Awakening in a strange place doesn’t do you well.. Ugh my head.. My name? My name is Arianna Matthews. Or so I have decided to go by.. I wish I remembered who I really am, but I suppose that doesn’t really matter much anymore huh.. Another lost one in the space around Sirius huh? I suppose its really not too surprising. I would imagine there are many people that find themselves like this.
I am keeping this electronic log as something to remember who I am. I suppose I should say a little about what happened to me in the past huh? That sounds like a good idea.. I was in a hospital in the middle of Liberty Space. Rather strange place, crowded as heck, people everywhere. Something about an injury to my head. It hurt. It still does now that I think about it.
The woman in the image reaches up, rubbing her head slightly.
Oh well.. Anyways, I apparently was in a coma for a few years, no record of any parents, daughters, brothers, sisters, anyone. I am a nobody I suppose now. Can’t remember anything, of all things that had to happen, it had to be memory loss. Dear lord I am unlucky. Anyways, like I said.. Or think I said, I’ll be keeping this log now. Places I visit, things that happen, something for me to keep my focus on I suppose. I had credits for an Eagle. It was in a small bag, a little credits chip. I suppose I’ll be sleeping in there for the time being until I can find out something to do.
I’ll get you updated journal.. or whatever is best to call you at least. Wish me luck wandering around?
--LOG END—
--- Entry Two ---
Hey there journal thingie.. I gota think of a name for you! I’ll think about it next time I am flying around. It would sound weird if I opened every time with ‘journal thingie’
Chuckling to herself, shaking her head.
Anyways! I really got to look around Liberty! It was beautiful, I got a good look at where the Planet my hospital was on, it looked reaalllyy big. So that is what planets look like far up in the sky, I think I am going to like this! The planet was big, and a little too the right? Guess what! An equally big station! That thing was huge! I didn’t know we had the resources to build structures like that, all that metal.. I really was impressed!
When I was going through one of those.. Ahh what were they called.. Trade lanes? I stopped as there was this againHUGE ship that fascinated me! It was a beautiful thing, I got to talking with the captain. Really nice guy! He was worried that I didn’t have any weapons aboard my ship, but I explained to him that I don’t want to get any until I find a reason.. Being in a hospital, you see sooo many injuries because of fights in space, I do NOT want to do that to anyone. Good people, or Evil people. We talked a bit more, and he offered me to show me around the stars sometime. I may take him up on that offer sometime.
So far? I am really happy about what has been doing on in space. So, after that, I started heading to what my maps called.. Erm what were they called.. Bretonia! Jumpgates are really funny to watch, I could feel the acceleration even through the inertial dampeners, the space outside turned all white, I gota figure out how those work! That was really fun! Only about twenty minutes time in them too. Anyways, I made my way to Bretonia, and the space around it was all red, something having to do with the surrounding Nebula. It was really pretty, I stopped by planet New London. It was just as big as Manhattan I tell you! People running about everywhere, people have it really good huh.. I met a Judge person there too! Rather strange guy, seemed kinda formal, not that that’s a bad thing of course.
I floated around aimlessly and I sawPlanet Leeds. Oh my god that place was lit up from all the cities! So many homes, so many people.. I could not have imagined it beforehand. Space is a nice place.. Im going to keep floating around I think.
Oh my god I am really tired.. I think I am going to get some sleep for today, it was a great day. I'll update you tomorrow!
Hey there Journal thing.. Sorry, I didn’t get around to naming you yet.
The woman looks a little distraught, extremely tired almost.
Today was an interesting day, I made my way through a weird system and a station in a place called.. ‘Dublin’, there we go. Found myself in a system with a large planet called “Gran Canaria” I was instantly entrapped by the beauty of the place, I HAD to land and check it out. Well, I did just that. Set down on the planet side, pulled on some actual clothes, the flight suit is nice and all, but I miss normal clothes. Well, I went hiking I guess you can say! I would include some pictures but.. Well, I’ll get to that later.
Anyways! Things were all amazingly good! The forest, the rivers, the temperature, I set down in a clearing in the middle of nowhere really, no people, it was really quiet other than the sounds of the animals, it was great.
After a few hours of walking around, I found a nice little overlook to sit down to take a break at. The view was amazing, that’s when I suddenly had a really large pain in my head.
Reaching up and rubbing her head tiredly.
I saw fuzzy images, I couldn’t really make them out but they didn’t look pretty.. I think I saw blood in one of them? Fire? Aggh I don’t know, its all so fuzzy, I’ll have to think about it.. But do I really want to? They seemed so violent, whatever that was.. Was it what happened before I forgot everything? I don’t want to go to a world of death and destruction. Everything that I think I saw was on a planet with mountains and a forest.. Perhaps I shouldn’t be so curious, but what is my life without it? I don’t really have a purpose, I don’t have any friends, its all I have. I guess finding out who I used to be might be a good idea after all. Lets just hope there’s a lot of good memories included shall we? I’ll update you later. I think its time for me to head back to House space.
So I was doing some thinking.. It would be kinda silly to name a electronic recording library wouldn’t it? Oh well.
Another strange day, I’ve been having a headache bugging me ever since Gran Canara though. Blah, I gota pick up a few more painkillers probably. I met another really nice man, a group called.. What was it.. Commonwealth Zoners? Something like that, Robert was what he went by. He offered me a job! Sounded interested that I really didn’t like shooting things, an escort job. Scouting more like, I don’t really have the guns to escort anyone in any way. The group was great to talk with, I am glad my faith about friendly people stay strong. I haven’t met anyone bad yet, and I think that’s a wonderful thing.
Running her fingers through her hair, dislodging a few tangles.
Afterwards, I stopped back up at Tau-37 to get some rest, I am allowed to stay at the Freeport apparently, its pretty nice of them to allow me to stay the night. Well, lets just say I was not able to sleep that well. After trying for long enough, I kinda.. remembered a bit more about those fuzzy images I mentioned last time. A neighborhood on a planet was burning.. People were burning, or dead along the ground.
Arianna slowly moves her arms up and hugs herself.
It was horrible.. What the heck was that.. I don’t like memories like that, I don’t want to remember anymore.. Did I do that? Did someone else? Is that where my parents are? What the heck happened.. I’ll update you later if I remember anything else, but all in all? I am scared.. I’m not going to let that stop me though. I refuse to let some little images mess up all the fun I have been having as of late.
--End Entry--
I suppose its about time I made another entry huh.. Well, I flew around space a little more, starting to get more and more tired.. Been having some dreams, and I know for sure I am slowly starting to remember more and more about what I lost.
The girl gives the screen a sad smile.
Well, lets just say that I am not too happy with what I remembered. I guess im not really a good person huh.. That fire? I think it was me who started it.. And worse of all, I think I liked it.. I’m not going to let myself become that person again, but I keep remembering more and more.. It hurts you know? Right now, I like other people. I have only met people who are friendly and nice, but I feel a few feelings of hatred to everyone else.. Heh, I am not really sure where I fit in anymore. I suppose its probably a good thing I fly around unarmed.
Shaking her head, sighing quietly.
I suppose I should go on to a better note huh? I found that I am actually pretty good at drawing, It is something that really gives me peace. I noticed that my credits supply is starting to dwindle, I wonder what I can do for a job that doesn’t have to do with shooting something. I’ll have to take a look around. I am hanging in there, there isn’t much else that I can do with my life until I find a place for me to be within the world. Oh well, I’ll just continue floating around aimlessly until I find that something. Wish me luck?
Today I did not see coming. Well, I was flying around Bretonia, and I eventually ended up in the Cambridge system. Well, it was a while since I landed on a planet, I think it was Cambridge.. Can’t remember. Planet, system, having the same name? That sounds about right. Anyways! I headed down to the planet’s surface, landing at the Capital City, and stopped by the bar at the space-port. Haven’t really drank anything before, I was of age, why not?
Well, as I sat down, some strange guy ran in, obviously really happy about something and had a seat a few down from me. Rambling on about some work that he struck big on, people are lucky to be happy like that you know? Well granted I am pretty happy myself having not a care in the world, but that’s beside the point! Anyways, I guess I caught his attention.. I probably shouldn’t stare, rather rude of me huh.
Well, he invited me over to join him for a drink, he started talking about his job and how he stroke well on a trade deal with someone. A bit strange to start talking about your credits in a bar full of people, but whatever. Well, we kept talking, asked a few questions about myself and I kinda mentioned my position. No job, credits to live for a little longer but kinda interested in finding something to do for a living. Well, he immediately asked me if I would like to travel around with him. An escort. Seriously, this guy is a bit strange, asking the first person he meets? Well he sounded rather nice, so I agreed. We are in-route to Kusari right now, up to Honshu. Up at the Ontario system, something around there.
He has some pretty interesting things to say, he can be a flirt now and then but he doesn’t overdo it, its kinda nice to have some company of my own in space. I suppose this will work rather well. Well, I am off to sleep, I’ll update more about this tomorrow alright?
Arianna looks rather distraught, looking around the cockpit rather nervously as she begins the recording.
I.. Don’t really know what to think right now, I am just so confused.. Where.. Where do I start, alright, umm.. From the beginning of today then. The man I am traveling with as an escort. His name is Michael Johnson, nice guy.. But.. Alright, sorry. Trying to get my thoughts straight in my mind.
Taking a breath, letting it out slowly.
He told me a story. About his father. To put things simply, he told about a time where his father was in a fire, and manage to save one little girl, only to die in a hospital bed because of the burns, but the girl survived.. Alright.. It was a touching story, so naturally I was a little concerned. But as he continued talking, he said that he blamed the girl for his death ever since.. That he managed to find her, invited her to a drink, and traveled up to Kusari with her..
She reaches over and hugs herself gently as she always does when she is confused or surprised.
I didn’t understand until he told me.. The girl had no identification, no parents to be found, burnt in the fire, nothing.. So he made up a name for her.. The name happened to be Ariana Matthews. I don’t know what to do, this is too much.. Is this true? It fits what I remember, it fits everything, I don’t like it. Why am I so confused on this fact? Why do I find it so hard to accept? Is this man the son of the person who saved me in that fire? I remember the memory clearly now.. Fire, but I don’t remember it being accidental.
Holding her head in one hand
Perhaps when I am done being plagued by headaches I will remember more.. For now.. I suppose the only thing I can do is accept this fact, but it may take some work. Its hard to believe.. Perhaps when I wake up tomorrow, I need my sleep.. Good night..