I always figured I was too jaded to really feel much from losses like these. I'm not dead yet, so of course it hurt, but I was more angry than anything, after reading the message. A pointless war I don't give a single damn about has now gone and taken someone I considered a friend from me. Whatever, I gotta get ready for work.
A half hour drive is a long time to stew in your anger, and before you know it you're driving 30MPH over the limit and your eyes are burning and your kinda bad eyesight is getting worse and the road is kinda hard to see with whatever's in your eyes. Fury sort of has a funny way of turning in on itself and becoming grief without an outlet. I'm really no good at eulogies or goodbyes, but--
I uh
I didn't expect to be in his thoughts when he wrote about the possibility of being gone forever. I think that ended up being what made it hurt more as I stewed and processed the post. Not that I have any issue with the sentiment, complete opposite of that.
I suppose the years of funnies and banter with the K'hara discord just caused us to rub off on each other. He takes over leadership, and next I know I'm in high command trying to help him deal with the approximate metric assload of responsibility that comes with trying to wrangle a nomad faction, its lore, and its place in the server. Honestly he did a wonderful job smoothing things over and straightening us out before we got the unhinged inspired creativity of Godslayer at the reigns when Connor first went off to Ukraine.
Wish I talked to you a bit more before you left again. Still owe you lunch.
Godspeed brother. I'll miss you. Thanks for the unban, you can put me back in the forever box if you'd like
