Personal [color=#33CC00]Data Assistant Entry: 0010 Date: 23/09/818
::It happened so fast.. I didnt see it all, Ishikawa-san.. he was hit by the derby's battle razor, he looked like he was in so much pain, though he tried not to show it. thats just like Ishikawa-san, he is good at keeping composed but, Ive been through pain, and even he couldnt hide it from me. I brought him to Stokes as fast as I could, but the wounded military were on the priority list, so we burned full speed to Freeport 6::
::hes here now.. but hes sleeping, I cant look at him because I feel funny inside, he protected me from the molester posing as a doctor who.. touched me while i was too injured to resist, he saved me from the BAF during our fighting in space.::
::the doctor said hes going to need a days rest, hes not woken up since he slept, I wonder what kind of dream hes having...::
Personal [color=#33CC00]Data Assistant Entry: 0011 Date: 26/09/818
::Ishikawa-san, he was all better from the hospital, I had to leave him because he looked like he was sleeping ok, dreaming of somthing nice i think... and then today in leeds his ship was destroyed, he wasnt injured as badly, but... I felt a strange feeling when I saw him blow up, I shuddered... it was horrible, Ishikawa-san, I was worried about him I think, even though I know.. I shouldnt get attached::
::hes back in the medical bay on Freeport 6, I came to visit him today, I was so nervous, its a bad idea to go, bad things can only happen to me when people are involved, but.. I felt like I wanted to, he was sleeping again, I felt relieved and.. sad, I need to get further away maybe, so im not going to hurt inside::
::i bought a new ship with the money I earned from a bounty, a Scimitar, its amazing, I was able to take down lots of hostiles, <strike>but I wasnt able to protect Ishikawa-san,</strike> hes so unfortunate, I will try harder next time, even if I dont know why...::
::and veera-san joined the group, she will be setting up her room on the tengoku i think, im not sure about her... I will have to wait and see::
Personal [color=#33CC00]Data Assistant Entry: 0012 Date: 30/09/818
::I went to dublin alone today, Ishikawa-san was held up in the Tau's so i went on ahead, I jumped to Dublin and found 2 mollys near my location i moved to them, neither seemed all to pleased to see me, not that it mattered. I informed him that he was worth money, yet he did nothing to try and defend himself, I engaged and destroyed his Warewolf Molly VHF with my scimitar, before i did though the other molly ran away and a police seargent came to help him, he did little to nothing to stop the outcome::
::afterwards odd pirate vessels arrived, sabres each with different weapons on, one decided he would come right close to me, dispite warning him to move away he didnt, he changed location and hung there, i informed him that he was worth money and he still said nothing, me and ishikawa-san made short work of him, then his 3 friends tried to engage me whilst a bretonian was rambling on over the coms, we both told him where he could stick it..::
::after the festivities we left for stokes to catch out breath a little, I was tired so Ishikawa-san said we should go home, i felt a little... odd, his voice sounded happy, it made me feel happy when we went back to freeport 6 together... then he said, he liked it here.. and might get a place on freeport 6 himself, to be that close to.. ishikawa-san.. it feels.. strange inside, warm.. if i think of it, its a mistake though, i know it too well.::
Personal [color=#33CC00]Data Assistant Entry: 0013 Date: 1/10/818
::i wonder what this feeling I feel is, i feel it somtimes when i hear ishikawa-sans voice, or if hes near... I dont know if its what I think it is, ive felt it before, with..kaito-san... Its scary, it feelts hot, im not well I think, and my hands shake but im not cold, I dont like moments like this, when my body doesnt listen to me::
::that day he touched my hand, I thought for sure I would my eyes would water, but they didnt, but i dont know if i could do that again, when the fake doctor touched my skin i could tell he was grossed out but he touched me all the same.. im thankful that ishikawa-san.. didnt see... my disgusting body.::
::I didnt sleep much last night, i watched the asteroids spin outside the station, hes coming here soon, he said he liked it when he came aboard, its feels funny inside when i think about this. I get hot, its hard to sleep::
Personal [color=#33CC00]Data Assistant Entry: 0014 Date: 2/10/818
::I couldnt say it... im such a coward I think, it was right there, I almost said I was gald he was ok, but I felt so hot inside when I thought about it, no.. it was him, Ishikawa-san, why cant I explain it, I feel so hot when he is near or I hear his voice, my heart beats faster but im not doing anything, its scaring me::
::He.. moved onto the station like he said he would, thats just like him, he does what he says, its a little frightening to see sombody so.. dedicated, he had to move from the fighting today, I covered him, I wasnt sure if he got away... I, was worried.. about him. but, I had to keep fighting, he was ok though I felt..glad::
::I didnt see where his room is, but he said its on the right hand side when looking from the sun, mine is on that side too, im, anxious... I wonder if hes near or..far. I feel so warm when I think about him, I dont know what to do, or who to tell... I may.. ask Yuka-dono, but ive not seen her for so long, im a little frightened. Ishikawa-san.. and, he calls me.."leiko-chan" *she blushes* but I still call him by his last name, <strike>but..calling him.. "Aiji-kun" is.. no, no I cant... I, cant</strike>::
Personal [color=#33CC00]Data Assistant Entry: 0015 Date: 8/10/818
::I spent the day with Yuka-dono and the Hinode in dublin, I asked her why i felt so hot when I met Ishikawa-san. Yuka giggled to herself, I didnt know why, she asked me if I had told him and I shook my head, I was certain he would think I was strange if I did tell him that I felt hot inside and my heart pounded when he was near.. I didnt want that::
::we met him on our return to stokes and the same thing happened, my heart beated so fast I thought somthing bad must have been happening, I felt so warm inside, it was scary. Yuka-dono she told him that I had somthing to say to him... I didnt know what to do, Yuka-dono landed the Hinode and left us alone, I was so scared, even my cheeks flushed pink, he was very curious as to what I had to say, I struggled with my mind and typed him how it felt inside when I saw him..::
::he said that it would be better to talk about it on the station, so we landed, I was so anxious, my heart almost hurt it was beating so hard, he approached me and I couldnt look into his eyes, I was so nervous, he said that he felt the same way about me... I felt, happy, I tried my hardest and managed to speak alittle, I asked him if we were in love, he said yes.. Aiji-kun said yes::
::Im so relieved, im so.. warm inside my eyes began to water, it was a nice feeling, no... it was a very nice feeling, he touched my chin with his hand, his hands were hot, im.. glad we live near each other.. Aiji-kun, he put his arms around me, i shuddered a little, my bodies not used to it yet, but it felt.. good... my heart still races when im with him.. he said we are in love... he loves me... Aiji-kun, if this feeling is love, then i love him too, <strike>i hope</strike>::
Personal [color=#33CC00]Data Assistant Entry: 0016 Date: 15/3/819
::I went to space again, yesterday... it made me shudder, its been a while.. the orange glow of the tau star, eased my thoughts and helped me calm myself.
I made my way carefully to dublin, I met up with a Gaian, they seemed to be pleased to see me, if not confused. they mistook me for Yuki-san or Yuka-dono. I wasnt sure fully of our relationship with the Gaian's, so i said as little as possible.
It wasnt long before Yuka-dono came. I was.. glad to see her, I heard from Aiji-kun that bad things happened in kusari, that she wasnt welcome anymore. I tried not to think about kusari, it makes my heart, feel strange. agony, i shivered and did my best to remain calm.
Aiji-kun contacted me before I left the station, said he had something to ask me.. it makes my mind wonder what it could be, my pulse races when he is near. I, love Aiji-kun.::