Friends arent perfect. they like stupid shit and hate stuff you like. Not all friends get along.. some get along better then you do. rarely does everything line up completely rarely do you find one with the same likes, dislikes, these are best friends.. but that's not what this is about.
friends sometimes are just an name on a screen.. you laugh at their hijinks you sit with them in virtual spaces and places.
You have no one youd rather play with.. strangers are a risk. but the dicodomy is every friend was a stranger at some point.
Friends are the problem friends are the solution.. if you think yourself friendly you'd like to think you have a lot of friends.
and i mean friends.. not executors of estate and or confidants you'll tell anything.. people you like people you have fun with.
there are varying levels of intimacy with friends.. vary levels of what you'll tell them about yourself.
good friends will not burden you.. good friends know their good and are courteous. bad friends leave you with the mess bad friends leave you with questions..
so do good friends but at least they apologise before or shortly after doing it.
I have alot of disco friends.. maybe i resume too much.
I may have poo poo ed a thread expressed doubt to an idea or concept or said something negative.. but i reply rarely anyway.. its the subject of that disagreement i have issue with not you. odds are i like you enough to reply to your thread in the first place. I do that. I have to be honest to people I like.
Feels like an unpopular thing.. to be honest but. thats kinda the only point to speaking up. i mean its the internet. Its a big circus. an illusion.. all you really have is.. the relationships.. and the past of good and fun times.
well maybe the porn.
Friends covet their porn.. friends do not share their stash unless you lose yours.. because they respect you too much.
...i don't know where that came from...
Anywho. knowing so many friends that have come and gone over the years. does not mitigate or change that sense of loss. like. itll never be the same again. not after now. not ever again..
anywhere we meet again it will be a different ... universe. all together.