Sandra had just climbed out of her craft, the Loki's engines still cooling down while it rested in the hangar. On he way to her quarters, she passed a few other pilots and staff of the base but she didn't notice them because she was deeply sunken in thoughts. The door to her quarters closed behind her and she sat down on a cough, near a window to the space of Omega 54. She looked out for a moment then back to the table in front of her, head resting in her hands. Before her was the pad with her personal log file and she stared at it for a long while until eventually her hand reached out to it...
Today, I finally met the military of Rheinland again. I had noticed several ships scrambling towards stuttgard while I came out of my quarters at Offenbach outpost. As I looked through a window, I could see them vanishing into the jumphole, the trails of their engines fading after each one. I wondered what they were doing but if it was Stuttgard they travelled to, then it was without doubt something unpleasant..
My curiosity told me to follow them, but my voice of reason told me to stay at offenbach outpost. Where they were going it likley was dangerous. They were going to Rheinland... they were facing the military, for some reason, I knew it. In the end, curiosity got the better of me and I piloted my ship through the jumphole and towards stuttgard.
My longrange scanners showed several RHA craft as well as military craft and as I contacted Lt. Claus he confirmed it. A firefight in Stuttgard. It had once again come to hostilities and I asked if I should call for help but it wasn't needed. I then came closer to observe, to learn. I wanted to see how the military acted and reacted towards the Red Hessians, how they speak, how they communicate, even how they insult.
As I saw the greenish trails of Rheinland weaponry in the distance, I was reminded of the rain of fire they sent down upon me when I fled them for voicing my opinion. I could see that both sides struggled, each of them undoubtedly believed in what they fought for. And that was what made me so sad. Neither side would simply back down or make a compromise. Their goals were clear, and until these goals weren't achieved they would not rest. They knew it, both of them.
When I observed the Rheinland military and Red Hessian Army fighting, I felt helpless. I did not know the details about either side, only the general outline of their reasoning, but still it seemed so pointless. The war with liberty the war within Rheinland, the war with the Corsairs and other hostile borderworld forces. I wished to understand and the pointless fighting to stop. Maybe when I will get a chance to speak to a Red Hessian member again, maybe then I'll learn about the details of the war within Rheinland and perhaps as well the one with liberty.
Another day gone to waste. Except this time a Rheinland Cruiser got away. Damn it all, his Cruise Disruptor barely missed its engines as it flew out of range. The RHA were angry with him for missing, but they wouldn't hold it against him. So that was his role in that firefight, and the rest of the time he sat out. Now he was back at Offenbauch wondering what he was going to do next. He thought the bar may be a good place to relax after the days events. Johan headed there quickly from his quarters, after having taken a shower and changing out of his flightsuit of course. He took a seat at a table, immediately one of the waiters came by and dropped off his favorite ale.
"Danke, herr."
Without a word the waiter turned and left the table. Johann lit up a cigarette. A nasty habit he supposed, but as long as the supply train kept bringing them back from beyond the borderworlds he would continue to smoke. And there he waited, lost in his thoughts.
Sandra stood in her room after a long day. Hadn't she been here before, earlier today? The window showed the open space and the light of the nearby sun. She had been out in space again today, after she had landed at Offenbach outpost. There she met Johannes and Klaus again, the two who found and saved her from the military.
Speaking of which, today held some very disturbing relevations about the doings of the military. She knew the military were trained professionals, she herself was to become one of them. But now the thought disgusted her and she wanted nothing to do with the military again at all. Trained professional was one thing but ruthless murder of women and children... that was the work of monsters. It pained Sandra to hear about it and witness the pain it caused to one of her two saviors. She felt regret that she had flown among the military, even if only a short while, at all..
The military wasn't the only thing she understood better today, the red hessian movement also became a lot clearer to her. Now she understood what was happening in Rheinland and why, only the war with liberty was still a mystery to her. She had warmed up with the hessians quickly, much faster than she anticipated. Although she did not support all of their methods, she understood and sympathized with their cause.
The last moment of understanding today came as Sandra spoke with Johannes Claus outside of Offenbach and he spoke of his past and what was done to him. That was one moment, where Sandra was so shaken and sad that she shedded tears as well, she had never thought the military could be so cruel and ruthless. But as it is, she was mistaken and it was time to face and accept it.
After refreshing in her quarters bathroom, Sandra went to bed and pulled the blanket over herself. She could still see the orange light from the sun through the window and it accompanied her as she went to sleep after a long day.
It had been a long night, Johannes thought. That's why he had gone to the bar in the first place. A very long night indeed. As he drank yet another shot of vodka he tried to wave over the waiter again. Who promptly cuthim off.
"Johannes! Enough already! Dammit, man you've been drunk for hours already."
"I VILL TELL YOU WHEN I AM READY TO STOP DRINKING."
He was angry. At what he didn't know, but he sat back down figuring that he shouldn't make a scene. He sobbed quietly at his table. Ever since he began having 'Those nightmares' again last night he couldn't get back to sleep. He whispered through the sobs.
" I just..vant..to forget...too much pain.."
He leaned back and stared at the table in front of him, slightly in a daze. The alcohol having been in his system for a long time now. He didn't care how much he drank, he just wanted his pain to just disappear.