When you care about something you generally show it by displaying concern over the perception of your efforts. That's something you've obviously broadcasted in this thread.
When your efforts are shown, especially on first tries, to be extremely flawed it's on you to give a stark reflection on the feedback being delivered. Tossing it away is akin to tossing away growth and progress.
Caring is a good first step. If the feedback you're receiving at present is causing a great deal of anger in you, which I can understand given the number of flaws being skylined, it might be a good time to take a step back to gain some distance and time for reflection.
That you are trying and do care is a good first step. With sincerity and conviction you can make it past that first step.
Just a bit of feedback I thought might be warranted given the direction this thread is moving.
