Hello. I'm sure between you and Raven you've sharpened every knife possible, various shapes and sizes for each one of my limbs. I tried contacting Raven about what transpired that day on one of her patrols, you can assume the conversation was fairly pointless. She was far too angry with me to understand what I was trying to say. I'm not the good man everyone seems to think I am, but I do feel guilt. So I thought I'd take the time to explain a few things to you about why I so readily betrayed your trust and divulged the information you told me in private to everyone around at the time.
Think of it like this. If you had to choose between saving Raven's life or mine, the choice would be very obvious. I don't even need you to answer that.
In my case, when it came to you and Locklear, you know what my choice would have been, just like I know what your choice would be. The man doesn't even know it, but he's family to me. I've tried to be him ever since I first heard about him during my training period. I am deeply humbled to serve alongside him everyday, and look up to him like a Son does to his Father.
I won't apologize for what I did, but I thought at the very least you deserved an explanation.
Oh, and thank you for the round of drinks again. Take care, Hunt.
I'm honestly not mad about you betraying my trust. I'm mad of the result, which caused a lot of harm - to both us and Locklear. I don't need your justifications, nor do I care about your delusions of wanting a father figure like Locklear. You hurt the people I care about, and I'll hurt you. I don't want your apology. I don't care if you live or die. I'm not going to pursue this out of revenge. I've already done what I needed to do.
Well. I expected that response. I can't say I blame you for for having a goal of hurting me. All I ask is you leave the people I call Family out of it. I might deserve any hurt coming my way, but they honestly don't. I did what I did for reasons I've told you about. I couldn't look at Locklear and lie. Any consequence and pain you have in store for me was far better than the alternative at that given time.
I'm not proud of what I did, nor did I want to hurt anyone involved. We all strive for things of emotional importance to us and make mistakes when we do, unmindful of how adversely these choices might affect others. As much as you want retribution for my actions, I feel certain in knowing you've gone down this path as well.
I didn't send you this message in hopes of forgiveness, only in hopes of you understanding why.