I don't even know where to begin; failure of epic proportions has crushed my spirit. I started out from stokes with a long-range chase of a privateer pilot "QCP|Josephine.Monson" she eluded me, managing to destroy a kusari ship, and then returned home to new london; all the while, I did not even manage to make scanner contact. On my return to leeds I eventually found a bretonnian police pilot "BPA)Lucy.Silsbury" (hussar) who I should probably have engaged straight away, but I waited for the privateer to return and backup her ally. I realise that was foolish. They asked me to leave the system, since I've been posted there, I felt inclined to disagree. And, being was incensed with what the privateer had done, I waited for them to lose patience and fire was exchanged. I tried to be evasive, and managed to evade a lot of the BPA fire, but i was unable to hit her, so switched my focus to the bomber (challenger?) against which i managed very little hull damage. I tried to escape in the last moments but was cut down on my way to stokes by the privateer. As if all that wasn't bad enough:
I started duty and immediately spoke to Daisa Hiroito, who instructed me to attend to the situation in shikoku, and deal with one "polaris". I recieved further warnings about shikoku from a mercenary as I was travelling.
I reached shikoku to find "[AFA]Sousuke.Patro" engaged in combat with "Sublime" and "Polaris" (falcata).
I approached warily, and seeing that help could probably be used, I attempted to fire on "polaris" as instructed. It appears these criminals have some kind of erratic alien technology, as their contacts jumped randomly on sensors, seeming to jump between space in an instant, and at other times seeming like any other pirate you might fly against. "Sublime" was dispatched by Sousuke, we both then attempted to destroy the falcata.
Eventually, [IG]Tip.of.the.Spear appeared to assess, and all 3 of us seemed to have forced the enemy to flee. As it looked as though things were safe again; Sousuke turned in, the remaining two of us continued to follow polaris, then Tip.Of.The.Spear, left me to finish the pursuit alone.
I expected to simply follow the enemy to the nearest jumphole, and that would be that: but it was not that simple. Polaris disabled my engines during the pursuit, and i was forced to enter combat again.
It looked as though the screamers would give me a chance for a short while, but being unable to track the target properly, my destruction was sudden and brutal. Fire erupted before me, brutal force threw pieces of dash into me, blood welled from countless wounds. As the pod wrapped around me to hurl me toward junyo, I stood on the edge of consciousness, pain tearing through me; I managed to activate the beacon; by sheer act of will, with a little help from some excellent painkillers, I managed to croak a few last words with the enemy, in which they revealed their allegiance to the blood dragons.
I woke in a this med-bay on junyo, where they tell me I have to be a lot more careful, despite some genius cryer surgeons, a girls' body can only take so much repeated damage, apparently. I have failed my Daisa, my family name, and myself; I considered using fathers wakizashi to end it this morning, but I couldn't find the damned thing. I've currently snuck out of the complex to test how many bottles of sake it takes before they have to pump my stomach.