By no means I would entitle him or her "a problematic incident", rather more "a joyful surprise". I am just concerned. Concerned that I might not be a good father. My job is not the family-friendly one to do, often away, long duty, a certain chance of lethality. This makes me afraid of missing too much of important time to spend with him or her and also with you.
On the other side I feel obliged to my job, my duty, colleagues, friends and home. It is just something new to get used to, to grow into, to change into. I am used to be a soldier, to destroy and to protect, mostly with violence. It is a responsiblity I am aware of and already know. Being a father on the other hand, is a new experience and a new responsiblity, I will try to master as good as I can, Probably it might not be as different as being a soldier, protecting the ones you love and destroying those who threat them.
In the next years there won't be for sure less troubled times, as long as Gallia acts aggressive. Even if Gallia fell, then the Maltese Nation might also knock on Liberty's door, or the Nomads decided it was time to cover everyone and everything in their Jelly.
For a soldier, the best time to raise a family, is probably as early as possible, to ensure his bloodline will continue, before he reaches his final destination. As I said, raising a family was already planned, the plan just happened to start working earlier than expected. Which is not something bad at all. In other words, I am happy to be with you, and to raise a family with you.
Love,
-John
PS.: Well, I hope my slowly growing protective but also worrying side of me won't scare you off. The one getting you in unnecessary dangerous situations, will receive a sign of my displeasure. The one harming you, will become my personal target, marked and tagged upon a blacklist. Anyways, I manage to stay alive and in one piece, since the beginning of your messages, I try to continue this way.