You know what I mostly enjoy doing in Discovery? Modeling ships and little modding that i know about. Is what drives me to stay around in the mod and game. I also enjoy players flying my models in-game that I put work on.
I guess, Kahl, you need to find something that you really enjoy doing and be a part of the community and/or become part of the RP with other player characters instead on trying to get into dev related RP involvements.