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Cherry Blossom · (This post was last modified: 04-25-2021, 10:54 PM by Cherry Blossom.)

Log Entry: #1
25.04.828 AS

Hello future me, I guess. That is the first time I am writing a diary, so I apologize in advance if I am doing something wrong. I am sure the future-Cherry will feel pretty embarrassed about this since I know her well enough. And again, I could not stop stuttering while speaking with others, such an embarrassment. Nineteen and I can't even speak normally. Please, future me, change!

Today was a pretty interesting day. My second day in space, and I already went on an adventure. I was escorting a convoy from Pennsylvania to the so-called Sigma-59 system, can you believe that? The first time I left Pennsylvania and New York! At first, I didn't want to join them. I didn't want to be a burden but the captain of the ugly-looking mining ship and a guy called Caz, who was very friendly by the way, changed my mind pretty fast! He also had this weird co-pilot Buck with him. A silent one but he was friendly too! I wanted to see more and not only those two systems but... you know me future-Cherry, right? Of course, you do. I was scared at first, especially when they spoke about possible attacks of pirates or terrorists. I even learned that it is not a good idea to tell a Xeno that I am a Rheinlander! I hope I remember that next time I see one. Then they mentioned Kepler. I never was there myself, as you know, but I heard things about the system in the news, Dark Matter storms all over the place. I don't know what those are, but they sound pretty scary. But I have to say... Kusari is such a beautiful place. I've never seen so many different colors merging, creating a colorful symphony. However! There were some creepy parts too. The nebulas on the way were kind of creepy and dark, with sudden lightning appearing around the ship. I was scared at first but then I remembered that I was in such good company, that I didn't need to be afraid of anything.

However, Future-Cherry, the best part comes now! Sigma-59 is probably the most stunning system I've ever seen. I mean, I've not seen many in my life yet, but it's likely the most beautiful one so far. The massive class-B star in the middle of the system, flooding everything in a warm, soft blue-white light. It was breathtaking. What else was breathtaking was the fact that we did not get engaged! There were neither pirates nor pesky terrorists around that tried to rob us. Such a relief that was. I was kind of sad when we left Kusari, even waved goodbye to it! I hope I will visit it again one day, yes, I do hope.

We arrived safely in New York at Planet Pittsburgh, that old, smelly ball of dirt. Urgh, even thinking about it, I have the urgent need to vomit all over the console. But even the end was fun! We took a group picture at the end! I even got paid! Twenty-million credits for just flying around and exploring systems I never was before! I would never be able to earn so much money planetside. I am happy that I decided to leave the nest. It was the best decision I ever made in my life. I will attach the black box recordings at the end!

But the best part comes now, Future-Cherry. The woman who was piloting that ugly mining ship offered me a job! Can you believe that? Me! Mom and Dad would be proud of me, I am pretty sure about that. Wherever you two are... I hope you miss me just as much as I miss you. I love you, and I will always love you.

Black Box - Warning: Very long!

Cherry Blossom · 04-30-2021, 12:06 AM,

Log Entry: #2
29.04.828 AS

Hey, it is me again, my diary! I am sorry for not writing earlier, but I just had no time! Future-Cherry, if you are reading this, I hope you are still as happy as I am now. Jaina is such a wonderful, caring person. Without hesitation, she took me in and cared for me. She didn't even think about herself when she did. I owe her so much after such little time. If you ever read this, Jaina, I thank you from the deepest parts of my heart. I really, really do.

Other than that, I've met Caz and Buck again! Can you believe that? They suddenly appeared in front of Jaina's station! We were talking about my dreams and such, you know? The dream of owning a carrier in the future. Maybe you already have one when you read this, Future-Cherry! When I told them that my ship has an experimental shield installed, according to the mechanics on the station, they suddenly got worried, Jaina too! But I think it is safe, they at least told me it is safe to use, and I didn't blow up yet. I hope that they are right, I don't want to blow myself up because the shield malfunctions.

However, Caz was kind of rude. He called me a kid because I am nineteen and a 'greenhorn spacer', whatever that means. I told him I am not a kid, but he doesn't believe me. He also said that one of his friends, who worked for Deep Space Engineering, died because his constructor craft got squished between two Liners. I feel sorry for his friend and his loss. I hope he is doing alright. Another reason why I would never want to work for Deep Space Engineering, urgh. Buck fell asleep while we were talking and drooled on the console, which was quite funny. I could never fall asleep while piloting a ship. In his defense, he wasn't piloting, Caz was, but it was still kind of cute and funny!

After a while of talking, a Zoner Transport appeared from the Tradelane. The Pilot didn't respond at all and crashed into the nearest planet. Caz said he or she will be alright. I just hope he is right on that because I don't want to see someone dying while I was floating there in space.

The worst part comes now, Future-Cherry. After the disaster with the Zoner Transport and Caz docking at the station to call it a night, a Junker appeared. That person was kind of rude since he ignored everything I said. Jaina didn't seem to like him either. I didn't understand much about what they said. They spoke about constructions and ships. All I know is that the ship of the junker was kind of ugly. I could never pilot such a thing. Causes me to shiver, urgh. After a while, we just started to call it a day and docked too. Now I am waiting for Jaina to tell me about my first job for Bristol Constructions. I am pretty nervous and can't wait till I finally have my first job! And with that, I will end my entry! Love you, Future-Cherry!

Black Box

Cherry Blossom · (This post was last modified: 07-08-2021, 12:39 AM by Cherry Blossom.)

Log Entry: #3
07/08.07.828 AS

Hey, I am sorry for the long break but there wasn't much interesting going on. I was stuck on Cleveland for most of the time, as you know future-cherry. I was casually transporting some Helium from Cleveland to Okinawa when I met a Blood Dragon in Honshu! For the first time, I've met a Blood Dragon! Can you believe that? And he wasn't like other people say they are! He didn't act all terrorist on me. He was respectful and honorable towards me. Maybe because I was respectful to him? Who knows but it was a blast! He was such a friendly person and we had such a nice chat! Sadly, I forgot to ask him for his name. The callsign of his ship was Raijin. I need to remember this name, maybe I will see him again! He escorted me from Honshu to Okinawa and then back to Shikoku where I left for Galileo. On the way there, we've even met on a Chrysanthemum who caught a poor Orbital Spa and Cruise Liner! I think I had luck that the Dragon was with me. He protected me from harm and said I was under his protection so I could just fly past them! The lady asked me about my cargo since I was hauling Plutonium. I made a story up on the spot and she believed me, letting me pass unharmed. However, I am not sure what happened to the Liner. I hope the captain and his passengers are alright. I really hope that... Maybe I should have stayed, helping him to get out of the situation. But Jaina, Caz, and Buck wouldn't like me playing the hero. I think it is good as it is. Future-Cherry, you can take a deep breath, I made it back alive! No need to worry about me!

Later, curiosity got me. I've only heard stories about Kepler so I decided to just fly there. I mean, what would be the worse that could happen? Dying from radiation? My little Magpie is armored enough and the radiation shield worked very well in such a harsh environment. However, I should better not tell Jaina or the two Grandpa's that I was there. It is indeed very, very scary and dangerous. I've met some people there, however. Someone called Mishiro, callsign Blank.Stare, Iris, callsign MGE-Arrakis and a miss called Sara Drake. I even met Sonja again! Remember her? The Doctor with the cat! She is such a nice person, always cheering me up when I talk to her! We had such a nice talk about different things. One even involved the Omicrons! I doubt I would ever go there, what about you future-cherry? Would you go there? Maybe you have more self-confidence than me since nothing will ever get me to visit them! In addition, keep an eye on a certain research vessel. I think its name was Brave. The pilot acted very suspiciously, staying all quiet and spying on us. I really felt awkward. Like someone would watch me taking a shower or something, grrrr. That thought is giving me shivers. In the end, everyone left for the night and so did I. I am now back on Cleveland in my room, laying in my comfy bed while writing this.

Jaina really helped me a lot. She gave me the opportunity to start a new life in space. I have three own ships now, a big room and I am starting to gather money. More money than I ever could earn planetside. I owe her so much... we owe her so much, future-cherry. So... so much. If you ever read this, Jaina. Thank you, thank you so much for everything you did for me and will do for me. I am so glad that I accepted your offer to join the company, I really am. Goodnight.

Cherry Blossom · 07-08-2021, 10:03 PM,

Log Entry: #4
08.07.828 AS

Hey... future me. Today was a rather... I don't know. The day started great and just developed into... garbage. Several people insulted me today for my stuttering. Sometimes I wish I would not stutter, but some actually like me the way I am. I am not feeling great today, Future-Cherry, not at all. I don't know what I shall do. Jaina, Caz, Buck, and all the others who like me how I am probably don't want me to change. But... can I withstand all the insults and hate towards me? I don't know if I am strong enough. It just feels like my childhood is repeating itself. One of them even called me... 'Stuttering Meat' while that Silverstone guy insulted my stuttering first, just to then call me a 'cutie'. I wish they would all just... disappear. Forever. I don't like... violence but... Sometimes I just wish that all the people who try to hurt me physically and mentally... just disappear. I hate them so much... I know it is wrong to wish other people harm but... I just hate when they insult me because of my stuttering. I have nothing against people who ask because I can explain it to them but... the moment they just call me out for it and... insult me, is too much for me.

Maybe I should do something against my stuttering? What would you say? But... then I would change myself too much. I wouldn't be myself anymore, I would be someone else. Do you think that is the right way? I am not sure. Jaina and the others would... hate me for it. I will think about it, but I am not sure... I can't even write correctly because of my insecurity and my sadness today... I am sorry Future-Cherry. Goodnight...

Cherry Blossom · 07-10-2021, 12:39 AM,

Log Entry: #5
09/10.07.828 AS

Hey future-me! I am... sorry because of last time. I was lost in thoughts again. Mostly sad thoughts about my past and... today they came once again, right before I ended the day. However, earlier I had a nice talk with some of my friends again! I was in Kepler again, at Ames, talking with them! Mii was there, my friendly Dragon-Friend too! Iris came too for a bit! I even had a nice talk with a Pilot of the Technocracy about AI and Synthetic Lifeforms! It was a blast... However, there was once again a foul-mouthed encounter, or rather two. First, a Naval Forces Pilot who told me to take my pills so I stop my stuttering and then a person called Loyola. She bullied me quite a bit and for some time until I decided to leave the area around Ames and return to Cleveland.

I took a bit of a rest and finished the repairs on my new ship, a Gunboat! When I took the ship for its first flight, I've met an AI Drone in Pennsylvania. It was transmitting a weird code, a really weird code. When I reached Kepler again to meet Mii and Iris, the ship started acting up. The screens were flickering, life support failed and I lost power. I and Elaine found out that the code of the Drone... was a virus that infected our system. I've managed to get rid of it but now... my friends could assume something. Maybe they will find something out about my past I wish to keep a secret. I do hope they won't.

After that, Mii took me and Iris on a 'road trip' to Kusari, showing us some wonderful places. And we've even met Sara there! In Honshu however, we had a kind of sad talk. Mii told us about her past... and... it did hurt. It reminded me of my own. However, the moment Munich was mentioned, something weird happened. I had a flashback. Pictures ran through my mind about a past that felt real, but it can't be mine... or can it? I am confused. I wanted to return to Cleveland for the night but the Girls said it would be better if I stay with them. Flying alone that late would be a bad idea, and with my mind not really working the way I want it to work, they are right. We are staying in New Tokyo for the night, I hope it was the right choice. I really hope. My past... Could it... be? A lie... maybe? I... I need sleep... I really do... Stars... help me remember...

Cherry Blossom · 07-10-2021, 08:50 AM,

Log Entry: #6
10.07.828 AS

I usually don't do this right after waking up, but there is no chance to avoid it now. I need to write, I need to get my head free of the thoughts that follow me since last night. The place Sara and Mii showed us is beautiful, yet, I haven't really slept at all. Munich, Planet Nuremberg... The pictures won't leave. My mental strength is leaving me, I am growing weaker. I am trying to stay strong... for the girls, for Jaina, for Caz and Buck... for all my friends. I have to manage, I have to make them proud. I fell asleep from time to time. The dream I had, the nightmare I had, it is adding to the pictures. They are haunting me... no, they are hunting me.

Despite everything that is happening, I can't give up. I promised my friends something, all of them. I will never break a promise I have given, never. However, Caz and Buck and even Jaina told me to stay clear from danger, something I can no longer do. We will venture to the Omicrons one day. And when that day comes, I will be ready and I will come back. It hurts to leave them behind in Liberty, but if I would ask Jaina, she would probably come with us. The same with Caz and Buck. But I can't tell them exactly what we are planning. I have to protect them. I will not let them get into danger because of me. I will protect... everyone.

Cherry Blossom · 07-11-2021, 09:06 PM,

Log Entry: #7
11.07.828 AS

What are friends, I ask you. Friends are a group of people that should trust each other, would I answer. What is trust I ask you. Trust is having confidence, faith, or hope in others, I would answer. What is betrayal, I ask you. Violation of a person's trust or confidence, I would answer.

Friends should trust each other, they stand with each other. Strong as individuals, stronger as a group. I have faith in all of them, yet, they do not have any in me. I trust all of them, yet, they do not trust me. I have confidence in all of them, yet, they do not have any in me. I can survive a knife in the back from a person I barely know, but I can't survive a knife in my heart from a person I consider a friend. Maybe I am really just too weak, too naive to understand how space works. Maybe I should just go back to my work like before, not minding other people's business. I feel like there are only three people in this sector I can really trust, I can rely on because they were always there when I needed them. They showed care, want to protect me. But they would never betray me like that. They would never leave me behind. Caz, Buck, Jaina, you were right. Space is dangerous, very dangerous.

Cherry Blossom · 07-17-2021, 01:04 PM,

Log Entry: #8
17.07.828 AS

Today I made a deal with the devil. Or rather Elaine did in my name as I wasn't really able to speak. Pilots of the Police were not the most friendly towards me, trying to... flex their authority around. I hate that, I really do. In addition, all those rumors about the Police arresting innocent civilians for their own gain as they are a corporation. A deal with the Xeno Alliance was made today. I have to supply them with medicine thrice a month so they don't run out. Cobra gave me coordinates in Kepler where I should bring the crates. I hope everything goes well but at least it is not really illegal. Liberty has no jurisdiction in Kepler so... I should be safe, no? I will keep my head low while I am doing those runs. No one shall see me and if they do, I will tell them that I am supplying Ames. Yes, that is a good idea. Medical supplies are not hurting anyone, they are saving lives. I don't want to be dragged into a conflict, but I can't just stand idle while people die in a fight that seems worth fighting for. The Police... No. The corruption must stop in Liberty. And employees of Megacorps must stop being numbers, they are human beings. Everything changes now. Did I make a mistake? Did I do good? I am not sure but I can't tell anyone. I can't endanger my friends with such knowledge. I will not even attach my black box recordings... no. Someone could break into my room and read it... I can't. The moment they know, they are in danger. I will protect my friends... I will protect... everyone.

Cherry Blossom · 10-14-2023, 07:41 AM,

Log Entry: #9
14.10.833 AS

Hello diary. It has been some time. I isolated myself in the void onboard the Sunset for the last four..? Years? After I worked for a while for Bristol and made a lot of money. Uh, but that doesn't matter now. A lot has changed. All my friends are gone or dead. The only one I managed to reach was Revenant. I wouldn't really call her a friend, more like someone who contracted me to do some work. After we returned and had to flee from Delta because of two Order captains who shot at us, our Jumpdrive malfunctioned and dropped us right on the home of the Technocracy. I was lucky Revenant showed up and allowed us to land. The carrier was damaged and I was injured. But I am well again! I promise, diary! However, it seems like we are now affiliates of the Technocracy but... I don't think this is enough.

In the last three days, I have met new people, friends even. Lazurith and an individual I would have never thought I would 'talk' to. An alien specimen with the name 'Psyche'. It seems like we share many similarities with them. You know how much I hate war, how much I hate humanity, how I hate our nature. Greed for money and power drives most of us forward. And those who call themselves Researchers only do such in the name of coin to sell their breakthroughs to the highest bidder.

The machine that is located in Earhart, the wrecks we scanned, makes all sense now. This thing in the middle must be some kind of beacon, a beacon of light that allows us to safely travel between the stars. Every time a major incident happens with a gate, the remains that were in transit end up in this system. In the crossroads of stars. A surveyor that dates back to 50 A.S. according to historical databases. Ships from the texas incident in 500 A.S. The Whitefield and Fairmont were lost during the Gallic war during a jump. The blackout. It must come from there. If this machine is interrupted, we might lose the ability to travel quickly between systems. But it gets worse. If this machine falls into the hands of a house or corporation, they will be able to control the entire sector. I.. I can't allow this. I promised Psyche I would fight for what is right. I will stand with their Kin. The light... it will be triumphant. And I will become.. a Dark Herald.

This is the last diary entry from me, my diary. Cherry is dead. She will keep existing for the outside world, but she truly is dead. Naomi Kaiser is reborn. And she will stay such. In the coming days, I will send my findings and assumptions to Revenant. I hope it will be enough for her to trust me so I can be one of her Flock. And then I need to get the Sunset ready for a war that is to come.

Goodbye, Cherry. It was a pleasure.

Cherry Blossom · 10-16-2023, 12:42 PM,

Log Entry: #1.1
16.10.833 AS

Hello diary. My first diary entry. I am not even sure how this works, to be honest. All I know is that this stupid diary wouldn't let me tag this as #1 so I just turned it into #1.1! I will just start, somehow.

The last days were interesting and emotional for me. I have lost so much, yet, I have not given up. I don't know how to really describe it but I feel like my Little Spark of Hope has returned to me. That little spark of hope makes me feel comfort, joy, and even love. First, it seemed, that Little Spark of Hope was only a friend of Cherry. But after Cherry's death, she became my friend. And I am happy for it. After such a short time I trust that Little Spark of Hope more than anyone else I've ever trusted. The betrayal of the past is gone. I can finally breathe again, I can finally live again. And for the first time in a very long time, I am not alone anymore. She was there, holding me close so I could rest. Her presence, I felt it, it was there all the time. She soothed my every worry without asking for anything in return. She truly is the purest light, a light that shall guide me on my path. Kimi, I will protect you with all I have. You and your kin. I admire who you are, what you are, what you've done for me, and what you will do for me. If you ever read this, I doubt you can still read but we will see, be assured, you have a very special place in my heart.

I will be her Herald, I will be the Dark Herald that brings the light. It shines for me, it guides me, it protects me. With passion, affection, and love. Darkness is consumed by light. The light shall stand triumphant.

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