Listening to Izumi was intoxicating, as if it just fed her need to mutilate somebody. But it still had another effect on her.
Yuuko looks back at her and notices the difference in her eyes, almost immediately. She sighs of dissapointment and her eyes go back to looking more serious, more than they were before. Though she is hiding her intent for killing something.
"Even though I would like to get along, probably more than you... I suppose you're still lacking the feeling you made me lose after you left all those years back... a shame, really."
Yuuko starts to move towards the door they just came in from, not going quite next to it, but leaning against the wall.
"One chance Izumi.
What do you really feel about me? Tell me."
In that little instant, she felt regret over what she was going to say next.
"Am I really a sister to you? Or just some weirdo whom your parents adopted to your family?
Her expression seemed to be full of anger and hatred mixed along with her killing intent stuck in her head. Whether Izumi knew what for, Yuuko was not pleased. Not one single bit.
The so-called "true feelings" Izumi uttered to her, had her teeth clenched together out of full blown anger after hearing what she said afterwards. Meanwhile she whispers something to herself.
"So she can't choose between being a maniac or the "sister" she was back then..."
She sighs and thinks to herself for another minute. Goes to the middle of the room, looks at Izumi, and grabs something that was hidden in her clothing. Revealing a knife that she starts pointing at her own throat.
"I guess you're not giving me much choice... I didn't even want to use this if possible... but I guess the odds are against me. Sadly."
She stands still firmly. Not moving one inch.
"Thing is... I don't have much to live for. The only thing I lived for was the life I had back at home... that old home. Now probably neglected and forgotten. Heck.. at this point I bet you wouldn't even care if I dissapeared. Though if you did, it would be quite unlucky if this would pierce my skin."
Her resolution was unwavering. If given a chance, she would die right in that instant. But it seemed the thought of the two being together was holding her back from doing it immediately.
Hearing all those words, despite all that had happened earlier, her hand started to tremble. She couldn't do it, not now anyway.
"Ruin.. your fun, you say? I would haunt you? Your words make me think you're selfish.. but then you offer a hug?"
Her voice started sounding like that of someone afraid or frail. And almost immediately afterwards she threw the knife away in a corner and dropped on her knees.
"What good would it do to point that thing at you anyway..?
I don't even know what to do anymore.."
As she put both of her hands on her head, her whole body started to shiver by a small amount. Enough to be noticeable anyway.
"I can't stand it... I feel like I'm just about to lose myself as if I'm traversing some damn infinite tunnel with no bloody end.."
Hearing the words just come out, she looks up to her, surprised, for a few seconds then lowers her head. While putting an arm over her eyes. Hiding an emotion she didn't want people to see. Even though at this point only Izumi would know why. As the only thing that was audible, was slight sobbing.
Yuuko being surprised at even her own actions, she is barely able to say anything.
"Wh.. why am I.. am I.. c-..crying?"
She isn't able to do much at all, other than sob. As her own feelings seem to be a bit hard to handle, since the same feelings she is experiencing were the same ones she lost years ago.
After being able to calm down, one of the sentences Izumi said ran through her mind like a lightning bolt.
"I was sure this conversation would lead to my doom.."
She immediately panicked and nuzzled up against her. Fearing that something might happen even though she seemed to be back to "normal". Her voice now reduced to slight whimpering.
"Just.. let me be like this for a moment.. please."
It seemed unlikely for her to let go for the moment, having a tight grip around Izumi as she had nestled up against her.