People been bugging me lately that I wasn't as active as I used to be in the past. I've been delaying making this post, main reason that I dont actually enjoy talking about my private affairs. So days turned into weeks.
My father in the last months has been hospitalized for something a doctor found on a private investigation in other country (the NHS back in England couldn't even find the first time it became a problem) and has since been operated on. For all intents and purposes, me and my family are waiting for results of the biopsy to identify what kind of illness my father suffers from. It could be anything from benign condition that he could recover from on his own to even some form of cancer. He's unable to work, is mostly homebound at least for one more week. I was busy making sure he's fine, taking him to doctors, hospital, clinics, fulfilling translation service whenever NHS couldn't hire their own translater on time (while father understands English to good degree he is not profficient enough to make a basic conversation) and taking some share of various responsibilities at home. The waiting in particular and catching sleep just anywhere I could like car or chairs when things were the most hectic caused me good deal of stress. After all, he's the only authority figure in my life.
I only very recently realized that it has also taken a toll on my own health, surprisingly finding out that my clothes are not the perfect fit they were anymore as I dropped over 10 kilograms of weight as of today. However the trend is continuing to spiral downwards and I am seeking to isolate and keep away from any more sources of anxiety to prevent it taking any more serious effect on my own wellbeing.
This isn't a leaving thread of any sort. I am still "active" in disco and will steadily increase my presence as my alllowance permits. I will answer to your comms, albeit slowly but I am most easily accessible though skype and discord. I did not wanted to bring my own frustration into decision making of an 1iC position of The Order (my guys do good job even without direct supervision, proud of them), neither to get afflicted with any more nerves that disco has to offer. I cant say how long this will last but I am hopeful that the worst news will remain just an option the doctors were obligated to remind us of.
Real life should always come first. I wish the absolute best for you and your family, and hope that your father's condition comes back as easily treatable.
Make sure to take good care of yourself. It's the single best thing you can do for him, because it means you're better empowered to take care of him.
(10-02-2018, 09:30 PM)Omicron Wrote: People been bugging me lately that I wasn't as active as I used to be in the past. I've been delaying making this post, main reason that I dont actually enjoy talking about my private affairs. So days turned into weeks.
My father in the last months has been hospitalized for something a doctor found on a private investigation in other country (the NHS back in England couldn't even find the first time it became a problem) and has since been operated on. For all intents and purposes, me and my family are waiting for results of the biopsy to identify what kind of illness my father suffers from. It could be anything from benign condition that he could recover from on his own to even some form of cancer. He's unable to work, is mostly homebound at least for one more week. I was busy making sure he's fine, taking him to doctors, hospital, clinics, fulfilling translation service whenever NHS couldn't hire their own translater on time (while father understands English to good degree he is not profficient enough to make a basic conversation) and taking some share of various responsibilities at home. The waiting in particular and catching sleep just anywhere I could like car or chairs when things were the most hectic caused me good deal of stress. After all, he's the only authority figure in my life.
I only very recently realized that it has also taken a toll on my own health, surprisingly finding out that my clothes are not the perfect fit they were anymore as I dropped over 10 kilograms of weight as of today. However the trend is continuing to spiral downwards and I am seeking to isolate and keep away from any more sources of anxiety to prevent it taking any more serious effect on my own wellbeing.
This isn't a leaving thread of any sort. I am still "active" in disco and will steadily increase my presence as my alllowance permits. I will answer to your comms, albeit slowly but I am most easily accessible though skype and discord. I did not wanted to bring my own frustration into decision making of an 1iC position of The Order (my guys do good job even without direct supervision, proud of them), neither to get afflicted with any more nerves that disco has to offer. I cant say how long this will last but I am hopeful that the worst news will remain just an option the doctors were obligated to remind us of.
Family is on the first place, I can say that I understand you. Let's hope for the best.
Tough times, man, everyone has to go through them at some point. Know that most of us here understand what you are going through and we wish you strenght and faith in handling the situation.
As Kaze said, you gotta force yourself to eat when you have no appetite, because otherwise, if you keep dropping weight, you won't be able to help yourself, let alone your family.
Take care of yourself and I'd say drop disco for the time being, until things stabilize. In times like these, you don't need the drama here, which tends to happen at any moment, always for dumb reasons.
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So it turned out to be a cancer. It is malign but confined to a specific place and is fully treatable and my father is expected to make full recovery next Summer from what we and the doctors understand so far. Was stuck in the hospital bringing my father everything he needed and accompanying him after an operation that is meant to "prepare" him towards the actual treatment. I brought him back home last night as he was released to rest properly in his home as he is too weak for chemotherapy straight away.