And yet again, I don't know how to feel. I don't want to give ultimatums. I have my home, and I have my people to take care of, just like you have your research.
But I still can't shake the feeling that you're more in love with the far off viridian hues of the Edge than you are with me. My work, my obligations.. they're shackles. If I had the choice, I'd have thrown it all away for you.
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Are you...serious?!
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Yo...you do...don't even ask why. Just str...straight for the kill... straight for your no....non-ultimatum. La...last time yo...you talked like this you did som...something stupid.
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Well, ti...time to get a few things str...straight Lord Commander. Before you, urm... jumped to conclusions I've be...been trapped on the surface of what ma...may as well been hell in Sirius. During the shu...shuttle descent, there was a malfunction with th...the tether and we fell to th...the surface. To, ur.... make matters all the more fun the storming at...atmosphere blocked all me...meaningful communication. It ge...gets better. Yo...you should count yourself lucky you st...still have your people. I...I watched as the...they passed, one by one, to...too toxic fumes and failing ha...hazmat suits. Do I lo...love my work? Right no...now...as much as any...anyone who loves death by asphyxiation.
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Wh...whilst we're on the to...topic of shackles, yo...you're speaking just as yo...you did the last time I re...returned from near death - which ra...raises the question because yo...you are right - you did throw it all away. Th...the talk of shackles is fitting, it, urm... it was a Gallian Prison chick, right? Wi...with how you are tal...talking... if there's any...anything you should, urm... come clean as one wa...way or another, now I'm off that accursed rock, I'm go...going to find out.
Things to come clean about..? Let's see. I bottled my feelings up over and over until Raven returned from her little war in the Omicrons. I've always had a thing for her, but you knew that. You can't choose who you love, only how. So I saw her as a friend for all these years, until I ran into her at barrier gate only to have her tell me she ran into you out there in the Edge Worlds.
So I asked her out. Then I was politely informed by one of my lieutenants that she is apparently not only married to a man I hate, but also pregnant. So nothing to confess to there, except for a night of binge drinking which almost got myself and three other good Legionnaires killed because the two people I cared for in this world more than the Commonwealth had more pressing concerns than me.
So yes, I have made stupid mistakes, but they were just that Thallia, mistakes. I haven't taken a shuttle full of people into a world with a toxic, storming, communication blocking atmosphere.
If you're still coming, you know where to find me. Some of us don't have the luxury of gallivanting around the entire sector.
I...I can't be...believe what I'm hearing.
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W...we shall be ta...taking a br...break. Mo..months I spent on th...that planet, thinking and ho...hoping you would not fo...forget me - yet th...the first contact we ha...have yo...you can't see past yo...your own drunken nose, op...openly talk of pursuing oth...others as if that's fine and...and... I am n...not ok with that.
In t...the future, if yo...you want to contact me, I su...suggest you do it yourself. Wh...why yo...you thought sending Hu...Hunt to deliver a mess...message you yourself could have, urm... said... ne...nevermind.