So more than five people asked. So I figured this would be easier. I don't mind getting a little personal because the last 4 years were sort of a rollercoaster and I sort of just left things in a big hurry.
Real-life got vary intense, I had a relationship that was in the process of just falling apart... completely exploding. This means moving to relatives in the middle of nowhere, and those who remember the last time I had to do that the internet is heavily metered.
I had to get my shit put back together.
Well, it never did LOL. Turns out my inability to sleep and breathe at the same time causes permanent cardiac and neurological damage but I've had therapy and treatment.
it wasn't till some very nice community members checked up on me in 2019 did I reread a lot of my posts and RP that I was actually embarrassed.
I had good internet and I missed this place but a lot had changed. My own modest friend group.. who actually hates this place told me not to bother and so I mostly concentrated on work and myself. Then I turned 40.
Till recently, someone I didn't even know got ahold of me to come back. So for better or worse ill just say this.
I was a god damned mess. A terrible god damned mess. and I sincerely regret that. There were some interpersonal conflicts that I know didn't need to happen.
but we have a short time with life in general and our friends won't always be around and that is something I think is very precious. So I hope everyone IS ok.
I got appendicitis for my 39th birthday and it probably would have killed me if I chose to take a nap instead of getting up and get to the hospital. It can be that small of a choice that affects everything so, I want to hold on to what's good to me and the people I appreciate.
This place and you guys are one of those things so. Don't be a stranger. thank you for being here.
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