:51] Naiad: Hopefully. But I can't be sure.
[27.04.2018 03:28:03] A/)-Star.Sentinel: We aren't concerned with petty nuances such as origin or past records.
[27.04.2018 03:28:10] A/)-Blaze: F: Or even species.
[27.04.2018 03:28:17] A/)-Blake: If you're going down this route you can't be sure of anything, ever-
[27.04.2018 03:28:18] A/)-Blaze: F: We have numerous AI as proud Auxesians.
[27.04.2018 03:28:26] A/)-Mugunghwa: Yeah, what with Golly wanting your head and leaving
[27.04.2018 03:28:33] A/)-Mugunghwa: Crud, wrong net.
[27.04.2018 03:28:41] A/)-Mugunghwa: *raises her hand* Like me.
[27.04.2018 03:28:41] A/)-Blake: Uh-huh
[27.04.2018 03:28:45] A/)-Blaze: F: Ain't that awkward.
[27.04.2018 03:28:59] A/)-Mugunghwa: Permission to speak freely, sir?
[27.04.2018 03:29:31] Naiad: *She raises her eyebrows* Uh, right. Uhm. But still. The entire thing is rather confusing.
[27.04.2018 03:29:42] CV-Beshmet: V: Such is life.
[27.04.2018 03:29:43] Naiad: Smells of hidden agenda, if you will.
[27.04.2018 03:30:21] A/)-Mugunghwa: ... Disregard my last...
[27.04.2018 03:30:38] A/)-Blaze: F: Permission denied, for now.
[27.04.2018 03:30:55] A/)-Blaze: F: You may speak freely over private channels, however.
[27.04.2018 03:31:01] Naiad: Not like I pretend to be an expert on these things. I'm just a lone freelancer.
[27.04.2018 03:31:23] COMSYS TERM LOCAL
[27.04.2018 03:32:35] A/)-Mugunghwa: See what I mean?
[27.04.2018 03:32:47] A/)-Mugunghwa: I can't shoot the **** without my CO chewing me out.
[27.04.2018 03:33:12] A/)-Mugunghwa: At least Hanamura allowed me to retort.
[27.04.2018 03:33:27] CV-Beshmet: V: Frankly, this is why I keep the Montu independent..
[27.04.2018 03:34:03] CV-Beshmet: V: I can't stand bossy pricks, especially ones who don't know what they're doing.
[27.04.2018 03:34:16] A/)-Mugunghwa: But then again, We were just a Ex-Zoner, Two AI, a Ex-Coalitionist, and a bunch of Ex-Freeport 11 staff.
[27.04.2018 03:34:26] A/)-Mugunghwa: Seconded.
[27.04.2018 03:34:46] CV-Beshmet: V: I don't envy you, but I'm sure it'll get better.
[27.04.2018 03:34:54] A/)-Mugunghwa: If it weren't for being Aux/Harpies, I wouldn't mind just turning on him and lighting him up like a roman candle.
[27.04.2018 03:37:58] A/)-Mugunghwa: *sigh* The Moment Hanamura or whoever in God's green Gran Canaria convinces Seline to make the Harpies Independent again...
[27.04.2018 03:38:54] A/)-Mugunghwa: I'm going to drop this Auxesia Ident faster than a Nomad running to Major with Order's entire fleet behind it.
[27.04.2018 03:40:26] CV-Beshmet: V: Common saying from the military jocks I've met in Delta..
[27.04.2018 03:40:40] CV-Beshmet: V: If you hate your CO, he's probably doing his job right.
[27.04.2018 03:40:45] A/)-Mugunghwa: .. I just want things to go back to the way they were. I'd rather sit on my ass and do nothing when on the Hecate than put up
[27.04.2018 03:41:18] A/)-Mugunghwa: than put up with someone I barely give a hot **** about.
[27.04.2018 03:42:18] A/)-Mugunghwa: Hell, when I see Seline again, I'm going to deck her for putting me in this mess.
[27.04.2018 03:42:38] A/)-Mugunghwa: F*** callsigns, I'm going without a filter.
[27.04.2018 03:43:21] A/)-Mugunghwa: "Oh, we can go after Order better this way!" AND WE COULDN'T DO IT JUST BY DOING WHAT HONYA DID!?
[27.04.2018 03:44:22] SYS FAIL - A.D.M.I.N.S. OVERRIDE
[27.04.2018 03:46:09] A/)-Mugunghwa: *STATIC* - WOULD IT KILL HER TO NOT KISS A** FOR ONCE IN HER GODDAMN LIFE AND GROW A BACKBONE AND LEAD HERSELF!?
[27.04.2018 03:46:14] A/)-Star.Sentinel: This is just my rank.
[27.04.2018 03:46:22] A/)-Blaze: F: Blaze is my old callsign.
[27.04.2018 03:46:33] A/)-Mugunghwa: God.. F*** this place.
[27.04.2018 03:46:38] A/)-Blake: Same, I suppose.
[27.04.2018 03:46:50] A/)-Mugunghwa: I hope once I leave I never come back.
[27.04.2018 03:46:58] A/)-Star.Sentinel: My name is Derek under normal circumstances.
[27.04.2018 03:47:03] COMSYS TERM LOCAL
[27.04.2018 03:47:05] A/)-Mugunghwa: ...
[27.04.2018 03:47:34] A/)-Mugunghwa: What's the point of having a f**king codename if you're just going to say your legal name, you dolt?
[27.04.2018 03:48:05] CV-Beshmet: V: Except when you're not.
[27.04.2018 03:48:45] A/)-Mugunghwa: I might as well say to the nearest threat we deal with say "Hi, I'm Jae-un Song, this is *STATIC* #1 *points to Blaze*, this..
[27.04.2018 03:49:22] A/)-Blake: What kind of statement is that?
[27.04.2018 03:49:27] A/)-Mugunghwa: ... is *STATIC* #2 *points to star sentinel* and this is *STATIC* #3! *points to Blake*! We're going to *STATIC* your *STATIC* up now!
[27.04.2018 03:50:20] A/)-Mugunghwa: ... God, I never swore that much before, even back at 11..
[27.04.2018 03:50:31] A/)-Mugunghwa: *sigh* Jesus christ.
[27.04.2018 03:50:54] A/)-Mugunghwa: *sigh* Just.. screw this situation in particular.
[27.04.2018 03:51:17] CV-Beshmet: V: Just try to relax. Things tend to get worse before they get better.
[27.04.2018 03:52:40] CV-Beshmet: V: I think I'm going to set the Beshmet down before that ion storm gets here..
[27.04.2018 03:52:43] A/)-Mugunghwa: I've tried. Every time I try to, my CO manages to irk me. Hell, I think his existance in my life is enough to irk me.
[27.04.2018 03:52:59] A/)-Mugunghwa: I'm honestly contemplating whether or not to let the damn storm take me.
[27.04.2018 03:53:12] CV-Beshmet: V: Well, like I said, it gets worse before it gets better.
[27.04.2018 03:53:30] A/)-Mugunghwa: And sometimes people don't want to wait for it to get better.
[27.04.2018 03:53:49] A/)-Mugunghwa: ... Sorry. Just.. yeah.
[27.04.2018 03:54:00] A/)-Mugunghwa: I've always had a problem with emotions.
[27.04.2018 03:54:11] CV-Beshmet: V: It's only human.
[27.04.2018 03:54:28] A/)-Mugunghwa: So what may be just a moderate letdown for you or Kryn would be something that induces suicidal ideation for me.
[27.04.2018 03:54:38] A/)-Mugunghwa: I try to suppress it after that one time I actually tried to kill myself.
[27.04.2018 03:55:33] A/)-Mugunghwa: I never did tell you about that, did I?
[27.04.2018 03:55:45] CV-Beshmet: V: First time I'm hearing about it.
[27.04.2018 03:55:58] A/)-Mugunghwa: I was desperately wanting to confront that prick, Brooks, back when her and Hanamura were having that argument back in the day.
[27.04.2018 03:56:16] A/)-Mugunghwa: Hanamura denied me out right and Alexei even cut the Neural net connection to the meeting room we were in.
[27.04.2018 03:56:41] A/)-Mugunghwa: I just felt so embarrased and infuriated that I ran into the bathroom, plugged up the toilet and tried to drown myself.
[27.04.2018 03:57:04] A/)-Mugunghwa: Whereas normally someone would just be let down and that'd be the end of it.
[27.04.2018 03:57:29] A/)-Mugunghwa: It has to do with how I interpret hormonal response.
[27.04.2018 03:58:02] A/)-Mugunghwa: Like - Cortisol spiked to my highest point that day - the Hormone responsible for depression.
[27.04.2018 03:58:15] A/)-Mugunghwa: Err, low, rather.
[27.04.2018 03:58:23] CV-Beshmet: V: I see..
[27.04.2018 03:58:31] A/)-Mugunghwa: Like, it was at 0.003ml per 50ml of blood.
[27.04.2018 03:58:53] A/)-Mugunghwa: right now I'm at 0.050.
[27.04.2018 03:59:01] A/)-Mugunghwa: Anywho.. I'll be heading in.
[27.04.2018 03:59:07] CV-Beshmet: V: Aye. Me too.
[27.04.2018 03:59:08] COMSYS LOCAL INIT OK
[27.04.2018 03:59:10] A/)-Mugunghwa: thanks for talking to me Vex. You're a good friend.
[27.04.2018 03:59:15] Naiad: That's sad. You just accepted that?
[27.04.2018 03:59:22] CV-Beshmet: V: Anytime.
[27.04.2018 03:59:24] A/)-Mugunghwa: I'm heading in.
[27.04.2018 03:59:39] A/)-Mugunghwa: *murmurs inaudibly*
[END FEED]
[//Writer's note - The term nugget is a military term used most often in air forces pertaining to rookies.]