Hi discovery players, developers, moderators and administrators
I thought for a long time before deciding to post this thread but i think it's time to post it and maybe i should have posted this thread from a long time ago.
I am a very old player of freelancer, I played this game for over 11 years in many servers. I was known by another nickname different from the ones i am using nowadays.
I started playing on the Hamburg server, then the Void server, then discovery free-play server.. and ended at this great server, the discovery RP.
Just like everyone, i fell into some troubles and tried my best to solve them. Some got solved, and some stayed for years and been carried from the old servers to this current one.
Some of these troubles were game related, and those kind of troubles get solved eventually but the other kind of troubles was not game related and it was because of other "ooRP" reasons. Those "ooRP" troubles offended me a lot and always been a cause of more troubles from other kinds. I am Egyptian citizen, Muslim and live in Cairo/Egypt/Middle East where life is not easy and full of tension and pressures. When i try to socialize with others over the internet, i found two kinds of people. The first kind knows where i belong and doesn't care, because this kind of people doesn't judge a book from it's cover. The second kind of people were very aggressive, cruel and rude. They never treated me good and probably never will, because of some ideas carved in their minds which came from the lots of false propaganda around them. I will not mention nicknames because i don't want to point fingers but i can elaborate more about what i mean. When i noticed that there is too much "hate" coming from some players, I tried my best to approach them in a very friendly and peaceful manner but the replies were disappointing to the maximum extent. One day, i joined the discovery unofficial team-speak server, and i jumped into a channel which had almost 10 players inside. Some of those players where from the kind of people who hates me for who i am and where i belong. I joined and said "Hi" but no one replied, then one of the players (i will not mention nicknames) started broadcasting the music of a known terrorist organization by the name "ISIS". I was knowing that some of these players hates me for who i am but i never expected that they will do broadcast this.... I was shocked for moments before i started talking and said "Aren't you ashamed of yourselves?". I left the team-speak server, and explained what happened to my friends on the server here and they were shocked too. I noticed that in-game, the troubles finds me all the time then i noticed that the troubles comes from the same players who cannot accept me because of my identity or religion.
I tried to control myself and didn't know what should i do. The players who do that to me are old players, considered veterans and know what the rules are so they work the best way to go around the rules without breaking it. A lot of problems were caused and i couldn't take it.
I was also listening to my friends from the Junker Congress faction at that time, and they were pressured too from almost the same group of players because of some other "ooRP" hate reasons. It affected us all and it never grew a healthy atmosphere or fun. I saw some mistakes and troubles happening from these players, but they almost all the time get away with it and more pressure is added to me and the group of players from the Junker Congress at that time. I was also miss-informed about admin-crystal story then later after years, i heard the truth from the leader of the Junker Congress which completely changed my view about some admins here.
I lost my patience and tried to disappear behind a new nickname and identity so i created a base in "Koeln" system by the name "Diamanten Vorposten" after i suffered a lot of troubles while trying to build any installation by my real identity because all the time, someone from these "ooRP" haters show up and cause troubles ending up in destroying my base. There was many acts of meta-gaming which can hardly be caught by the admins because the ones performing these acts are old players who know the rules very good and can always walk on the rules-borders without falling into mistakes that can be caught. There are many bad incidents by those players but i am not going to post all of them.
Weeks passed and my patience was decreasing specially when my identity was blown up and now troubles finds it's ways to me again.
I did a horrible act, immature and not right, I raged and made a very disrespecting thread on the forums, throwing very bad words and expressions at those players and some admins whom i thought were supporting these players. I was wrong in all that, I was wrong to loose my patience and respond to this hate. I was wrong when i couldn't just let it go and ignore these acts. I actually got dragged inside and reacted with rage which was not the right thing to do.
I requested to get perm ban and @Alley did apply the request and banned me. After a while, i recognized that i shouldn't have raged like that and this is not me. I am a very peaceful person who is very jealous about his country and religion pride. I like to treat others as i want to be treated, so i offer respect to receive it one day. I decided to come back and talk to the admins but i forgot that my forum account and in-game accounts got banned, so i registered a new nickname on the forums and asked admin @"King Boo" to join on my teams-speak server and he was kind enough to accept and listen from me. I explained almost everything i could and he told me that he will talk to the admin team and get back to me with their decision about my situation. Then after some time, he gave me a green light to join the server and told me that i will be given another chance. I asked for my characters but he refused and said since i deleted them, then i will have to start fresh with new characters. I started fresh and because the "ooRP" haters didn't know i am here, so i succeeded in building an installation and another and created so many RP and had a lot of fun and still having it.
Someone later told those players about who i am and now they think that i was fooling them or somebody else by using another nickname here although i was just trying to stay away from them as much as i can so i can avoid their "ooRP" hate which destroyed a server before and made lots of players leave.
Why am i telling you all that?
Because i don't want anymore troubles and i want to apology in public for the first time, to all the community players and specially the administrators because i said bad words about you admins, and i posted a very bad disrespecting thread about you and i regret it and your kindness of giving me another chance proven to me that i was fed by wrong information when i was told that some admins working against the Junker Congress or against me in person by helping those players to get away with their ooRP hate actions.
I apologize for you, Admin team, I promised Admin @"King Boo" that i will never get involved in any troubles here and will always talk to admins about any troubles i find instead of reacting towards these troubles by rage or immature actions. I keep my promises and that is exactly what i will do. I tried to send a private message few months ago to several admins explaining to them my deepest apologies but very few replied. I thought that time that i should do apologize in public since i did the immature act in public and here i am apologizing and i hope that you do accept my apology and understand my situation. I never meant to be a rude person and i always seek making more friends.
and yes, i am @Xenon ... i think some already know.
Thank you for your time reading.
@"Mark Hamann" aka @Xenon
Aye, if ye ever feel bad about anywhere ye live or whatever, just remember this: you don't live in america, so be happy!
I live in America and it's pretty shitty. lol
Everyone hates the US, and I get it, there is a lot of reason to, but I'm glad to hear at least one person likes the country they live in.
Plus, egypt sounds really rad, always wanted to see the pyramids, and I always hear the people are really nice.
Oh yeauh, and bananas, they are delicious.
This isn't flood, but I'ma post a banana.
(04-26-2016, 10:03 AM)Mark Hamann Wrote: ...then one of the players (i will not mention nicknames) started broadcasting the music of a known terrorist organization by the name "ISIS"
What?
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Hey, I might have not been here when you were around, but that was a well written and respectful apology. If you are not forgiven by all, don't worry about it. Just find the people that respect you and find value in you and be with them. Have fun and make the best out of it. If people are rude to you, just wish them well and be on your way, and if you get into a PvP situation with them, just go with it like any other pvp. You just respawn and that is that. There is no winning or losing in PvP, really. It is only what you make of it.
Try to make friends with common people, maybe some newbies from Pennsylvania, and show them the game. Chances are you will find a good friend to show the game to. Be friendly and respectful and you will find people who are friendly and respectful who will want to play with you.
Good luck, and welcome back!
Up, up the long, delirious burning blue
I've topped the wind-swept heights with easy grace
Where never lark, or ever eagle flew —
And, while with silent, lifting mind I've trod
The high untrespassed sanctity of space,
Put out my hand, and touched the face of God.
(04-26-2016, 06:18 PM)Auzari Wrote: just so you know, nasheed isn't 'isis music' lol
Trust me, i know the difference very good. Just a reminder, My main language is Arabic and i live in Egypt, in the heart of the most horrible events so trust me again, i know exactly what's the difference and also thank you for your comment since It shows a good proof about what i was explaining to the community.
@JaySins - Thank you for your comment, and i just want to tell you that i don't feel any bad because of where i live or what i belong too. As i mentioned on my main post, i am a very jealous person about my country and religion pride. I just don't want to suffer from some ignorance which is translated into ooRP hate and was explaining about it. that's all