I guess it was just such a messed-up time. There was so much going on, you know, the whole 'first contact with an alien race' thing. There's nothing on what happened. Anywhere. What I've got I picked up from some really odd places. Or people. Or ships. But that's not the point.
I can't tell you why I'm trying to figure this out. It just doesn't feel right to forget it now. A lot of people died, on both sides. Leaving it seems like abandoning them.
I don't think I could do that.
Sorry if that's not enough of a reason. It's... It's hard to explain.