I finaly passed my basic training and picked up my uniform, so im now a recruit navy pilot! how cool is that ay?! haha,:)
although i didnt do as good as some other people, i feel i did my best, ive been given a Light Fighter called a LZF-9805 "Liberator", sounds typically Libertonian right? hehe, "for great justice!" and all that, they call it a "libby" for short, hehe. So yea ive been given this and it flies like a dream mum, it really does, shes so fast and looks really pretty, i may ask to have pink lights.. but i may get shouted at. Oh, um, that reminds me, i got.. in trouble with the fleet admiral.. not a great start huh? I couldnt hear him through all the radio chatter so i went ahead scouting for the enemy position. turns out the admiral didnt want me to do that and he suddenly exploded through my comms, i was so scared.. i was shaking for about 3 hours.
Its different out here than it is back home, the sky splashed with blue and purple, instead of the red and browns of Bretonia, this difference is just on the surface however. how are you doing out there in Dublin? are the mollies behaving, if they are still anything like the rouges then, probably not, right?
I hope you are still safe? please dont get too brave out there, I know how many pirates there are, I dont want to lose you like we lost dad. Say hello to Gregory and Vinny for me ok?
Im sorry ive not written to you in a while, its been crazy here.. Ive been in the hospital too.. just minor injuries, dont worry about me though, or... well try not to, im doing great really. Ive still not asked about those pink lights, but I dont really think that "its in libertys best interests" as some of my commanders would say.
How are Gregory and Vinny doing mother, do you still argue with Greg every minute of the day, I remember that you two would never stop arguing all day long, until Vinny stepped in.. haha
I was fighting with criminal today mother.. we destroyed him and I picked up an odd crate in the wreckage, it was sealed so i had to wait until there was a quiet moment to open it... Mother, t.there was somthing..inside, it was disgusting, i almost threw up.. I dont know what it was. One of my commanders said... he said it was a classified item, and ordered me to blow it up.. I, took a picture of it for you. and then did as he asked, i just had to show you. Mother you must swear never to speak a word of this to anyone, not even Gregory, and Vinny too.. the commander made me agree not to tell anyone. Im still shaking from seeing it..
I found an amazing and wonderous place today mother, it looked like i was inside of the largest tube you can ever imaging. I was actually a little scared, I was shot at by a artificial intelligence inside a top secret liberty area.. I dont like it in there its all green and foggy, you cant see what you are doing half the time, I started shooting the drone, I chased for ages and ages it led me to a jumphole so I followed it since I wasnt going to let it just get away!
inside it was even more foggy and there was rocks everyone with odd paterns on them.. I continued to shoot the drone, but it had a lot of repair capabilities and wasnt going down easily, we suddenly came out of the fog and I saw a liberty navy ship sat outside a planet, an Odd design it started shooting at me! I was so suprised I continued to fire at the drone as it slipped back into the pea soup, it then jumped through another hole, I followed it without thinking..
on the otherside there were defence platforms and my missile alarms started going haywire as i seemed to be getting shot from all sides, i continued to shoot the drone, he was -not- allowed to escape, mother. i saw a station ahead of us, the drone seemed to be heading for it as well, by now its health was only reliant on the armour it had left. I finaly destroyed it 4 kilometres from the station.
after the adrenaline of the fighting had subsided a little, I looked around me, and i felt terrified but also at peace, I was hopelessly lost and yet, the scenery was so beautiful I almost didnt mind. then the thought of not being able to see you again kicked in, the "what if" questions piled up and i felt sick almost.
The station appeared to be a Zoner installation, which was suprising, the control tower was just as confused at my presence as I was, they let me dock and I looked at all the slime on my ship and shivered, I spoke to the Dock Quartermaster and he said that it was called "Freeport 11", I only remember a Freeport 1 and 4 because I think we went on weekend holidays there when dad.. was still alive.
I connected to the Freeport navmap and it filled in my map, apparently I was in a place called "Omicron Delta" using my connection to the station I sent a boosted signal to liberty, the Fleet admiral responded, I was so scared, I thought he'd shout at me again but he was calm, he told me not to panic and to stay at the station. I felt at ease almost straight away, he said he was coming to get me, I was rescued by the fleet admiral mother, I was almost lost for words..:)almost.. you know me;)
I asked him alot of questions on the way back, about the odd liberty ship and the "omicrons" and the rumours I heard of.. aliens, apparently that liberty ship I saw, was a stolen prototype, stolen by people called "Order", the admiral explained that there were aliens and that they were violent creatures.. im scared about that mother.. its not going to be like in the holonet movies is it? where they try and take over mankind..
just.. you becareful out there ok?! say hi to Gregory and Vinny for me!
I finally paid the gas bill for my appartment on manhatten:)I had my first hot bath in ages! god, it was so relaxing you wouldnt believe what patrolling does for your joints, remember those neural net B movies I used to watch with the robots that look like theyve not been lubricated in about 30 years, haha thats what I feel like after patrol. and yes I knoow you toold me not to get a place with hydrogen fuelled heating and to 'go for electric' but this is all I can afford mother, and dont you dare send me any money! ok? im fine, things are just a little shaky at the moment.
oh, Mother.. I lost my cool on patrol today, there were corsairs mother, corsairs in liberty... I didnt think that they would dare come to liberty, even the rouges hate them. I couldnt think anymore, my hands started to sweat and I could feel my heart beating so hard. I just kept thinking of the day dad never came home.. and when I overheard it was corsairs that did it.. It was scary mother, it was like I wasnt me anymore, and I could see what i was doing through my eyes but.. had no control over it, I wanted to kill them, i wanted to make them suffer. I did, we killed them both.. those bastards! and then after the fight was over.. I just burst into tears infront of everyone, I felt so ashamed, but I just couldnt help myself, I hate them.. I hate them so, so much, and my tears wouldnt go away..
Miss Kelly, told me to rest, made it an order. so I landed on Los Angeles and slept for a short time inside my LZF, I wanted a hug from you, or from anyone.. but I couldnt bring myself to say it, just remembering dads smiling face.. god I miss you dad, I miss you mother... I miss yours and Gregory's pointless arguements, and Vinnys fast wise cracks, I miss you all, I will come home some time soon ok? dont worry too much about me, im.. im doing alright, remember im your daughter and a proud Whitehall.
I love you so much mother! give my love to everyone on the Even Prime.
Brrrr... its cold out a little, and inside too actually.. got to save those credits. Ive got a confession to make, ive actually not been on patrol in, well a little over a week now. I put myself on the reserve listing, so my pay has gotten drastically less, heh.
I felt strange mother, remember I wrote you and told you about the corsairs we found. I couldn't shake off this feeling of.. well, you know when somthing inside you just snaps. I felt like I was going out of my mind, i was so upset mother. If im honest, I did cry many times after that day, alone here in my appartment. Its a good job my captain didnt see, did I tell you about Captain Zanders? hes a very straigh arrow man, sort of like dad was, I think id die inside if he had seen what I was like at that time, or what I was like here afterwards.
The thought of getting all mushy infront of him, and even the others, makes me shiver a little, 'you have to be tougher than that to stick it out here' is what he'd say mother, im sure of it.
So I put myself in reserve, try to calm down a little, im sorry I wont be home for christmas, i'll be doing a lot of training exercises during my down time... you know when dad used to want me to follow what he said to the letter, and then you would tell me to use my head, that keeps happening. suddenly I find myself in a bad situation and without any orders to go by... its, hard to make the right choice. Miss Kelly and Leiutenant Valieri seem to be able to manage it like it was nothing. I get stuck in my mind, then I panic, then I screw up.
You know like I said, I didnt want you to send any money. I think I may need some soon.. I cant aford to live like this much longer.. I'm sorry for letting you down. I've seen a job at a club, it looks a little.. risque, but the man said I'd be perfect for the job and right now, I really need the money. Someday soon i'll be able to come home and see you, and i'll be on top form again.. hopefully
Im doing a little better financially now than i was before christmas, my other.. job, helps me to keep my house warm, but i think im starting to loose my mind a little. Now I know that sound maybe a little over dramatic but let me explain.
On Monday I work 8am to 12pm on my studies for may AFF Exam which will be sometime soon, thats Advanced Fight and Flight mother. then after that I Go up into space and start my afternoon patrol this is from 12.15pm to 5.15pm, then I have to get home so I can have maybe an hour or 2 of sleep before I'm back up for my evening patrol shift at 8:30pm, this goes on until 1:30am, then I need to be racing back to Manhatten and to my new job for 2am and then im there until 5am or 6am if some of the girls are missing. Then i may get 2 hours sleep in before im up again for my morning shift.
I know you what you must be thinking, and believe me I was thinking it too, but after I saw on the news, that.. Captain Zanders, something terrible happened.. I needed to keep myself busy so I didnt think about it. That, and money was really tight, it still is, but you dont need to send me any, ive heard the piracy in dublin is on the rise, I just hope you are ok mother, all of you.
And dont worry about my other job, its.. not what you think, well not entirely anyway. I was nearly late today, i cant aford to lose this job. either of them. anyway..
Im so, so glad that you are alright. I know I know, maybe I was too hasty but, I was really really worried about you. But its all done and past now.
We got caught by a Police patrol on the way back from Graves... Uncle Heny will be so mad at me... Could you... talk to him for me? so that he doesnt shout too much, I mean... I know I might deserve it. But I was just so scared of losing you mother, I dont think I could handle it if you werent here anymore, even if it was just a wild rumour, I had to make sure for myself
Please. Please be careful mother, I heard from a molly that the war with the miners had started again, and even, that the gold was losing its value in the market, I.. I heard that there were aliens spotted in dublin.. I just dont want to lose you mother, i dont want to. please be careful, and I promise I will too
The tea you gave me is really calming, I dont often drink tea, but this is nice to have after work, if i get time to have one that is.
And for the last time, Lieutenant Ralusch is not my boyfriend, and no hes not 'interested' in me as you put it... I wouldnt have time anyway mother and besides I think he is already in a relationship with another officer. So, stop sending me messages to suggest such things, he came with me because... well because he wanted to, that doesnt mean anything mother.
I shall message you back after work alright?
Say hello to Vinny and Greg too for me.. and Uncle Henry-George if you talk to him.
I got your last letter, hehe how ever did Gregory hurt himself so badly on the bridge?
That was funny to read about, I hope he gets better sometime soon, maybe I will send him some flowers.
I'm sorry it's been a while since I sent you a message, a lot has been going on here and I've been busy with my jobs.
Mother.. Am I too nice to be a navy officer? I get told that a lot, that I'm too kind for this job. It's true that I don't really ever feel like hurting people, or fighting, but, what else can I do? I didn't go to Cambridge with everyone else when they wanted to go and become doctors and spacecraft engineers.
I don't really have, any qualifications... the Navy really feels like it's my only calling, I wouldn't know what to do if I wasn't in the navy. heh.. I'm only still in the navy thanks to Mason. I lost my position in the Liberty Navy primary fleet, I wouldn't be too confused if Mason didn't also lose his position, I tried my hardest every day but I guess it wasn't enough. Mason and.. And Joshua always had to come to my rescue when I needed help, If Mason wasn't there, Joshua was, If Joshua wasn't there, Mason was.
So much so that, I.. God, I know what you are going to say once I tell you this, but you better just calm down ok mother? I... Got a crush on them. You didn't meet Joshua Ashfield, he's.. He's a nice person.. To me at least, and of course you know Mason, he's really sweet, I don't know what it is, but when he's near, when we are together, even if we are in danger, I feel so safe.
Mason has had really bad things happen in his life recently, I didn't see him for a month.. When he came back, it was.. It was awful; he treated me differently, like an enemy. I grew very fond of Joshua in Mason's absence, but... When Mason returned to patrol, I managed to, to get him to open up to me.. Something was troubling him and I could tell, I could feel it mother, something was wrong.
And... when we met on Newark Station to talk about it, I could see in his eyes that he was different, there was something weighing him down. Mason told me, about his girlfriend.. and, about her and Joshua they had cheated on Mason. I felt like something inside my heart had been burned, Joshua was supposed to be Masons best friend mother and he did this to him. Masons girlfriend.. she was pregnant and expecting his child.... but, she miscarried after being shot, I couldn't believe it mother, nor could I hold back my tears anymore, you know how I get when I hear a sad story. I wept into his chest, holding him tightly as he continued to tell me everything that had happened to him. I don't know if I was hugging so tightly for my sake, or his, I felt I needed a hug, and I wanted to give him one.
I.. haven't seen Joshua since then, I don't know what I would do if I did... Mason also saves Joshua from trouble all the time! All the time mother and he still did this terrible thing, he still thinks Mason doesn't know about it too... I'm shaking now just thinking about it. I'm not sure if I'm angry or.. I just don't know. I don't want to hate him mother, but I can't forgive him for what he has done to Mason, as his best friend. Mason told me that.. Joshua has always been that way, and that he sleeps with lots of women and dumps them right away. I felt cold listening to his words when he spoke them, then he said something which filled me with, such warmth mother, it was different I felt hot. Mason told me, that he had warned Joshua to never ever come near me in that way or things would get bad between them. Mason was protecting me all along, even when he wasn't there in person. I won't forget the feeling I had when Mason told me that, I rested my head against his chest still, feeling a heat I've never felt in my chest. I still get it when I think about it, though not as prominent.
L..last night, I heard that Mason has lots and lots of women after him, I felt a little, empty inside I wasn't sure if.. Well if he liked me like that. We went flying for a while since patrol was dead, we went to the place he goes to think about things, we ended up in a wondrous place. After we got back, I... managed to ask him if he wanted to come on holiday with me sometime. Now calm down mother, and none of this 'I told you so' ok? It will be a long way off, I need to save up my money, so.. it will be a long long time but, Mother, he said he would like to come. I was so scared I thought my heart was going to jump out of my chest and I would not stop shaking. I had to turn off the monitor and I think my nerves got the better of me... but, he said yes mother. And that made me feel.. Feel like I could defeat all the pirates single handed!
I will write you again soon ok?
Take care of yourself, say hello to Uncle Henry, Vinny and of course, Gregory.
Love you loads X X X x
Tia.