Encryption: High
Sender: ---automatic identification blocked---
Sent from: planet New Berlin
To: Erich K. from Frankfurt
*Weird view of camera pointed at part of bed and floor with shadow silhouette of person appears, shortly after familiar woman voice starts speaking with obvious signs of inebriation and without greeting, making impression it is some kind of conversation which is already in progress*
I really, really hope you are proud of yourself, Erich. You should be. Your absolutely unique ability to make me feel quilty for who I am and what I do almost every time we meet is unbelievable. I think we should stay with hugging and not speaking much in future. But now I decided to share with you what I feel like now...because I don´t think it´s fair I´m here feeling terrible alone because of you and you even don´t know it.
*sound of few gulps and some liquid moving in a bottle*
So, do you want to know how I feel now? I will tell you. I feel almost like it´s me who is responsible for Zwickau. That I was there, murdering innocent people. You are becoming to be very succesful in ruining my feeling that I´m doing something good. Despite I was in past risking my life fighting that creature Rorry alone just to save attacked trader...despite I arrested slaver who was doing his disgusting business and saved those people from their terrible future...despite protecting people from bloodthirsty Hessians and Corsairs, not speaking about that *static* Wilde agents...despite all of this, thanks to you, I feel I´m the one who is the bad person here because I serve devil himself, right?
*another sound of few gulps and some liquid moving in a bottle*
You know what I hate on you also? Why you can´t be some brainwashed stupid Hessian with his stupid propaganda? Nein, nein, nein, you must say things from which most of them are so true that I can´t in any way deny or contest because they are so *static* true.
*silence appears for few moments*
Maybe you think your life is hard out there...maybe it really is...but if you think we live here our magnificent lifes then I can tell some of us not. It is not that easy and nice that you probably think. I´m trying to make good things and avoid the bad ones. Protect good people and punish the bad ones. Unlike you, I have to make compromises to be able to continue and still not lose my soul by helping that so called devil. And you are seriously giving me hard times in this. Despite you are not responsbile for those ordinary traders who feeds their families. Will you protect them instead of me if I will stop serving that devil as you accuse me?
*silence only with breath which sounds as from crying person can be heard and voice changes to more silent*
I don´t know if I can continue like this. How I became the bad one here? *static*! Why are you doing this to me? How did I deserve it? I even tried to help you but now blame for wrongdoings in Rheinland is on my shoulders? That is not fair. What you actually want me to do, Erich, hm? That instead of pirates, smugglers, slavers or Wilde ships I should start shooting soldiers and other polize officers? Is this really what right? I thought I know what is right and how to do it, but because of you, I´m losing that feeling. Danke for that. Allying Libertonians againt Rheinlanders in our home, and Hessians of course, just to get revenge on military is right...and protecting and helping people while wearing polizei uniform is wrong?
*another sound of few gulps and some liquid moving in a bottle*
Earlier today, as you said yourself, you came to send message, to avenge Zwickau. I hope you are satisfied with the result...
*after few moments of silence message ends*
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Do you remember when I told you, many months ago, that you will at some point need to come to a genuine decision regarding your standing in the Second Popular Revolution?
Perhaps it will soon be time to consider that fully. As for what you choose, I cannot force anything one way or the other. You can tune in to the state-sanctioned NeuralNet channels to re-affirm your present loyalties. You can strike out and seek new ones.
Or you can continue with the course you have set out for yourself, which doesn't appear to be... Wearing well on your feelings.
No-one is neglecting your prior, noble achievements in the Federals. And I personally thank you for the help you've fostered for us, and myself directly. You're simply learning the harsh truth of the Federal Republic; that your deeds are not as important as your wealth and standing.
What happened yesterday had to happen. As I've explained to you multiple times, our goal has remained static and unchanging for more than a century. We will not compromise with villains, we will not accept "amnesty" as a pseudo-victory and become a part of the same broken machine.
Nein. The entire malevolent construct of the Federal Republic that we, the Bundschuh Party created; it must be razed and made anew.
It would be as simple as forcing the Kanzler, the Bundestag, and the puppeteers in Republican, Kruger, Daumann et al. to step down from their tyranny and genuinely comply with a multiparty democratic republic with strictly-adhered-to worker's rights standards.
But you and I both know that this will never happen; not until the human shields in both the Rheinswehr and - ja - the Bundespolizei step aside.
As I mentioned, it seems you're only now learning that morality gets one nowhere in Rheinland... At least, if one expects "gain". I apologize that the lesson had to be so harsh. I pray it is not as harsh as the hundreds of obituaries I've had to sign as a result of the Zwickau Massacre.
I'd like to close by saying that I genuinely respect your moral code, even if tarnished by its allegiance.
TEXT MESSAGE ONLY!
Encryption: Very High
Sender: ---name identification blocked---
Sent: ---location position blocked---
To: Erich K. from Frankfurt
Erich, first of all, I´m sorry for the emotion outburst I made, I really should have kept my communicator out of my hands when I was in such a...not best condition so to say.
Small sober explanation is that I felt like that because I felt angry at you for what you did - and partially I still am. But in the same time it was not possible to avoid fact that your action was result of another wrongdoings which others did and it´s really hard to blame you fully then. Albeit you should really think before you start supporting Liberty intruders deep inside Rheinland. Do you really think this will bring more supporters from Rheinland citizens to your cause? I have serious doubts. You will look more like a traitor for lot of ordinary people.
Anyway, speaking about me, to be honest I feel more and more caught between a rock and a hard place. It becomes really hard to deal with my situation...my position... But I have to say one thing.
I´m leaving polizei ranks, will you accept me into Vereinigte Widerstandsarmee?
Erich, if you are expecting that I will say this, then I must disappoint you. This option really isn´t on the table now. And I doubt it will be in near future. Or probably ever.
Honestly, do you really live in so simple world, where everything is black or white, people are only friends or enemies and only way how to change things is revolution with not low amount of casualties? Because you seem to think this way. You forget there are people, actually lot of them, which are somewhere in between or even around the middle point.
Also, it seems you are still repeating the same mistake in your judgment about me, despite my actions which could show you something about me. But if you didn´t understand it so far, I have to to say it directly: Stop thinking that my allegiance belongs to the Kanzler. Or current political system as a whole. It doesn´t. And actually never did. But that also doesn´t mean I´m going to join your ranks instantly.
As I said, believe it or not, there is position in between these two edges. Somebody has to protect ordinary people while you are working on your revolution and fight for it. We both know your organization currently can´t do this. This is position where I´m trying to be, despite it is hard sometimes. I hope you understand.
Take care.
L.
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