I wish everyone could know the pain I lived with during the last weeks. Something was wrong with me, and I found out what it was. I wished I never did. It all started with that mission in the Omegas, where I got lost for a few days. I had no clue, what happened in that time. I somehow lost my memories. And now, first nebulous and incomplete, I recovered the whole incident. And I think you deserve the truth.
Omega-7. Mission Hoffnungsschimmer. Our group was ambushed by the unknown force, where they destroyed the Feldwebel's vessel before he knew what was happening. Whereupon Gefreiter Tom instinctively engaged the five hostile targets. But it was hopeless. His Bergelmir got hit by an organic vessel, which seemed to be driverless. His escape pod got tractored by them right after. Being in a state of shock I weren't able to attempt to run. But they didn't harmed me at all. Instead, something was telepathically talking with me. Its words were filled with warmth and joy, and didn't noticed when I followed their group, as if a Higher Power controlled me. Being in a trance state, they brought us to a space station, which appeared to be built by humans and aliens at the same time. I can remember a large yellow sphere, which threw pulsating lights at us when we came closer. Aboard the station I fell into a comatose state and thought to be dreaming. In my dream I saw how human-looking people in Rheinwehr uniforms were putting a blue organic mass on Tom's naked body.
He was bleeding heavily out of a few wounds, he has suffered when his vessel explode. It was disgusting. Tom was conscious and he was trying to keep the creatures from getting him in contact with that small blue transparent thing which was trying to get its dark tentacles into Tom's closed mouth. He died a few minutes later due an exsanguination. Then, when one of those stranger suddendly turned around towards me, I noticed a purple glowing where their eyes should have been. He pointed at me whereon they took that alien-like thing from Tom's dead body and put it on my face. I felt a nice, warm tingling go through my body, and I just stood there, doing nothing. I tried to relax, while that alien slipped over my lips into my mouth, down my throat like liquid ice. This was the last thing I can remember. In the next moment, I found myself on the Elbich Mining Facility. And I knew nothing. My behaviour, the illness. It all must have been results of that 'procedure'. Now I know: I had an alien host inside me.
But it was too late. The bomb explosions on Karlsruhe, it was me. Better said, it was my body, controlled by an alien. Were the doctors aware of that? Was I just an experimental object for them? All I knew was that I won't survive this. I have to end this. I really have to. To save humanity. I don't know when it'll be too late, and I'll loose complete control of myself. Time does not stand still, and won't without me. When you read this letter, I won't be anymore. The sun will stop my suffering. Don't search for my Wraith, there's nothing you can do.
I'm an angel on its way home.
Natalie
P.S. Reassure my loved family that my suicide wasn't their fault.