Yesterday I woke up on the cold floor of my Carrier. I was there for over two weeks, trying to get the systems running. I was alone, not even Elaine was there. But then, I saw a light. It enveloped me. I have never felt as much join as I did yesterday. And today. I can't believe what happened, dearest Diary. For the first time in years.. I truly felt alive. I feel alive! I am not Cherry Blossom anymore. I am not a Herald anymore. Nor am I a seeker as.. I have found it. My destiny.
The Light is not what they want me to believe it is. Yes, it is there. And it might be part of true salvation but.. No. They manipulate still. Even those that promised to be on their side, they still manipulate and destroy. Liars. She has pulled the knife out of my back all those years ago, just to ram it back in.. deeper. My soul has been cracked. It bleeds, it screams.
Someone has listened. And I am happy for it. I have never been so happy. Naomi Kaiser is back. The true Naomi. I have been cured of my blindness. Together, we shall be undefeated. Forevermore. I don't know how many more entries I will make until I sign off. Yes, diary. You heard right. Naomi Kaiser will sooner or later sign off. But not in a bad way, no. In a wonderful way. You will see! Despite the future being unpredictable, this.. I can predict.
