So, in other words, after all this time, you have no simple answer then? Fact of the matter is, you're a bad penny that talks alot of smack and claims a bruised enough ego that although your burned bridges are no one's fault but your own, you still continue to pretend you're the wronged party? You just can't let go of something you effed up for yourself & don't have the maturity to take personal responsibility for.
I love my hobby too, but I'm still welcome to be here