Ishikawa Hideaki; Neuralnet civilian transmission; Stuttgart system

[Yaoquizque]

Konnichi-wa, Hideaki.

I met a member of the Naval Forces yesterday. She gave me some quite disturbing news about you. Something about a depression and you almost never leaving your office on Battleship Sado.
Around seven month ago, I paid that Archangels Fighter Club group to deliver you something for valentine day. You never replied. Why?

This starts to worry me. You did not start to drink again, right? You promised.
Talk to me.

Sanada Junko.

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[Stuffz]

Junko,

Talk to me?
That is what you tell me? That is what I'm told by the one who left without a word?
I know nothing about such a message, but it seems that Freelancer group has contacted me. Naturally, I did not give them any attention.
Maybe instead of using an untrustworthy messenger you should have come yourself.

If you really and honestly want to talk, you know where to find me.

Ishikawa Hideaki

[Yaoquizque]

Alright, someone is pissed.

I remember very well leaving a letter on your bed to tell you I'd be out for a short while. You conveniently didn't bother to read that letter as well? Do you even care?

Did it that way because I knew it would just be too hard to say good bye to you face to face. You'd have convinced me to stay and I was certain it was wiser to leave for a while. Safer for your family. Did you want them to lose their business or worse... Their reputation? It could have happened, Mr. Stupid. It's not smart to under estimate my father and the shame he believes I brought upon the oh so wonderful Sanada House. He wants to make me pay for the past, and now I have a stupid idiot I love who is too dumb to understand the sacrifice I made to protect him.

Great. Now I am pissed.

Why do you think I used that shady group to send you a message?
I mean.. I don't even know what crossed your mind. Do you think I left because I didn't like you or something ridiculous like that?

And now I call you because I'm worried and you... Never-mind. Whatever.
You're the biggest Idiot I ever met. Have a good one, Admiral stupid.

Sanada Junko.

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[Stuffz]

Do you honestly think I didn't read that letter? About you being gone for a short while?
That was a year ago. And not a single message from you all this time.

The only one being scared of your father is you. You've allowed him to stand between us and that's why all of this has happened.
And he didn't even have to lift a finger.

You can try to run away forever, as you have done so far, but I doubt even you believe that this will improve anything.
Do you not think it's time to confront him? I offered you my help before, and I'm still offering it now.
Think about it.

Ishikawa Hideaki

[Yaoquizque]

You're right. It's been too long.

I honestly thought it wouldn't take that long but I faced some... Difficulties along the way. Did a few things that made some people mad. Had to lay low for a while. If you think I spent all these months taking sunbaths on Curacao like we did once, you are gravely mistaken.

Would have called you in the first months if I didn't have all these funding issues... Then I had to focus on more critical things, like not dying for example. Still, I guess I owe you an apology. Sorry.
You know this is not easy for me. Never was. I'm not good at this.. Feelings.

Still, I have to note you did not try to contact me either, you know... And it's not like I was not reachable. I left with that Marauder after all. NeuralNet nodes didn't change.

About Father, I can understand your take on this. But it's very difficult. Hell... You could ask me to attack a patrol of Outcasts alone, I would gladly do it, without any kind of apprehension. But this? I have to admit it... I'm afraid. He scares me.
I know I disappointed him and maybe I came to hate myself for this, I... Whatever.

I'm sorry, Hideaki. I don't know if I have this in me... If I have the courage to do this. Maybe I will one day. But not today...

If you feel like it, tell me when you will have a permission so that we can meet. I can find a way to reach the Barrier, Freeport 10 or Ames.

Sanada Junko.

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