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He was still a ball of nerves. He even got up and looked outside the cabin door to make sure no one was within earshot. He then walked over to the window where he nervously paced with his hands in front of him. He never fidgeted but his fingers were at the moment.
"How could I even get there?" he asked aloud. "If one person so much as sees a Med Force ship there, word will get out quick." His nerves continued to get the better of him. "I would need labs and help to figure this out. How would I get all that and from where? As it is, I have so little to go on about how to address this."
For the moment, his nerves didn't allow him to address her as the woman he loved but by her name and even profession and he was pretty unraveled.
"Isabella, I can appreciate your assurances but the Vagrants....the Nomads....they have developed a rep for their mental brutality. I have seen first hand what happens to someone who has their brain scrambled by them." He gave a nervous snort, "Trust me, it is not pretty. Do forgive me if I do not have a lot of faith in my protection."
He turned to the window trying to collect himself. He did not want to say no but yes was hard to find. "I also do not like the idea of being around beings that can read my mind without me knowing and getting what they want from it."
He sighed. He was thinking of nothing else but about the bad things that could happen and it had a solid grip on him.
Isa sees how Scared John is because of that Proposal and she wishes instantly she would have never brought the Topic to the Table. She knew that John would be worried but this was almost like Panic and she felt guilty about it. She Decided to Ignore his Question about the Transport to this Hidden Colony for now and Simply Calm him down. She would stand up after him and Walk over to the Window where he would Stand, she would lay her arms around him from behind and Hold him close to her.
Isabella: No one will Harm you, John, I have some of the abilities that the Nomads have and I could do the same to you, but I don't do it. Plus all that Horror Storys that you heard about them were done by the K´hara and not the Vargants. The Vargants try to find a way to Coexist with Humanity, they have learned that the Genocidal approach of the K´hara is not Possible.
She was so worried about him and her Voice almost Broke as she knew that she was Responsible for all the Fear that John had Right now. She didn't notice that he Spoke differently to her than usual as she only Cared for him and wanted to Calm him and help him come back to her. Isa would let her hands wander up and down on his flanks as she tried to calm him like this, the fact that she was a bit smaller than him didn't really help in this Situation. She was
Isabella: I will not ask it again John, if this scares you so much then I won't force you to help me. But do you really think that Admete and I would lead you into a Trap? That we would harm the man that we Love with all our Hearts and Minds? Do you really think that Low of me, and see me as one of those Monsters?
Isa was near to Crying as she did not want the man that she loved to fear her. She held back her tears and held him tight as she didn't know what else she could do right now. She deeply regretted to ever asking him.
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For the moment, he continued looking out in thought. He started to feel a little more at ease with her caring. This was the woman he had fallen for and it was very much needed. There was silence. It was a minute or two that seemed like an eternity. Finally, he just softly answered, "I will do it. I have a trust with Admete."
He then stepped away in thought. "I cannot fly a Med Force ship there. We will need to figure out how I get there," he gently stated.
He then turned back to her. "Any ideas on how we can do this?"
Isa would stand there like a heap of misery. She still felt Responsible for the Fear that John had before. But she tried to stand strong for him. She would breathe Trough and calm herself before she awnsers.
Isabella: The Colony has Special Ships with Fake IDs and Transponders that are not affiliated with you or me. The Colony aims to be self-reliant but some things have to be imported.
She would not dare to look at him right now, then if she would do it he could see how hurt she was. Isa knew that she didn't acted out of Meanness or malice, and didn't wanted to Scare him. But something from her old Life as Sonja, Something that was deeply Burried within her made her belive that it was her fault. It was an Dangerous Belive as it had lead her down onto an Dark Path before. This Instinct to make herself Smaler and seek the Failure at herself had made her find excuses for the Abuseive behaviour that she had Sufferd in her old Life. She knew that the Situation as she was right now was not even Nearly the same, but it had threw her out of Balance. This would be something that she would have to speak about in her next Therapy Session when she herself was an Patient and not an Doctor.
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The whole thing had him on edge but he was starting to relax just a little. It was an opportunity that no one else would get. Still, he wanted to know nothing of how he got there when he finally did. He calmly told her his expectation.
"You will arrange my pick-up. Where it will be, under what conditions and so forth. I will not want to know how I get to this place and will therefore be asleep. Whether you are with me on the trip or not is up to you so long as you are at least there when I arrive." He then turned to her. "It will take me awhile to awaken when I get there as it will be a powerful sleeping formula I will take for the trip. With me will be all the gear I can carry but I will most likely need access to labs and such once there."
He then placed his hands at her hips and faced her. He could sense her being upset. "Relax, Dah'lin. I am not upset with you. If you were in my position, you would be worried too."
He kissed her on the forehead.
"Now, let us find our way to our ships as we have to get busy."
Isa calmed down a bit as he kissed her. She would cuddle at him and would try to feel his body. It would take her a bit before she had fully calmed down, then she would look up at him and into his eyes.
Isabella: I will be with you all the time and not leave you alone for one second. you don't have to bring anything with you, Just tell me what you need and we will organize it for you.
She was a bit more Released now but she was still worried, this was their first dispute as a Couple, and she felt that it was her fault. Isa would slowly pack her things and get ready to leave. But as she packed her bags she would look over to John from time to time. Isa Hoped that he would see that he would not be in danger and that she would never harm him once they arrived at the Colony. And she could feel how Admete Shared her Worries with the Mindshare and how they flooded her with love and assured her that they wouldn't harm the man who had Isa´s Heart in his hands. She kissed him one last time with all her love and all of her feelings before she left the Cabin and walked towards her ship.